I be one a man, though I refrain from burrying my head.. many a disagreement there be, though lies many dont wish them a see..

no matter be I to let it go.. know I am mad before judgement. A disclaimer one might say.. but be it if I may It is to be heard anyway. Learn and give it said.. I seek guidance in the outer reaches of the dead. The trawelers might wish to share, when they get to learn to fare. The journey they called it I know how. A tripp they called it you know how.. a trade then? The deffence is fair.. yet it doesnt hide your flare.. it matters not. Rule who will, be it one or an other.. a tyrant for a tyrant is not a good trade.. those posessed by a superego are indeed of power, though it will bring yet more the suffering; Know this.

Stories I have heard, gifted ruling the world. Fables I have heard, it isnt so now. I hope all knows to respect this word that abusing the gift will only hurt themselves.. or they will know, a mantle of guilt they will gain with it. Without a soul, what then? By the unknowing agents, I almost got tainted.. Then this is revealed.. a dirty bliss, but a bliss just the same.. I hope There will be no children.. a wish in vain maybe, let there atleast be a lilly.. the statement latter is to be noted it not one a demeanor. The prophesies do not turn out as they would seem either, do they?

Let it be known I may teach Journeying, minor sorcery, manipulation and healing, but if one is not pure of heart, one may seek anyway, but I might reffuse. Ironicly that most will not even be aware. In return I ask nothing.

I ask guidance in traweling, a newb by the external. You will not get anything in return. A reffusal? So be it. It doesnt matter, for such guidance exists everywhere to the open eye, but still; a selfless act is rare these days..

Judge the words with care. It will seal only your fate. Bliss to you all then.

I just got an idea; we should make a ten feet tall statue of pure lsd crystal.. a solid, carved piece.. it would be the greatest acchievement of mankind..

I am a little suprised not to get response a one.. maybe this is not the place for the I after all.. saddening indeed it is..

Let her guide you in her wickedness. Blissed be.

Maybe you could introduce yourself without all the incoherent posturing?

You don't need to be Yoda. People here tend to respond well to authenticity.

Hello. I know manipulation, healing, hypnosiss and journying amongst other things.. I am willing to teach for nothing in ŕeturn, though I may decline, and you must accept it so.

I am inexpereanced tripping and would like advice and teaching. I do not make trades.

Tobad you are not fond of poetry.. but anyway.. I hope this will be better to understand then..

Welcome to the Nexus!

Be patient, not every post gets answered in a matter of minutes or hours, sometimes it may take a couple of days (or never). Don`t take it personally, just try to contribute to the best of your abilities, do your research (for example check the FAQ) and ask any questions you can`t get answer to, and just be here, you`ll blend in soon enough.

What psychedelics are you interested in taking, and whats your plan for the setting to consume it in?

Everything from amanita to dmt to ayahuasca to datura is psycoaktive... it depends.. once, wjen the time is right, I would like to kill myself.. and that will be quite a different setting..

but espescially dmt... I wish to speak to elves.. for them to teach me power. For me to share love with them.

Why?

It's not that we are not fond of poetry. It was clear to me that was what you were trying to do. But, perhaps if you actually used some stanzas rather than paragraphs, it would be less confusing. And no need to be all drama queen about not getting a response right away: you posted on Santa's birthday, there were only a few of us active.

And what's this killing yourself business? Attention ploy, or an honest statement? Either way, not a good idea. You'll escape nothing and only compound your problems.

So, as the Art man said: be genuine and true, no need for gimmicks; introduce yourself properly as a gentlemen of the court, and impress us with your poetry later. Or introduce yourself with poetry, if you want, just write it so people can understand: if one sees paragraphs, the mind automatically reads it as prose.

What kind of power do you want? And why do you want it? What makes you think these so-called elves can teach you power of any kind? Personal power comes from you, and you alone. You must do the work: no magic pixie is going to sprinkle you with all the answers.

