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psychosisdoses wrote: i thought the 'one' its been 13 months since iv woke to her face..
those girls sure do like to lay them spider eggs up in one's brain. havnt really been in a relationship myself in a while b/c of that, but im sure ill run into a chiller someday. sooner the better the only way to do that though is to forgetabout the past (yes, tis hard) or else it will only screw with your future and its relations. all of my posts are fictional. please interpret them as such.
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Derek
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once more i know what needs to be done i know what should be done... but i cant help remembering the imagined utopia.. the seemingly perfectness of it all.. i still have my mind wrapped around my 'life' my 'future' my 'plans'... somewhere along the way the bottom fell out, she pushed an shoved ... cold and indifferent.. i left i felt i had to, she wanted it just couldnt do it.. even though i know it was right and had to be done, i regret it.. every moment of every day.. i try to live my life i try to forget her but every moment there is something to remind me.. every moment shes in my thoughts.. to realize how after all this time apart shes moved on and im still fucked up.. not that i want her to be upset she deserves to be happy.. i just wish it were with me.. i feel i cant move on .. and i seem to know that ill never forget her.. and i feel ill never stop loving her.. its a bullshit situation.. i just feel as though iv been cheated *shrug* back to work... "once youve locked yourself into a serious drug collection the tendency is to push it as far as you can..." - hunter s. thompson
~~~~~~~~...You are me and i am you, i will always be with you...~~~~~~~~IAmUsWeYouMe~~~~~~~~ ‹maxzar100› YOU are like acid ‹mattimus› dosesdosingdoses
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sounds like you need to find another one then..
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Kalt und Heiß, Schwarz und Rot, Kürper und Geist, Liebe und Chaos
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psychosisdoses wrote:once more i know what needs to be done i know what should be done... but i cant help remembering the imagined utopia.. the seemingly perfectness of it all.. i still have my mind wrapped around my 'life' my 'future' my 'plans'... somewhere along the way the bottom fell out, she pushed an shoved ... cold and indifferent.. i left i felt i had to, she wanted it just couldnt do it.. even though i know it was right and had to be done, i regret it.. every moment of every day.. i try to live my life i try to forget her but every moment there is something to remind me.. every moment shes in my thoughts.. to realize how after all this time apart shes moved on and im still fucked up.. not that i want her to be upset she deserves to be happy.. i just wish it were with me.. i feel i cant move on .. and i seem to know that ill never forget her.. and i feel ill never stop loving her.. its a bullshit situation.. i just feel as though iv been cheated *shrug* back to work... AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRGH!!!!!!!!!.............you.....started.....typing.....like....jorkest.... do the withering memories of past lover(s) and unfulfilled dreams cause that? But anyway, 13 months past a relationship is such a long time already. Just have the pride to forget her not because her memory seems to be making you miserable but because she's not worth it. If she had died or whatever I could understand but she abandoned you as I understand. But she really does not worth it. If she's really worth the pain and suffering then she'd be with you. Need to calculate between salts and freebases? Click here! Need to calculate freebase or salt percentage at a given pH? Click here!
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Thanks for pointing that out infund. It is a bad habit that I am going to try to break now that it has come to my attention. I suppose it would make things a bit clearer if I wrote sentences. It's going to take some getting use to. But, might as well start sometime.
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Kalt und Heiß, Schwarz und Rot, Kürper und Geist, Liebe und Chaos
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Nae really bother , I just thing it's a funny way of writting, nothing really wrong with it however. I'm sure you have no problem getting your message across with or without the extra dots (...)! Need to calculate between salts and freebases? Click here! Need to calculate freebase or salt percentage at a given pH? Click here!
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haha maybe i'll write a book this way...and the book will be called ...Ellipsis...
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"No, seriously"
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Jorkest wrote: Thanks for pointing that out infund. It is a bad habit that I am going to try to break now that it has come to my attention. I suppose it would make things a bit clearer if I wrote sentences. It's going to take some getting use to. But, might as well start sometime. Nah, without those dot's you wouldn't be Jorkest would you? I think even with those dot's the message comes over quite well so I don't think it's a problem at all. And I also saw the 'Jorkest' behaviour with other members as well. Hmm....maybe I should try it myself someday....you know...like write the Jorkest way....hmmmzzz...feels weird.
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i probably couldnt keep up with writing that way if i wanted too anyway...its just the way my brain flows
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Derek
Posts: 1210 Joined: 12-Mar-2009 Last visit: 23-Jun-2011 Location: here there and everywhere
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hahahaha... that gave me a good laugh those are my... dramatic pauses.. i didnt much notice i even did it. like jorkest said kinda how my brain flows... "once youve locked yourself into a serious drug collection the tendency is to push it as far as you can..." - hunter s. thompson
~~~~~~~~...You are me and i am you, i will always be with you...~~~~~~~~IAmUsWeYouMe~~~~~~~~ ‹maxzar100› YOU are like acid ‹mattimus› dosesdosingdoses
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Derek
Posts: 1210 Joined: 12-Mar-2009 Last visit: 23-Jun-2011 Location: here there and everywhere
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loop.. here i am again kinda goes against the whole idea of this thread.. this is the normal me. i need to try to shy away from the dramatic pause (...)'s problem is they are just so fitting.. i feel my writing doesnt make sense without them. tripping out hard (at risk of sounding repetitive) .... haha i had much to say but just now realized i was doing it in my head and having very little luck typing it... oh well i really do appreciate you guys "once youve locked yourself into a serious drug collection the tendency is to push it as far as you can..." - hunter s. thompson
~~~~~~~~...You are me and i am you, i will always be with you...~~~~~~~~IAmUsWeYouMe~~~~~~~~ ‹maxzar100› YOU are like acid ‹mattimus› dosesdosingdoses
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Commas can be so impersonal... I find the dot dot dot method very honest. It shows where people stop to think. Anyone can spend hours writing and re-editing a post just to save face. Hell I always recheck what I write and probably come off a great deal smarter than I actually am. You know?.. That's kinda... cool! <------ See! It sounds like people talk! Offf the fookin' hook I tells ya! AAAAH!!! How can a man love a forum so much? <---- I re-edited this because I didn't use a question mark.
