Hello psychonauts all over the forum, I think I finally understand the secret language of the mushroom, this is almost to much for me to explain, my brain is still boiling, but what I experienced was beyond my imagination.

Brian and me ate 80+ psilocybe semilanceata with lemon. He also had the strongest weed I have ever tasted, we drank the tea and smoked the joint. I must tell you, It's been a while since a smoked weed, and it got right into me like a rocket, I was almost tripping on the weed itself, it was already to intense.

Onset

Slowly I could feel to mushroom rise inside my body, it got higher and higher, to a point where I got very confused, I was afraid. "When do this stop, what is happening to my body? Why is 80 mushrooms suddenly so strong? The lemon? The weed?"

The dark stumping Psytrance song by "Loud - Subinya Ace Ventura Remix" dragged me deeper and deeper into this unknown space of darkness, I couldn't relax, my body was shaking like a fish, I was freezing and moving around rolling in the couch. I was getting the fear, the couch was shaking as well. Harder and harder it came. "I'm cooooomiiing, be ready, are you ready, hang oooooon, muahahaha hehehe, here we gooooo" I felt. I was struggling against the feeling.

It was to heavy.

Brian also was shaking like a fish, everything was collapsing in front of me, I prayed to the mushroom "Pls be gentle with me, this is already to much, what do you want me to do". After a while with intense thoughts of fear I finally managed to surrendered to the "thing" that was growing inside my body, and I got into a new mindset. The music was sliding true the room, getting more intense than ever.

If you listen to psytrance I guess you know how intense the sounds and atmosphere can be.

I started to breath slowly so I could relax, deeper and deeper I grasped after ear, just to relax a tiny bit, ore just to feel human. It was getting better, It was really hard, but then suddenly, Brian started to breath louder and louder, and I noticed, he was stimulated by something? By me? By my thoughts?

I felt like I was controlling him, I communicated with him true my breathing some how, the more I focused on the moment and my own breath he made more and more noise, inside myself I made this sound. "mmmmmmmmmm, ahhhhhhhhhh,shjooooooooh, sureendeer, feeel, float, feeeel" like the wind, like a orgasm, and he was responding to it. It was like cosmic sex, It was profound, It was weird but it was the truth, connected true some deep form of technology far beyond reality. It was "WT* IS THIS?", we booth was lying in the couch making loud weird sounds. Connecting to something together, to something beautiful that stimulated us both. I swear this was better than sex, I felt like I was getting fucked by something else, but in a friendly and good way. It felt wrong, but It was so right and amazing.

I was overwhelmed, I opened my eyes and I could feel some strange energy between Brian and my self, we couldn't look at each other, it was hard to look at him, like a field around him blocking everything from me. I need to surrender to everything I thought, just let go with the flow, then it go away.

I took a deep breath and forced myself to counter this feeling, I looked at him, I stared at him, our eyes met and we got connected. *KJIING* Big smiles from both of us.

As the music sounded like a spaceship coming inside the room at it's finest a new level of consciousnesses was rising inside of me, a new level in my mind. We started to talk to each other with weird sounds, high pitched sounds, we was like testing each other, flirting and laughing, like small kids playing, like a another animal ore entity exploring our souls.

Is this what we are? Is this what we are after death? Is this the high stage of consciousnesses? Is this it? If so, I want to go back and explore even more in this realm. It was AMAZING, it felt so WEIRD. I can't describe this guys, I'm still mind blown.

Just imagine if some normal humans have watched this, they would think we where totally insane, and it was. It was alien, so alien. Was it my ego? I don't know, it didn't feel like that, but never have the mushroom controlled me like this, as more I relaxed the deeper I got into this world of insects alien talking and playing with each other, and Brian and my self was one of them. A new place, nothing was real any more, this was a spaced sci-fi comedy with funny beings, and we was the main characters.

"I understood what McKenna was talking about now, the invisible landscape and language, holy smokes I understand so much more now, my head is loaded with all this information."

