Hi I'm Paulie G and firstly I would like to say hello and well met to the members of my Nexus family, it's taken 43 years of pain, bewilderment and trauma, for me to find the family of the mind that I have been searching for. In the last 2 days Ma D has taught me more than I have ever learned up until now. Seeing the world and myself without the filters has transformed pain into the purity of love. Ma D has transformed me in 2 days and now I feel I can be who I was meant to be, the largest part of that is being the father my kids deserve and the husband my wife has lived through a lot of shit to finally meet.
I need to say a couple of things, I probably wont post a lot but I need to post this.
There is truly a nurturing, loving being that we have all come from, I cant call this beautiful entity god because that name has been poisoned buy self serving power grasping religions, but the golden source is there for us all, and Ma D is the way that leads us to the source. We all need to spend time with the source to be truly alive. The source is the all that lies between what is, and we all have some of this golden stuff within, it is what gives us spirit, if we lose our connection with the source then the spirit that is us will wither and die, this is the flaw that has overtaken the world of today, spirit is dying within so many that inhabit the world with us, and that death is reflected by society. With Ma D and the golden source at my back I'm hoping I can bring spirit back into our world for the lost ones, even if it is just in the tiniest way, I will always seek to improve the reality around me and hopefully give others the energy to find their way. It is the only thing I can do, how can I return to the source when my physical existence ends, how can I partake of the glory of that return if I only lived selfishly? Remember my family, love is the sustenance of spirit, give freely and you will have it back manyfold.
One other thing, energy is not there to be harnessed, energy is a gift of the source and the full spectrum of it is only accessed by harmonizing with it, not harnessing it, to harness is a slave term, harmony is the only true way.
So live harmoniously my family, and much love to you all.

Nicely put! I like it.

Welcome, Paulie! Much love to you!

Your with Friends now , all you need is love and the deemstur

just wondering....has anyone ever accidentally vaped half a g of jung spice thinking it wasn to strong only to find it was actually really really strong?

Beautiful words!

I am actually suspicious of this sort of statement, and consider it a bit naive.

I've had it several times before, I believed that wow! after this awesome amazing trip, I'm a new man! Changed in a week! Whoo hoo! Then going back to the same context, same people and situations, and sure enough a few months later, I'm the same ol' me I always was.

I've seen people who change from trips, but it's not from one trip over a few days. It's from regular tripping and hanging out with like-minded individuals that have seen similar things, and also regular gathering, in whatever form they may come.



No mushroom nor DMT nor anything can produce lasting change in a single trip, or in general in a short time. THat's why religious people for instance, use regular rituals, throughout the day, week and year. If you do them, if you take active regular steps to remind yourself of whatever you saw during the trip, you will indeed change and be a new person. If you don't do anything of the sort, then most of the insights you've gained will fade and next years you'll be pretty much back to baseline.

There's a reason why the Santo Daime take Ayahuasca regularly, and why the Native American Church take Peyote regularly. If it worked from doing it once, they probably wouldn't bother doing it for a lifetime.

Glad you've had the awakening visions. I hope you can now take them and actively start a practice of integrating them constructively, and sharing them with the world, IMO it's the only way that works long term.