If anything, they'll just give more questions and inspire you towards subjects that will allow you to grow and evolve as a human. But you still must do the work.

Why would I kill myself? First of all, I would like to expereance death before I get old and toothless...i know it will not solve anything as (my understanding) one gets reborn into that of their karma.. I percieve hummannity as a lost cause, but none the less... I will help all I can..

I know power comes from eithin.. but I have problem torturing myself.. none the less..mI would rather visit the elves to have a cup of tea, metaphoricly speaking...

and I am sorry bout being impaitient, as I just came from the shroomery, for better or worse, where posts get answered in minutes..(didnt really know the activity here).. maybe learn more about the gift. Telekinesis ect..

You know you can experience a sort of death on DMT, yes? And still live to tell the awesome tale?

Suicide is an incredibly selfish act. Even if you don't believe in the soul, or that death is just a door (one door closes, another door opens), you would leave pain ripples for those who care about you, presuming you have such people.

May I ask how old you are? Based on your general tone and use of language, you sound very young. Give your life another twenty years, then see if you still want to rip up the contract and swan dive from Life.

I guess i understand this. I have known someone who experienced death for the very same reasons (jumped off the local viaduct at the age of 59) but she left behind a lot of pain for her only child.
I think that a near death experience, where there is a high chance that you are not going to make it, can be very beneficial for rebooting one"s value system and general view of the world.
The older i get the less i care about becoming toothless. Look at Roger Daltrey, he went back on his word, once he realized the benefits of getting old.

I think this is pretty sad, to me it seems that we are around for such a small amount time that I cant imagine wanting to end it early just to see what happens.

if you believe in reincarnation then maybe you should do a full stint this time round and then off yourself in your next incarnation, you know, just incase your wrong about the whole coming back again thing.

its horses for courses I guess.

all the best, Icyus

People, I think, need to get over the cultural misguidance that death is somethign to be feared.. yes I am quite young, and perhaps too much so to hold my knowledge and wisdom.. set aside your advice 112233, i had no plan to end this one so soon.. or maybe not.. it depends if I am to accomplish what I wish, if I do it tomorrow, or never.. I will wait untill I have done so, or are no longer capable of trying..

Even so, 112233, I believe one to have right over ones own life, and to believe otherwise is truly selfish, it is a grace.. nothing more.. and further everything not selfish a person does it to be treated a gesture, a priveliege.. do not expect people to do anything for you, for there lies no happy path.. it is a truth, I would say. It is not a pleasant one, but it is useful just the same... as faras the ego goes.. it is not owned, not can you truly own anything... everything lives.. it is its own life and deserves to live it as it sees fit.. be it a pet or a rock.

sorry for my bad enlish, but I hope it was understandable..

3rdl, all things are quite relative.. you could compare a fly to a tree... aslong one is stuck in the clockwork, it is but another knife between the shoulders... you, in my opinion, would need to detach you mind from the scedule made by society, for it brings only suffering.. one thought for an eternity, or all that has and will ever be in a moment.. it is a matter of perspective, I would say.. what you make of it. Say one dies tomorrow, one would adapt.. even so, people have the choice to either sit in their haze or live their lives that very day.

blissed be, Icyus.

how can you possibly know what my mind is attached to?

you say I need to detach but I would say it is you who needs to detach from your ideas of how existence works. My use of psychedelics has taught me 1 very important lesson and that is that I know nothing about anything and for me to assign a belief to my life would be silly because I simply don't know, and cant know, how this crazy existential game is played.

I will quite happily consider reincarnation but I would never say I know that this is how it is. I will also entertain a strict materialist paradigm, but again I would never say that that is how all this works.

If you let go of your preconceived ideas of how existence works then surely you can see that there is a chance that when you die it will all stop, there will be nothing else and you will simply be dead, there will be no experience after this one and you will have wasted the precious time you had.

if you want to risk that then fine, but don't fool yourself that you know how this giant funfair works because im sorry, but you don't. how could you?

anyway, I hope you stick around.

