It feels necessary for me to do the best I can to document, share, hopefully gain some insight & feedback from other experienced travelers, regarding my journey last night. It's so difficult to put into words. I've been shaken into silence since. Yet, I feel completely blessed & at peace with myself.
I suppose I should start by back-tracking a bit. The last couple of times that I've broken through have been struggles for me....like I was in danger. I was shown things that I didn't want to see...yet needed to be shown. I stood eye to eye with entities that I'd never encountered. We did not recognize one another. They were not kind to me.
On one journey, I was faced in a stand off with a force that got me in it's clutches & refused to set me free. I kept telling it I was protected. I was shielded. When it refused to let me go, I threatened it. I stated that if it would not let go of my soul, I would be forced to take theirs. I was in a trap. All of this was OEV. I never blinked, as to not break eye contact with it.
I remember reaching out as far as my arms could stretch. I grabbed it right in the core & snatched at it, pulling into myself with all of the energy I had in my body. I recall exclaiming aloud "I asked, & begged for you to let me free. You leave me no choice. I am protected! I'm taking you before you take me!" Then I felt a force unlike anything imaginable thrust into my body. This rattled me, causing me to back out and step back on this side. I know that's a BIG no-no. I felt like I had sinned. It didn't sit well with me. However, at the same time, I felt victorious, strong, invincible. It caused great unrest within me.
Afterwards, for 2 days straight, I kept feeling this alien vibration of breath, or breathing within my left foot. It was annoying. There was a rhythm to it. It never stopped, regardless of where I walked, went, sat, stood, etc.. After ruling out any possible nerve, muscular, or physical issues, it dawned on me that it wasn't just my imagination or will of thought. I firmly believed that I REALLY snatched it's soul & somehow brought it back to this side with me. It was in me! I was feeling it's breath in my foot. Why my foot? That's something I'm not even going to attempt to solve.
It hit me then, that if I wasn't in true danger before that, I was now. I had screwed around big time! Without hesitation, I knew I had to return & release it. That night (2 days after taking it) I returned on a mission to release, ask for forgiveness, & hope to make things right. I wanted peace. Though, things didn't go as planned at first.
It wasn't going to be as simple as me just setting it free. They came for me immediately. They wanted their comrade back. It scared the living daylights out of me. I backed out without releasing it. Two hours later, I returned & exorcised it out of my body. I felt relief but still knew I hadn't made things "right".
It prevented me from having the courage to return back under the veil. Until last night.
Yesterday, I spent the whole day preparing myself mentally, physically, & spiritually. I knew I was about to embark on a mission that was incredibly important. Crucial.
After smudging & protecting myself, I went in. The plan was to walk in slow. But, with the nature of our pal Hostilis, it's not up to me. I was VERY quickly yanked under the veil.
I've never broken through so quickly. SO intensely.
It was nothing but pure beauty. I was quickly surrounded by familiar forces/entities. Again, all of this was OEV. Pretty certain my eyes didn't blink for at least 20 minutes. I couldn't take my sight off of what was before me. They were forgiving me. An inner warmth ran throughout my whole being. The beat of my heart took on a different rhythm. Apnea was occurring. It was comforting. I was deep on the other side. It made me weep without any control. I was no longer Human. They had taken & lifted me. All conscious control over my human vessel was lost.
Hands were upon me. All over me. It was purest love, strongest, most sincere embrace I have ever felt. Then, I started speaking....Speaking in a foreign dialect. Something unearthly. I could hear myself. I could feel my mouth moving. Yet, had zero control or awareness of what language I was speaking. It was just happening. Fluently. They were responding to me. We understood one another.
This blessing touched me so deeply, I started to sob. Tears ran from my eyes like a dam had just been opened. It felt as if I had been chosen. For what, I'm still unsure. I cried out for Mother. Repeatedly. So loudly that it woke my Husband...He awoke terrified of what was happening with me. He jolted up & grabbed me. This snapped me & caused me to reach for the tether on Earth. I grabbed his arm & pleaded for him to aid me in getting back to this side. He did. Though, it made him angry,(he doesn't use DMT, understand, or believe) he pulled me back & helped me pull out of it.
I didn't sleep after this. I went to work, still shaken, confused, & curious. What was this bizarre language that I suddenly spoke? Why did I know it so well & not know it at all? What were we saying to one another? What were they saying to me? All of it made sense when I was in trance on the other side. I know not what I was saying, now that I'm back on this side.
Has anyone out there had any kind of similar (Speaking in an unknown language) experience?
I'm interested in learning of any similar happenings, opinions, insight, or just thoughts....
Please share.
If you aren't momentarily terrified, you haven't broken through.
Be cautious and respectful at all times.
All that I report is nothing more than a figment of my imagination.
Everything I thought I knew before....it's all wrong!