Namaste

As the title of this new post suggests, once upon a time I heard about, "The power of the Universal Mind." How new and exciting it sounded. I haven't ever been the same again. The gist of The Secret supposedly granted sentient beings the power to create their life in any way he or she saw fit. The vehicle for this miraculous change in consciousness was thought. Hence, I want happiness, I think happiness, and by the collective power of the Universe happiness will truly manifest itself in my life. The Secret quickly lost flavor in my mouth because people were thinking too much about monetary gain, and not about happiness. I care nothing for money, and while I agree that money is the root of all evil, after studying cultures, sociology, psychology, and my own feelings, I have discovered that money isn't the root of all evil, it's what people will do to procure money. They lie, cheat, steal, and devise schemes by any means necessary to get said money. That is appalling. Like what Mr. Ulbricht did with his Silk Road endeavor.

Now a disclaimer: I'm not Hindu, Muslim, Christian, Atheist, A History Professor, a Psychonaut, a shaman, a hippy, an artist, a writer, or any other generic title that would hint at my academia. I'm a complex individual from biological birth, and I love obtaining knowledge from as many modes, mediums, and learning mechanisms as possible.

That being said, I have never had an experience with DMT, LSD, Salvia, or the vast array of research chemicals that produce hallucinogenic properties, visions, euphoria, or dreams. My experimentation with Cannabis, Amphetamines, Disassociatives, stimulants, and prescription medication barely scratched the surface of what I hoped to gain from administering them. I was ill-educated and young to boot when I tried psylocibin for the first time, and it only made me laugh uncontrollably for 3 hours. That was 13 years ago. Now I am a middle-aged, blue-collar man with child support payments, and a thirst for spirituality that no water will slake.

I believe in honesty, liberty, and the pursuit of understanding. My research, diligence, and pure intent guided me through a multitude of websites, forums, articles, journals, program downloads, strange emails from unknown sources, and more anxiety than I ever imagined. I mean I actually emailed an ad from a website offering scheduled RC's that could kill me. I praise everything Holy that I never followed through with an order. Forget the legality of what these ads were alluding to, but RC's are vastly dangerous things, man! I could have died. So I abruptly ceased all research. For a while. Pretty soon, the hunger for the missing link in my life pushed me to want something different, profound, exotic, and fulfilling to the nTH degree. So I started playing video games. BLECH!

While surfing youtube one day, I saw a video titled "The_______ Molecule(ommitted out of respect). I thought, "...interesting," so I clicked: there was Joe Rogan, yeah Fear Factor, baby, I dug that show. But his message wasn't about the next UFC contender. As far on the opposite spectrum as one could get. I've watched it numerous times since. Strassman is a genius, but also very uneducated himself it seems, by his own admission.

Yesterday, I awoke with new purpose, drive, intent, emotion, and power. I'm hooked, and I haven't even consumed DMT. I am the kid in the candy store before finding the golden ticket, Alice staring down the rabbit hole, and Milo looking at the Phantom Tollbooth(god that was a great story). My heart, intentions, and drive to learn how to be spiritual are absolute. I want to believe. In something.

The Universal Mind brought me here.

Suggestions, thoughts, random comments, advice, rants, critiques, and any variable innuendo will be greatly appreciated.

Sorry for this lengthy post, but I owe it to the veteran members to be as accurate as I may.
Oh, one more thing. My account handle has no meaning except it sounded catchy.

Thank you in advance

Huh?

Hello run-DMT,

Welcome to the Nexus.

That was a lengthy essay, but to be brutally honest, at the end, I felt I had learned very little about you other than you are middle aged, have done some weed, dissos, prescriptions and stims; that you did shrooms at age 13 and laughed and that you have child care payments and a kind of spiritual hunger loose in you.

Is it possible for you to perhaps be a bit more direct in introducing yourself and your entheogenic experience to us? That is what this area is for after all.

Tried DMT yet? Extracted it? If so which tek and how did it go? etc. . . .

Looking forward to learning more about you in a direct manner . . . . and again welcome to the Nexus.

Namaste

Thank you for replies.

I suppose I read https://wiki.dmt-nexus.m...Page#Learn_and_give_back wrongly, and I apologize.

Twice I stated in my essay I had no experience with DMT. To be brutally honest in rebuke, I suppose I am a little disappointed in the responses I have received from my honest, structured, and well written thoughts.

Since this is my first post, I understand there is a learning curve of how to communicate with such veteran members.

The safety and health section on this website thoroughly discourages against extracting DMT without research, and I would never risk my health, agency, or freedom to even try.

I'm wondering if this forum might not be for me?

Again, thank you for replies!


p.s. in regards to Mr Van D'Lay's response, please elaborate what you mean by the word, "Huh?"

I think Art meant that Rick Strassman is quite educated. And you did ask for random comments. He is a medical doctor and specialized in psychiatry with a fellowship in clinical psychopharmacology research. Although he does come across as quite unassuming.

I thought your introduction essay was a good one (and quite informative, unless i am missing some sort of troll-like subtext).

Namaste

Yeah, I suppose that statement does need clarification...sorry

he stated in the video that he felt there was just too much we don't know about DMT for him to continue his research...that's all.

