Warrior wrote:
This seems to be the repeating pattern after my experiences. And I can relate to the juggling act because I tend to walk around feeling hyper-aware of my behavior patterns, and when I start noticing fuzzy/slow memory recall, increased distractibility, subtle impulsive decisions creeping up out of nowhere, it begins to create a vicious cycle in my mind of fearing the irrational. The juggling act has to include protecting yourself, your health, the people in your life, and so on. I completely understand the juggling act, too well.
The only thing that I will add, is that fear of the irrational, is an irrational fear... if that makes sense. What I mean here, is that the irrational has it's own substantial validity. Your fear of the irrational is based on your fear of "crazy"... please understand one does not necessitate the other. "crazy" absolutely needs to be feared, and is a healthy fear. The fear of the irrational, is not a healthy fear, the irrational needs to be balanced properly with the rational; they are two aspects of the same thing; two sides of the same coin. Whereas "crazy" is purely and simply a disease, and needs to be avoided at all costs, or healed and fixed where applicable.
Intuition, for example, is not rational, but it has absolute and very valid and valuable applications. Hope that clears it up