I've been experimenting with full spectrum goo lately. At first I tried it in the dark or with a blindfold, and the visions were on par for what I expected during a full breakthrough. Then I tried full daylight, then in nature (also daylight). In fact, I think I built up too much hype in my mind. While simultaneously having a fair share of very deep, very intense Aya sessions, and doing a lot of spiritual/personal development work, I realized that my Aya sessions were crazy-hardcore and I actually had no idea (no frame of reference).
I've been having some big dose DMT goo experiences in my trusty original vapor genie, of which I've expertly used for 3 years straight (cannabis), and... Well... I breakthrough with ease and grace, and have had all kinds of experiences already, including meeting intelligent beings that seem to be building the world before my very eyes, but... I'm left feeling unphased--like it's no big deal. It's starting to feel like kid stuff in a way.
Don't get me wrong, this incredible, smokable mystical tool has already changed the way I look at things, but I realize now I am past a need to have these crazy-intense escape sessions. It's like I already know what's out there, so why not learn to use the tool in a more skilled and refined way? No, I don't need to keep dosing in order to know and understand, but now I'm at a point where I can begin using them to shape my world (shaman dreamweaving style), as well as live in a manner that is no longer in conflict with my heart, my eternal being, and all the forces of the world.
I had a number of
Ayahuasca sessions that were so intense they were even more intense than 4 massive tokes of goo, capable of dissolving reality and transporting me to a world of spirit/entities/whatever floats your boat. For real, I've read so many reports about breaking through with smoked/vaped DMT to be a learning curve, that I didn't know what to expect. But I've been having full breakthroughs with Ayahuasca. I never heard it talked about quite like this before which is why I'm talking about this now. I've had full-on Carlos Castaneda experiences many times over now from hearty pours of Ayahuasca (especially out in nature, or after evoking an experience), and it turned out I was jacking myself to the exact same place as vaping DMT goo takes me to for only 5-10 minutes.
I was expecting vaped DMT to take me to another order of magnitude experience, but I was already having the otherworldly experiences and learning to cope with them very well--physically first, mentally second, reality/life and spiritual development came last. Mindset changes all the time, but I have been blown more away by how rock-solid cool and comfortable I've been during these blast off experiences than by the experiences themselves. I've gotten to a point where it feels like no big deal at all, yet I'm more grounded and have my life better organized and moving forward in a happy, fulfilling way better than ever... It's bizarre. Clearly I'm not delusional. My life speaks as a testament for that. I have witnesses.
I really believe the biggest contributing factor to stabilizing myself in both realms has been to microdose Aya on a regular basis while simultaneously working to improve my life, and my own internal understanding of the unknown.
Last comment: I need to find myself a good shaman to learn more from. We need more shamans in the digital age.
Thanks for reading. I wish you all peace, joy, and love.