My mouth was wide open, I drooled and bite my lips while I was using my fingers to connect to something, I was talking with my fingers and making strange movements with them, drawing in the air while making sounds. I felt like a computer receiving information from and alien life form. I looked at Brian again, he was made of patterns, spread out around him, Brian's face was gone, it was smashed out in the room vibrating frequently , the reality around him got consumed by the energy around him. Picture below ( made some similar to what I experienced)



I thought " wow, this is amazing, wow wow, this is weird, haha"

And he was responding to what a thought

"mhm hjiiiaaaaaaaa" "Hmmmmm, hihihmmhmmm" with a big smile, we both burst into laughter.

And I understood it, I was feeling what he was meaning with this weird sound, and I answered automatically.

"heheheeeeeee,mbliii bleee, hmmm, yyyyyyyyyy?"

This space talk continued for a while, exploring the space together. I started to love my existence even more and more. We are not boring humans, we are amazing creatures with great power.


At this "talking" stage as I like to call it, I was not inside my own body, it was something else, I was kind of floating 15 cm away from my body, levitating in the air, like a wind, like light. Like the shadow of my physical body, but the most aware part was "me", the rest was irrelevant. I tried to explain it down under.



It was magic, nothing can top what I was experiencing, one of my most meaning full trips ever. At some point I had no contact with my body and I managed to pee on my self. Just a little bit, then I understood how far away from my body I was, no contact at all, but tremendous contact on the other side. The alien side.

I loved it, I loved this realm, we where super cool aliens sitting connecting true mind telepathy filled with insane strange sounds. We rocked the world. I was blessed. I was loved. I was in peace, no worries. Nothing, nothing could kill me. because I'm already dead. ore what is dead?

This is just a tiny bit of what I experienced, hard to explain, impossible.

I forgot to mention that I was drawing on a piece of paper on the peak, I painted my feelings and the connection between me and my friend. He was watching, and got closer and closer to my movement,I made a picture of the two of us. He was still communication with the strange language to me, got more and more intense as I painted. But when I made a connection between Him and myself on the paper he stopped talking with me, and he got really silence, like if I got to close into his personality, on another level. "Not yet" I felt in the air,,, I stopped drawing.

The music changed, Alien Dreamtime - Transient Generator ,Terence McKenna appeared on the speaker. Terence was talking about this language and connection. He explained how it was, and I could relate to what he meant. He was saying that something inside him started to talk, and he self got the feeling to talk.

"biiips, mosje doche he miiismooooz, meh kihioooO mehiooP neheeeee, ding diooong se hiiiip"

I got mesmerized by the voice, my fingers started to draw by itself, something controlled my movement, something was showing me information. Talking to me. Terrence's voice swallowed me and manifested to my body.

Drawing


The triangle on the picture with two balls is me and my friend, connected, I guess we created this magic field together, 2 = 1. When I painted I was controlling the surroundings true the drawing, Brian reacted to everything I made, really weird. I enjoyed every bit of it.

The next day my friend was saying " I don't understand, I don't understand" He had trouble to speak, like everything we experienced got really awkward for him. I understand him, and Will talk to him in a while. I think both of us need some rest and reflect on what we experienced, because this was sick

If the mushroom have the power to do this, then I can't imagine how powerful DMT is...


EDIT; I have experienced 8-10 times before with psilocybe, but never have I had this experience. Maby the lemon made it this way? I was more conscious than ever, and the trip felt more focused on one spot, not so blurry.

Thanks you, and sorry for the English, not my strongest pill.

/livinglife

Wow nice trip report, visual aids are handy too. I agree on your thoughts on death too, it's almost like Death/Birth are just this repeating cycle never to end (from what I've been through). Prolly like my 3rd trip ever I started to notice what you were talking about with our bodies being like receivers. I've prolly gone through like 10 trips but haven't reached a space of communication such as yours that's very interesting. I understand to a degree though the space you feel you can enter to interact with others, just not quite there. The next thing I'll prolly get my hands on is DMT.
I'm still testing the waters though myself my experiences at the end of prolly like the last 4 trips all emphasize like this endless unfolding process (or flowering) and the process basically presents itself too me like I will be confused trying to figure it out at least for the time being. My experience appears to mirror the comeup of a drug but related to every day life. And right now I'm just left wondering when that is going to kick in lol.

Man... Great report. Seriously though, I would really like to hear your friends trip from his perspective. That would be really epic to read the same trip from two different perspectives.

Awesome thank you.

