This is meant to be an apology, a confession, and above all A WARNING TO OTHERS!!

So, I recently finished my first string of extractions and was thoroughly pleased with the results gained from cybs salt tek.

I have been ecstatic about dmt for the last few months and some would say obsessed.

Soon after scraping up my first pile of DMT I loaded my pipe and started smoking it. I haven't stopped for three days.

Well, today I earned myself my first ever "HYPERSLAP". And it's was not enjoyable to say the least.

I have abused dmt and used it quite irresponsibly over the last few days. I have come to realize that dmt is even more of an amazing teacher than I had ever even hoped for.

Over the last few days while tripping I had openly wished to be " permanently like this". Well DMT decided to give me a little taste of what that would be like. I loaded 20-30mgs in my pipe and started smoking, I spaced the hits out over 3-4 hours and was constantly "tripping" I was really enjoying it. All of a sudden it flipped on me and I became scared and was lost and confused and yearned to feel "normal" again. Dmt successfully held me in that state for what seemed to be years. In reality it was about two hours. I forgot what I was, I forgot what I was doing, I forgot EVERYTHING that made up my life outside of DMT, I forgot everything I knew accept that I had previously wished aloud to "be like this forever". It was absolute agony.

When DMT finally released me from it's grip I cried, I laughed, I had never been so happy to feel "myself" again.

Fellow Nexians, I feel like I have failed to uphold the values you hold so dear. I feel ashamed and unworthy to have and use DMT.

I don't ask for forgiveness, I only ask that you take my experience and learn from it as I have and save yourselves some pain and humiliation.

I wish you peace and love. I won't be around for a while.

Happy travels friends.

It happens, the important thing is that you learned from it.

It gets really weird when you don't allow enough time in between experiences. (For me at least) I would reccomend taking a short break from it at the very least.

A few days ago I too had a hyperslap. After making the decision to try DMT at the peak of LSZ and MXE, I went into the experience hoping for the DMT to teach me something and boy it did.

50mg was loaded into the pipe and within 30 seconds of smoking it (I didn't even finish the whole thing), I was told by an entity that if I want to abuse DMT, then I'll receive abuse: for the next 30 minutes I felt like the helpless and hopeless child of an abusive alcoholic parent, in pain and feeling the backhand of the DMT hyperspace while constantly saying "I'm sorry" but knowing that I deserved my abuse. I have never been raped, but it was the equivalent of psychedelic rape.

It's been a few days since that experience. I promised myself that I'd improve my lifestyle and respect DMT (as well as reduce my excessive abuse of other psychoactives, especially the moreish MXE). I want to revisit hyperspace in the hopes that I redeem myself to DMT.

DMT is always the best teacher.

I've had a similar experience with psilocybin that had disastrous results a few years ago. When I first started getting gung-ho about mushrooms, I dosed at least once or twice a week for a two month period, and by the end, I was completely fried: I started having SEVERE anxiety attacks, felt very disconnected from reality and the people around me, felt like I was never going to "come back"...basically what you're describing. But as someone else here said, at least you learned your lesson...I know I definitely did as well.