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I don't think it's a dramatic pause when Jorkest does it though. I think he did some nuerotoxic rc's and can't complete an entire thought. Lol, jk. You lock the door, and throw away the key
There's someone in my head but it's not me
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Derek
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arrrrghhhh!!! i feel cursed.. tripping really fine tunes the focus of memories dont it? and i have too many of them.. she owns my damn soul i dont understand how i am supposed to get over her.. i feel how i would imagine a old couple would feel when one passed. and i know there was a time we both felt that for each other.. sure there are other women.. but shes the only her. shes all i wanted. god damn women i got to wake for work in 4 hours "however far away i will always love you, however long i stay i will always love you, whatever words i say i will always love you," ... its making me absolutely crazy literally crazy "once youve locked yourself into a serious drug collection the tendency is to push it as far as you can..." - hunter s. thompson
~~~~~~~~...You are me and i am you, i will always be with you...~~~~~~~~IAmUsWeYouMe~~~~~~~~ ‹maxzar100› YOU are like acid ‹mattimus› dosesdosingdoses
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Well, hopefully The Cure lives up to its name...as it usually does for me.
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Derek
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amor_fati wrote:Well, hopefully The Cure lives up to its name...as it usually does for me. disintegration is my favorite album.. but the song lovesong was like my song for her.. so its heart wrenching. "once youve locked yourself into a serious drug collection the tendency is to push it as far as you can..." - hunter s. thompson
~~~~~~~~...You are me and i am you, i will always be with you...~~~~~~~~IAmUsWeYouMe~~~~~~~~ ‹maxzar100› YOU are like acid ‹mattimus› dosesdosingdoses
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The Enlightend One
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Hey Psycosis a wise man told me "the best way to get over old pussy is new pussy" a little vulgar I know but works well. Can you Imagine? From one single Idea everything appeared here. RZA
Here in the Prime Creators universe all things are possible,because all things are possible many lessons are learned.
None Of This Is Real!
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MAN NEEDS WOMAN MORE THAN WOMAN NEEDS MAN. I believe that’s very true. Women can seek emotion comfort in other women who are just friends. Men cannot seek emotional comfort the same way women can. A man can only get complete emotional comfort from the women he loves. I think guys suffer heartache much longer and worse than women do. We think we're so strong emotionally, but it's complete bullshit. We’re good at holding our emotions in and using anger to cover it up, that’s all. Out of all the things a man can do in this world, getting over lost love is the toughest of them all. In the past I found work to be the best solution if you can’t find someone else to fill that void. That’s how it seems to me anyway. I would work, take on a hobby, etc., or find another woman which is not always as easy as it sounds. I’m in a tough situation myself. I love TWO women. One I’m married to and the other I’m not married to. I would never trade one for the other, but can only have one woman, so I’m half heartbroken and half in love all the time. This is what I get for flirting. I would never leave my wife for another woman. I love her very much and she loves me and we are happily married with kids. But I also love another woman who also loves me who I can’t be with. It’s complicated and my fault. There’s no way out of it and no way to fix it. I only hope the other girl finds a man that loves her as much as I do so she can be happy. You may remember me as 69Ron. I was suspended years ago for selling bunk products under false pretenses. I try to sneak back from time to time under different names, but unfortunately, the moderators of the DMT-Nexus are infinitely smarter than I am.
If you see me at the waterpark, please say hello. I'll be the delusional 50 something in the American flag Speedo, oiling up his monster guns while responding to imaginary requests for selfies from invisible teenage girls.
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Derek
Posts: 1210 Joined: 12-Mar-2009 Last visit: 23-Jun-2011 Location: here there and everywhere
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iv been dating a girl for near a year now (one business week shy) i have always been very close to this particular girl we went to highschool together iv known her two years longer then my ex... i honestly love and care for this girl very much.. but the ex is always on my mind so its like theres a wall up... i dunno its a shame i feel i can very much relate ron.. "once youve locked yourself into a serious drug collection the tendency is to push it as far as you can..." - hunter s. thompson
~~~~~~~~...You are me and i am you, i will always be with you...~~~~~~~~IAmUsWeYouMe~~~~~~~~ ‹maxzar100› YOU are like acid ‹mattimus› dosesdosingdoses
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psychosisdoses wrote:disintegration is my favorite album.. but the song lovesong was like my song for her.. so its heart wrenching. For me it was "Wish" and then "Kiss Me, Kiss Me, Kiss Me," but now it's "Pornography." I love post-punk, especially Joy Division, Siouxsie, The Birthday Party, and Gang of Four.
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