Dear all,

Wonderful to be part of this community. I haven't gotten around to writing anything yet, but have been lurking for quite a while. It is very promising to see all of you working in unison toward expansion of consciousness and a bigger understanding of yourselves, whilst also subscribing to proper safe use of the sacraments.

I am a twenty one year old student of medicine situated in Europe. I have a lot of experiences with 4-AcO-DMT, some with LSD and quite a lot with 2C-B. I have been very intrigued -- in the past few weeks -- by DMT, in lieu of McKenna's self-transforming machine elves and various other reports of a higher intelligent entity communicating telepathically with the observing party.

I have been feeling quite discombobulated lately, perhaps due to the weather, perhaps due to various fears of different kinds pertaining to my ability to study and perform in this course. I believe I have a long way to go before I can start trusting myself academically. The journey in medicine is a sacred one, and it is important for me to show myself that I have the will-power and discipline to carry through the first 3 years (the Bachelor), at least - to dip my toes into this field and see if it is really me, or I need to travel other roads. I plan on taking a 6 month to 1 year break after the bachelor, which is accepted by our course, and go travelling for a long time. Get to know myself. Meditate. Enhance my mental and physical conditioning and see some of the wonderful beauty in the world. Providing perspective.

Last night I decided to take the plunge into hyperspace. I made a concoction of 6 grams of Syrian Rue simmered at 20 minutes twice. I took 20mg of DMT first, and then after I questionned whether the experience would be immersive enough, I added another 20mg 45 minutes after. It wasn't the jaw-dropping experience that I was hoping for, in terms of fractal landscapes, beauty and the cosmic giggle, but rather an interesting ride with peculiar properties. I look forward to doing it again.

I feel quite exhausted today, after the journey, but hopefully I'll get back on the horse, so to speak. The weather situation is quite draining as well. Dark and gloomy outside most of the time. Winter is coming.

I am not sure if my next journey is going to be with Syrian Rue again, or whether I should find a way to smoke the DMT instead. I may look into changa, although I am not very well-versed in either smoking nor herbs in general. But that's a potential learning experience that awaits, so I cannot complain about that.

I want to thank the people at DMT-Nexus' chat with whom I conversed last night on a multitude of subjects. I hope to do this again sometime.

Much love,
Namaste

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