I agree: death is not to be feared. But consider the actions you take now will effect what happens when you pass through the Veil. From my point of view, before we come into this life, we agree to be here to perform certain tasks, or jobs, if you will. And that when your contract is complete--your task in this life, whatever that may be--that is the moment you die. To kill yourself before your job is done not only affects you, but those connected to: they have jobs related to you that would be disrupted if you give up before your task is fulfilled. So then you must return to a 3D world (likely not Earth, since, again just my view, this planet will not be 3D anymore, we are climbing the Dimensional ladder to take part in the next octave of being) to make right what you threw away. So whatever you run from now will simply have to be fixed, or, more properly put: you must create BALANCE.

This is the reincarnational view: BUT. What if there is no reincarnation? I believe there is, but I would never be so arrogant as to say this is absolute fact. In the case that this is the only life there is, then you would be tossing aside a very precious moment: this brief nano second that is this life. Now, if you were in camps at Auschwitz, I'd say you have a very good reason to end it early. But I doubt your plight is that serious.

And I also agree that we have the right over our lives, and if you truly want to end it, that is fine. It is a form of social Darwinism; "The Weak are Meat and the Strong Do Eat" (quote from Cloud Atlas).........

But, in the end, I think since you are young, you will change your mind about wanting to die when you truly taste the sweetness of life. Life can be very hard for a young person, I understand that, I've had my dark moments (and I'm an old, crusty curmudgeon of 33 years); but the darkness fades as more light shines in the dusty corners. But, it must be said, not for everyone. We all have the potential, though.

We start this life heavy, heavy, heavy. INCREDIBLY dense lumps of coal we are; but inside each of those lumps of coal is a bright shining diamond waiting to break through.

There is a bright Diamond within you, Icyus: it is your task to shave off the layers of dense, black coal and find it. It is an awesome and challenging task, and it is also the greatest Game you will ever play (till you get to the next level, anyways). Right now you are the tiny bit of dirt in the clam shell: But that bit of grit can become a Pearl. Strive to become this Diamond, this Pearl.

You would do well to note that I would never kill myself to avoid any pain. More out of curiosity... and I would have you believe the balance throughout my existance is closely monitored. Were I at auschwitz, or something alike (not to say I aint) I would face my death with a big smile. Furthermore as to shaving off layers on the core... have you begun identifying the nothingness yet?

Forgive my bluntness, but killing yourself out of "curiosity" has got to be the most idiotic reason I have EVER heard of!! Are you really so incurious about LIFE??????? Good lord, son, life has so much to offer, so many layers, so many paths: you want to end it all out of "curiosity"???????? Foolish.

I'm sorry for being so harsh, but it appears the sledgehammer rather than the chisel is what you require to break open your stubbornness.

Do you have no goals in life? No passions? Skills or talents to nurture and cultivate? People to inspire and be inspired by? Places you wish to see? Foods you have not tasted? Women to be tasted and unlocked?

If you are so curious about Death, I suggest you begin reading about it. They are ample books our there on the potential afterlife, and every single one points to suicide as being foolish. I suggest you read the work of past life regressionist Dolores Cannon, specifically the book Between Life and Death, which is the book that inspired me so many years ago now to drop my old Satanic ways (I used to be a card-carrying member of The Church of Satan).

Please read this book, and think it over. You may read it for FREE right here.


And to answer you question as to whether or not I have begun shaving the layers and "begun identifying the nothingness"........ ::::

Are you blind? There is light in Everything, including the Darkness. There is no such thing as nothingness. I have begun identifying the Somethingness.

If you are as curious as you claim to be, why not practice Lucid Dreaming and Out of Body travel? You can leave your body and explore the astral realms and return to your body alive and well.

If you suicide your way out, you're likely to find you have created your own personal hell. FULL of REGRET and lamentation. Your blinders will be removed and you will see the damage you have caused.