This part sounds so damn familiar. I have had the exact same thing happen to me on mushrooms. The movements of my hands as if I could grasp things shown to me. It was indeed a very powerful feeling. What you mention with the patterns I have experienced when opening my eyes during a dmt trip. I saw my friend's face and everything else around me as patterns moving and unfolding constantly over and over again.

Great report, enjoyed reading it. I could feel your astonishment through reading it.
It made me go right back into the feeling of the trip that I had which is always a great feeling. Thanks

I have had a majorly similar couple experiences. It is actually really relieving yo hear someone talk about something similar.

Carefull with the friendship though. It got weird with my buddy. You're both in a very vulnerable state, but kind of using each other to propell forward. I suggest keeping respect for you're friend's sanity and autonomy at the forefront of your mind if you try to repeat.

Nothing to add but that was a really enjoyable report

That was such a great read. I enjoyed it.

And as far as the experience of DMT goes, well, your in for a pretty big surprise..to say the very least.

much love,
tat

Awesome report I love reading about these types of experiences. As for the alien feeling, this is something I have been contemplating a bit lately. This idea of the alien other is something for me that I have really been struggling with , especially in my DMT experiences. To me getting comfortable with the alien is like entering a new level of being, to be able to accept the alien without fighting it, or rather acknowledging it is an aspect of reality and thus an aspect of yourself allows for psychedelics experiences to stay in a light that is perpetually exotic without getting uncomfortable. Just a rant I don't know if that makes sense.

Yo adam. I have some experience with connecting to the alien. It is the most gorgeous fucking thing i ever experienced, i swear to god. Well not true. But it was immense. See this avatar of mine? The insect? Well...

The mushrooms hit me while i was still eating them. Terence Mckenna was right there with me. Giving me the choice to meet the alien in style, or curled up in fetal position. Either way, it was going to happen!

Maynard from the band Tool. Terence Mckenna's presence was there in spirit. I produced a sound with my vocal chords like RRRRRRRRRRRRIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII and something changed. I died and something else entered my body. The world outside was full of organic flying saucers. In my mind i was an alien from another fricking planet. Borrowing this young human vessel for a little while. The only things i missed where my wings. Not being able to surge out the window and meet my saucer friends was disappointing. Plus it was a little too intense for the boy who owned the human vessel i borrowed. What a rush though. I... the boy, had never imagined mushrooms where capable of such immense power. I had no idea what was going on. I just pulled the plug when i noticed my body was getting ready to fly right out the window and regained control.

A week later or so i had a dream of being an alien and flying through space into earth life system. I split my consciousness into multiple sets of awareness in order to 'learn' more about humans.

The beings i meet on DMT are totally different though. They seem more like talking computers. They scare the beheegees out of me, if they are actually alive they are sooo advanced. This insect creature is atleast something from this side of the universe. I could relate to it, lol!

Excuse MY rant lol. Didn't mean to hijack. Thank you so much for making this thread. I read "Insane mushroom trip" and hoped something akin to my trip. Yours is better lol. I took like 30g only, no weed. (Just imagine adding harmalas, like Dennis Mckenna did and ended up being completely schizophrenic for days)

Good information and thanks! 10 trips and you haven't experienced it yet? Hm, that made me think, maby the "language" I felt was only in my head? My own voice? You know the talking voice in your head right? Maby that voice only got turbocharged and made a illusion for me? I'm not sure, I'm not sure anymore what I should think, I'm confused, I can't balance this yet, what's real ore not, but it felt real to me. It felt right and good.

But this was something new indeed, I was talking to something, and sound was a big part of it.

This warms my heart, thanks, I'm glad to hear that my friend. I'm glad to hear that I'm not the only one that have experienced this. I think the trix is to just let go of everything. And let the mushroom guide, that's the next step. And I will do it alone next time, I enjoy doing this alone, because then I don't have any "distractions" around me, like my friend. I find it hard to let go 100% when I'm with somebody.

I'm glad to hear my story suited you

That was well said man, I can relate to that explanation. On the onset I had that feeling, " If I relax more now my body vanish into something I don't know what is". I'm still thinking about what could happened if I did. The fear of the unknown gets so strong.