I think anyone willing to produce scientific data for better understanding is awesome, ballsy, informative, and only exists to help people.

Thank you for reply, honestly

I just didn't understand the comment, and found it a bit odd. No offense intended.

Namaste

No offense taken, friend. I'm very confident in my agency as a human, and I am rarely, if ever, offended. Even when people think I look like Goyle from Harry Potter. Noodge

Have a wonderful evening, and please leave comments, or impressions for me to gain wisdom from
in any way you see fit.

Best Regards

Welcome to the nexus

run-DMT

Welcome, and I think that was an excellent, well written first post. That's great that you've decided to aim in the direction of DMT. It's truly not of this reality, or maybe, where it sends us is not of this reality?

Once you have a solid smoked experience, you'll certainly be changed, to some degree or another. It's a pretty profound experience.

All the best in your journeys.

much love,
tat

Hey There run-DMT,

I'm sorry about giving you a hard time. I realize that each and every person has the right to introduce themselves in any way they see fit and in that regard, yours was great.

Anyway, I enjoyed meeting you in chat last night and look forward to learning more about and from you.

Clearly, many were impressed. Congratulations on your rapid promotion. That doesn't happen too often around here.

Namaste

Thank you for such a heartfelt post.

To attempt a description of my experimentation with various substances, a back story of my life must have it's day in court. I believe in detailed responses to any question so I will attempt to be brief. As much as I am allowed to

Since the advent of my ability to walk, my curiosity expounded the likes of my generation. Based on familial reports, I was into everything. Learning, questioning, searching...searching. Now there's something explicitly profound: The amazing gift of a biological birth is that we are given a completely unique set of independent blueprints: our DNA, our ability to reason, the function of our motor responses to stimuli, etc. These blueprints are the cornerstones of our entire human experience. I haven't quit searching

As a youth, I was subjected to the harsh realities of alcohol, and Cannabis addiction. By my own design and what I went through on a daily basis: my parents were totally dependent on these easily obtained but vastly abused substances. So I began kifing my dad's Cannabis stash, and plundering my mothers alcohol cabinet. Now I neither drink alcohol or smoke Cannabis. That was 19 years ago.

Fast forward a decade or so, and the wide world of synthetics became my daily life. I began obtaining as many "items" as I possible could. MDMA, Methamphetamine(attempted once through insufflation, wasn't impressed), ketamine. Ketamine is incredible. That experience alone is worth writing a whole post about, it was sincerely awesome, powerful, and a little scary. This year I even took the bath salt plunge, and almost died. Those creepy synthetics I will hope to never see again.

Now, when I began the search for these things, I was always very conscious of my endeavors. I made agreements with my mind to commit to experimentation, my heart to brace the roller coaster of emotions, and to always remain perceptive to any message being transmitted to me. I never with the fulness of my honest intentions administered any substance to "get high." I hate using that expression. Its such a misnomer, and should be recanted.

Some of the effects of MDMA are very euphoric and exciting. The rest of the 10 or 12 hour duration is a gakked nightmare of bouncy trance music and vicks vapor-rub.

Anyone attempting to open their mind to a higher form of consciousness from synthetic stimulants, and "party drugs" need to really think about it. Some of the feelings of the inability to mentally force yourself not to re-dose every 20-30 minutes is nearly impossible. Even for someone out of control as I am. Noodge

I have never abused prescription medication because I hate narcotic opiates. I got a script for Lortab once, and they made me throw up, so I toilet flushed them to oblivion. Again, anyone attempting to understand the world better by binging on prescribed medication really needs to look at themselves, and what they are wanting to achieve. Opiate addiction is very very serious and dangerous.

I hope this post finds you well, and in good health. Remember, there is no golden rule on experimentation more prevalent than safety. Research with passion before trying anything, and DO NOT BY ANY MEANS procure "bath salts!" Truth be known there is no such thing as a bath salt because a bath salt could be anything, mostly MDPV, a-PVP, Pentedrone, Methylone, Methedrone, and god knows what. These are dangerous, highly addictive, and completely unpredictable substances. Also, there is no generic effect that will include everyone's unique set of blueprints based on physiology, history, mental stability, and emotions. What worked for Adam obviously cannot work for Eve.

Your post was awesome, and I hope it helps you.

Namaste

Thank you for your response(s) to my intro!

There is absolutely no need to apologize, I wasn't jilted at all. I applaud your courage in calling me out to better understand my intentions. Talking with you last night was awesome. I am completely humbled by the amount of information you have obtained through your journey with DMT. Having done DMT the number of times you stated in chat is unbelievably powerful. Your 600 page writing project could help the general population, exponentially.

Thank you for celebrating my promotion. I was shocked to say the least, because I know people try really hard to obtain that promotion, and never do, or haven't proven themselves enough for it. I will do my best to honor the sages' decision to promote me by remaining honest, forthright, positive, sincere, and thorough when I create new threads, as well as respond to posts.

Your response brought a smile to my face which in the day-to-day grind of my life is more than I can hope for.

Best regards, I look forward to any correspondence we may have in the future!