Cannot describe the sweet surrender. After years of countless drugs and drinks, i made it to a place of pure serenity tonight. I managed to complete an acacia confusa extraction this past week and after a few failed attempts, i broke through. Boundary disillusion? God? Dead? Alive? Name? Heartbeat? Breath? LIFE. As you all know, words cannot paint what i just experienced. I am now a student of this beautiful phenomenon. The future is a picture of exploration and reflection. You are loved.