Thanks

Yeah, this is how I feel on mushroom as well, that's 1 of the parts I respect so much on it. The ability to figure out what you are and how other people are reacting to what decisions you make. Btw, Nice story man! did you struggle on the breakthrough? Ore was it a breakthrough at all? Was it on the way up?

Many Q's here but I have a lot of questions in my head right now.

Glad to hear I'm not the only one, so we can relate on this

I haven't talked with Brian for 1 week now, he don't answer me. I'm worried about him, I wonder what he felt under this trip.. We both are also a bit vulnerable and using each other to propel forward. But I can't see how I offended him, if I did. I wonder what he felt when he made all this orgasmic loud sounds. But I know him good, it was like he didn't wanted to talk about it the next day, like he was in shame. Well, I don't know.

Thanks for the advice

Yo livinglife. I didnt actually "Break-Through". Atleast, not in the sense that i lost complete touch with reality.

It did share some important characteristics though. Like i mentioned, i produced this Ringing sound and i heared a very loud crackling sound coming from all around me. As both get louder and louder these two sounds just "clicked" in synchronisity. So, the ringing sound i was producing still echoed in my brain i just no longer used my vocal chords to produce it.

^Like Dennis Mckenna at La Chorerra, in "Terence's True hallucinations" he decribes a theory of producing sound to do something really weird.

At that point i suddenly had memories of having wings. Being friends with organic saucers from another planet. Feeling the urge to fly and hunt for food. Like i was actually an insect. The thoughts came in feeling rather than words.. Because insects don't speak human. The saucers etc. where a motion picture experienced in the back of my mind.

I could still see my bedroom, feel my body. Things just got really intense. There are no words to describe it. I could try but you will never understand what i mean. I think it is different from seeing energy/fractals. Those are cosmic energies. This was more like seeing the world through the lense of an alien.

What stood out was the extreme body load. Touching anything was like feeling the oscillation of atoms and molecules that make up matter itself.

Again, excuse my rant LOL. I hardly believe anyone kind of gets what i'm trying to describe here anyway. haha. The experience was traumatic. It took me months to cope with what happened. Time is neccessary to intergrate such ground-breaking weirdness. It is worth it in the end for it was empowering to witness the true potential of the universe.

No need to excuse, this is great stuff. Are you sure that you didn't break trough? I mean, I guess we can have some sort of awareness still if we brake?

Flying saucers hunting for food? Holy smokes dude, sounds like a metaphor of how the insects work but your imagination used saucers to explain it? Crazy stuff, I haven't gone so far yet, and I understand THIS was a huge meal to consume.

Did you do it in silent darkness?

I like your theory about seeing the world through the lense of an alien.

Just me, in my bedroom. No music, no lights. Just natural moonlight. Besides, the hallucinations where enough to lit my room

The only issue is momentarily insanity. Like.. Thinking the world around me has stopped turning. Feeling depressed because of thinking i'm stuck in limbo forever. The mushrooms where a great guide though. It used lyrics from songs i remember to guide me through it. They played back to me in a logical order.

Tripping alone is something different. A womanly entity asked me about love and kissed me on the cheek. Just have to make sure there are no people near you besides a trusted tripsitter. I really need a tripsitter because my mind is young and immature. Every single time i go around thinking the world is a dream and do stupid things to other people.

I'm saying this because i went around walking in people's bedrooms and laying in their bed last week. I just wish i was alone and perhaps had some music to calm me down because i was thinking the world was turning against me that evening. Someone to hug and comfort me would have been nice. The hallucinations aren't nearly as powerful either when the mind is thinking too much and being depressed.

Well.. I'm going to stop responding though, hopefully give someone else the chance to respond to you, as you are a very nice person to talk to but i have to go do some labor!

Thanks tat. I'm glad you enjoyed it this is 2 years ago tho, but psilocybe semilanceata is my favorite psychoactive substance so far, hunting them down in september and eating them raw seems to be a good way to ingest this divine intelligence. straight from the earth, fresh and ready to share information. Looking forward to ingest them next year. they are really calling .

Hm... how many grams are 80 liberty caps? I don't have any experience with that species.

Anyway, thanks for the great experience report. Did you manage to talk you your friend since?

In my experience 30 Liberty Caps equal around 1g dry-weight.