Hello and how to begin? Better yet, how do I introduce myself while maintaining my anonymity? I'll try.

Years in recovery from drugs and alcohol , a near life accident, and many miracles had put me in a place of amazing joy and acceptance of some physical limitations while comfortably living a spiritual life. This spanned over a decade until a series of unfortunate events over the past few years had cost me most of my material possessions, my self esteem, and my connection/acceptance of source. As the friend that suggested the Nexus to me pointed out, it was as if I was almost forced to mentally evolve into a victim to survive. I maintained my sobriety and "continued through prayer and meditation to increase my conscious contact with god as I understood him" hoping to be relieved from the depression, pain, (physical, mental, and spiritual) and anxiety that came with my new role as a victim. The problem or paradox was that, I'm continually led back to the spirituality of my understanding, the truth I had glimpsed while using hallucinogens in my youth, and probably the only one that doesn't fit into a typical 12 step mold. I was stuck and isolated.

I had heard and then read about Dimitri on and off over the years, traveling in circles of visionary artists it became a common topic but was I fearful of relapse so never gave it any opopportunity. I had begun using mj for my pain and anxiety a few yrs back and this helped me look past the stigma placed on spiritual medicine. I began to say that if I were in the right setting, and I could see it was syncrodestiny and not me chasing the high, I would consider certain hallucinagins again.

In a nutshell that's where I find myself now. I met an individual in the most unlikely spiritual settings that, after hearing struggles asked if i had considered meeting Dimitri? I asked him to clarity and he told me if it were something I were interested in could arrange a meeting, free of charge of course, but wanted me to do some research before making any decisions. He pointed me to the Nexus and after a night of hopping between reading the forums and Terrance McKenna lectures on YouTube I find myself a member here with a renewed hope, feeling a bit less isolated. I'm definitely hoping to experience this but need to research some obstacles (tramadol used for chronic pain) and some of the mental risks before surrendering. At least I finally feel I have some direction. Thanks for your time and consideration, love and light.

Welcome fellow traveler

As you may know most actual shamans have had to deal with some sort of great challenge to themselves, before becoming an effective healer. It is part of the process, like a slingshot that has to be drawn really hard downwards, in order to shoot high when released.

Chances are Dimitri will help you with new insights. Nobody can guarantee a good trip every time, that's between you and the universe, but the chances are certainly good. I for one have learned to trust Ayahuasca, and I wouldn't have ended up traveling and taking Aya, if I hadn't smoked Dmitri first, to feel for myself the wonderful presence of it.

Enjoy

I'd say that for spiritual exploration, Aya makes a lot more sense. Like, literally, DMT is confusing as hell.

Of course there are as many experiences as there are beings, so I can't speak for yours, just piping in.

Good luck anyway!

Love,
MAO

Welcome to the Nexus. Wounded Healer is a great name.

The archetype is there for a reason, and it is a tough road. But, if you haven't figured out how to heal yourself, you can not truly aid another in their healing.

It is clear that you will be meeting spice soon, and that it will rock your world. There is no way to prepare for it, but I would certainly ditch tramadol. It is a crappy drug anyway, and you don't need it. Any pain that tramadol can handle can be dealt with any number of better ways.

Meditate if you can. Find some inner stillness and recharge your energy centers.

Soon the mysterious ways will be quite a bit more mysterious for you.... Hyperspace awaits.


HSF

So after some perusing and searching I've only found a couple threads, this being one of them that reads that tramadol is rather dangerous, but doesn't give many details. as a new member I can't post.

https://www.dmt-nexus.me...&m=504126#post504126

I love the approach that if my pain can be handled with just tramadol I should be able to shrug it, but it's quite the miracle in itself that I only use it without going into much personal details. My question is how long would I have to be off of it for it to be out of my system and safely journey. for the past month or so I've been taking it as prescribed 50 milligrams every 4 to 6 hours, although I'm prescribed up to double that. With intense meditation and awareness I've been able to get that down too 50 milligrams once or twice a day for the past couple days and believe I can't stop temporarily. Also what are the actual risks.

So after some perusing and searching I've only found a couple threads, this being one of them that reads that tramadol is rather dangerous, but doesn't give many details. as a new member I can't post.

https://www.dmt-nexus.me...&m=504126#post504126

I love the approach that if my pain can be handled with just tramadol I should be able to shrug it, but it's quite the miracle in itself that I only use it without going into much personal details. My question is how long would I have to be off of it for it to be out of my system and safely journey. for the past month or so I've been taking it as prescribed 50 milligrams every 4 to 6 hours, although I'm prescribed up to double that. With intense meditation and awareness I've been able to get that down too 50 milligrams once or twice a day for the past couple days and believe I can stop at least temporarily. Also what are the actual risks.

I forgot to mention I'm new to the use of forums, I apologize for my sloppy edit.

You don't have to quit tramadol to vape spice... but if you try ayahuasca, you will need to have gotten it out of your system.

In general, tramadol is a light opiate, but it still has most of the negatives of that class of drug... with few of the benefits or euphoric aspects. As such, it is generally worthless. Any pain that it can handle, can be handled without opiates.

Without knowing your situation, I can only suggest that acupuncture is a far better treatment for pain than becoming an opiate addict. I would also recommend getting into meditation. Killing pain is usually ill advised, especially as a long term solution. You need to try and fix whatever underlying issues you have and eliminate the source of your pain. I know this may be difficult (or even impossible) depending on what the cause actually is... but you would be surprised at what kinds of things can be cured or at least substantially mitigated via some forms of "alternative" healing.

Good luck, and welcome to the Nexus
HSF

Gotcha and thanks! After further discussion and research I've got a better grasp of both extraction and interaction. The chemistry and medical aspects initially intimidated me and I wasn't allowing myself to thoroughly understand what I was reading. Finally found a copy of DMT the spiritual molecule which was helpful but already dwarfed by what knowledge I've found here. I'm getting familiar with the nexus and will check out chat one of these free nights. I've already felt a huge shift in my being just being here. (weird sentence no?) I feel as though I have found my dharma again for lack of better words and have found myself better able to face the current challenges of my life. thanks for being here with me.