Evening Nexus,

An hour ago I smoked 60mg of 1:1 10x caapi changa. Before hand I had spent 30 minutes meditating, which was quite profound on it's own -- feelings of accelerating and peculiar shifts in consciousness occurred which I haven't before experienced during meditation. After the proper mindset was achieved, and a quiet Tibetan singing bowl track had been put on, I proceeded to dose.

It was smoked in 2 long, slow, deep takes from the bong and held in as long as possible. After the 2nd hit was held and exhaled, I closed my eyes and was greeted by intense feelings of familiarity and déjà vu. As the visions began to come to structural fruition, I was struck by a sudden sense of melancholy. Suddenly I was shown a scene not unfamiliar to Earth itself. The supremely exotic and alien mindscapes seen in past experiences were all but void, as the tone was reminiscent of an African grassland; the entities themselves looked very human rather than interdimensional. It felt very much from the Earth as opposed to from the other side of the universe. Perhaps the presence of concentrated Caapi alkaloids lended to the very nature-based premise of this experience.

The scene was one of atrophy. As I struggle to remember many of the finer details, I'll post what I wrote immediately upon returning to conceivable reality:

"Multicultural children and families in fields, crying for the loss of Mother nature. Burning forests, and environmental atrocities elaborately painted against the back of my eyelids. The inevitable result of humanity's ruthless and never-ending declaration of warfare against the planet. A deep sadness accompanied these entopic visions.

A plea for mercy from the intelligence of nature herself - as the loss of her will certainly be the end for us. When she goes, so do we, and yet we continue to ravish the soil from which we eat, poison the oceans and rivers from which we drink, and decay the very air from which we breathe. This myopic thinking wll cost us everything."

I apologize if my writing is a bit scattered, as I'm still feeling very mild effects and am trying to grasp the whole event. Though I figured since the message was so prominent, it'd be best to write as much out as I can before any more memory of it is lost. Basically it was a very planet-conscious trip, and will further reinforce my tree-huggery. I could feel the planet's sadness over what we are doing to it.

Upon returning I immediately was reminded of a line Terence McKenna had said,
"If we could feel what we're doing [to the Earth], we would STOP doing it!"

Nice write-up, thanks for sharing.

I'm also confronted with nature-based themes when I smoke changa. As if the plants, the planet itself, is screaming for mercy. I really feel what you're saying there.

Maybe we shouldn't be labeling it tree-huggery when it's the trees and the plants and everything on it that sustains us. Although I did enjoy that term

Perhaps that's exactly what we're doing with these plants...learning to feel from the perspective of the earth. I firmly believe that these plants we imbibe give us direct communication with the earth itself. These chemicals are how the plants mitigate their relationship with their environment.

It's just if we'll choose to hear the message and act on it.

Thanks dioxippus, glad you enjoyed.

I believe that it's the harmalas, as this experience lasted longer as well. This dose was from a small second batch of changa I made with the alkaloids of caapi leaf soaked in 99% iso for nearly two months (as opposed to the 3 day soak of my first batch). This was my first time with this second batch and it was distinctly different than the more abstract/'alien' experiences I've gotten with less harmala-rich blends. This one had a sense of smoothness, as if the edges were dulled down, but just as intricately woven.

It was between "tree-huggery" and "hippy-ism", decided on the former

Ahh that's a really interesting point. Perhaps a way for the plants/the 'spirit' of Life to communicate their feelings/emotions to us Fun thought to ponder. So many theories, so few answers... though I've come to learn that's how it goes with this stuff. One that olympus mon has said, that I agree with, is that it's an intelligence of some kind, and as I have more and more of these experiences the more I'm convinced of this.

Hopefully in time more people will genuinely care about what's happening to the planet. Time will tell, I suppose.

:/

Basically how I felt about it