So, I've been here before and had a good look around, but now it's time to contribute....
It's been a five year journey for me to feel ready to imbibe. I've had spice in front of me a few times in that period but didn't feel ready despite a long history of psychedelic use including some very large dose LSD experiences.
That has now all changed. I am in awe. My first experience had me saying WOW! uncountable number of times.
I chose a drinkable source fed stream in old growth forest, the company of an experienced friend and had the pleasure to find myself with well refined white (slightly yellowed) crystal.
All the elements had conjoined to supply a perfect environment and mindset.
And then blast-off. Or rather blast through. Suddenly in an unthinkable realm. Brightly dressed elves and gnomes running up and down the river bank on the opposite side of what had been a river, laughing, jumping, giggling, pointing, playing ecstatically. a three-dimensional fractalised technicolour dragon swirling into existence to my right.
Incredible! WOW! WOW! WOW!
BUT......
Something was on my tongue..... it was bothering me..... i tried to remove it with my fingers but couldn't..... kept saying.... 'There's something on my tongue.... there's something on my tongue.....' tried spitting.... it wouldn't leave..... in fact it grew.... and became a flower..... and then a male voice, slightly muffled, slightly metallic, organic yet mechanical...on helium.... said to me quite clearly "SWALLOW IT! SWALLOW IT!" The voice was firm yet reassuring..... yet i felt too scared to obey..... the object felt huge! Far too big to swallow! Simultaneously a pink hued entity rose out of the river, a three-dimensional head of such beauty exuding love, trailing down from a head with beautiful flowing hair to naked shoulders, back and then a tunnel like continuation down to a point..... so... like a cone at it's bottom most tip where it rejoined the river.... There was no doubt in my mind that this was a river goddess.... No doubt at all... And she too spoke..... using my name, lovingly, like mother to child she used my name to gain my attention, then spoke, "Drink the river, (my name again), Drink the river", she softly encouraged. And then i managed to spit, and a flower petal popped out of my mouth. And all the while, the elves and gnomes jumping up and down in the background, ludique, joyous, hyper-excited. All of this as an eye-open experience. I was still seated. I had not closed my eyes. I know this as fact because my friend was watching my wonder and astonishment before entering his own experience. But also i was personally aware of my own physical position, and the fact that i still had my eyes open..... wide open in fact, drinking it all in, in total astonishment. I felt calm. Though intensely excited to be witnessing the things i was witnessing. I could still feel something inside my mouth.... but it no longer bothered me so much..... I understood the necessity to accept that there WAS something in my mouth and that this was okay..... perhaps it was a gift from the "little people".
Finally my friend as he entered his own experience told me to lie down and close my eyes. When finally i was able to comprehend the meaning of lie down and close your eyes i did, easily.
Astonishing colours and patterns and diaphanous entities all gathered round watching me. Until finally i DID swallow wahat was left of the flower, now smaller, and the entities began to place round screens, or filters as i regard them, in front of my eyes.... the size of a hula hoop, covered each one in a new and astounding geometric pattern.... more and more of these filters were placed in front of my eyes, whilst the entities waved me good-bye as they slowly faded to nothingness behind the screens.... and i felt the peak of the experience leave..... nothing in my mouth anymore....
Good-bye little people, good-bye!
Eventually sat up, eyes open, riverbank covered in creatures this time without the technicolour.... no longer elves and gnomes but more troll like.... in dark earthy browns and greens.... myself laughing hysterically, in such joy and amazement.... visions on the riverbank now fading, more like high dose LSD, then fading more over a matter of minutes to slight visual disturbances.... closed eye still some visuals, still the presence of beautiful loving diaphanous spirit beings.... though fading fast now to just a memory......
WOW!!!! WOW!!!! Wow!!!!WOW!!!! HOLY!!!!!
Bathing in feelings of great love...
Feeling blessed
But still confused by this thing in my mouth.....
did i swallow a leaf as i inhaled my final toke i wondered.....
or was this really a gift from another world that i was SUPPOSED to swallow and take into myself.....
i felt the latter was true but still had my doubts
Was it a leaf? Was it a flower? Was it sacred food? Or just pure hallucination?
I would need to wait for my second experience for a better idea.
Would i recieve the same sort of "gift". If so, i would need to do several things.... not worry when my mouth filled with whatever it may be..... accept it as a gift..... not attempt to remove it by force..... and swallow it, without fear.....