Greetings to you all fellow travellers.
This is my first post. I feel compelled at the moment to write it down and share it with you.
Last week I smoked for the first time. The experience took me so completely by surprise despite having done a considerable amount of reading on the subject.
Upon the almost immediate onset of the effects, I blew out most of the smoke involuntarily and entered into an indescribable place of mosaic depth and space with a definite and amazing alienness to it. 15/20mg was the amount that I placed in the pipe for a first offering.
Tonight, I sat in front of the same pipe with the same amount in it ( maybe a tiny bit more ) and waited there for a very long time before picking it up and putting it to my lips.
Filled with fear I began to breath the vapour in and held the flame underneath the pipe to hasten the onset along just to get it over and done with, this time I held all of the smoke in . What happened next was an enormous but smooth rush/transition into the most beautiful display of colour and pattern that melted into meaning and alien profundity similar to what happens for me during my Ayahuasca journeys when the medicine is just starting to come on strong.
I am visited by a being that inhabits a space so strange that I fumble for any description to describe it, it is just so other dimensional and different. It offers me perspectives and I am connected with it in ways that I don't pretend to understand. There is enormous depth and meaning here.
The most profound aspect is the depth of intelligence and the sheer alienness of it. What to make of it I just don't know. During the experience part of me wanted it to stop immediately because it is just so confronting and mind boggling and another part of me is struck with awe and cant look away.
Disturbingly or luckily I have just under a gram left and wonder just what the hell it might mean to smoke a breakthrough dose...........Im in no rush at the moment and terrified as I am of the thought, am going to work my way toward that objective.
I hope I've made some sort of sense and am looking forward to any feedback that people might care to offer...
Blessings to you all