How goes it Dmt-Nexus!?! Blissful I'm assuming (or hoping rather).
I've been a long time admirer of this forum but only just now have made an account.
I must admit that forums do confuse me a bit so it will take some getting used to.

I have never had a dmt experience but it's been an interest of mine for quite some years.
I'm 20 now and I first read about it when I was 12.

Though I have smoked dmt in my dreams and I did somewhat go into hyperspace I believe. Has that ever happened to any of you?

It's happened to me a few times actually. One of those times it happened is where I derived my name "Spitting Sand" from. It occurred 2-maybe 3 years ago. I smoked the dmt from about a 1000 foot hookah it seemed and before I knew what was going on I found myself on a beach with white sand and a book in the sand that made its presence known to me. I read through the pages but there were no letters; but the emotions and insight I gained from the transparent papyrus far exceeded the knowledge I would have gained from reading 1000 books. Or maybe I am delusional. I don't believe I am but I believe that you stop being sane once you stop questioning your sanity. ...But I digress.

When I woke from this radiant dream I immediately wrote down what happened. Albeit in abstract form. I wrote this in 5 minutes and I believe it's the emotions I felt and the insight I gained from reading that book.

I look forward to participating in threads and meeting new like-minded people. I hope to learn as much as I can and if I'm lucky maybe I can teach a few people some things myself.
Take care everyone. Till next time.

(the poem)

SpittingSand

Gonna yank my teeth
And plant em neath the soil
Someday my words
Will turn a newleaf to toil
And that newleaf will
Work real hard
And drag its knuckles
Till its palms are coiled
And of those palms
Come pollen too
And bees and birds
That spoil you
And then of you
Comes these three words
I love you
I love you
I love you
When you've fallen through
And of the fall
Come seasoned dirt
And of the dirt
Is us and seeds and earth
And of that seed
Your blood will birth
A love and death
Of that I'm sure
And of the death
Comes flesh and hurt
Hurt to tears
To quench the soils thirst
Gonna yank my teeth
And plant them in the grass
Someday my words will speak
From neath' and bove' all the love and laughs
I came as first, and damn sure I'll be last.

I just wanted to get this experience out of the way before I started delving into who I am as a person. Consider the original post a prologue of sort.

I would like to consider myself a poet/artist/ and stand up comedian among other things.
But the truth of the matter is that I'm all of these things because what I truly consider myself to be is an introvert and loner. I have extreme anxiety and it took me some courage to even create an account here for fear of public forums of any sort.

I am 20 years old and sometimes I feel as if I'm 70. My friends don't understand the depth of my problems and they probably never will. Let me rewind a bit. My father is extremely ill. He has a blood clot in his brain that could pop at any minute and he frequently goes into seizures and/or comas and I am his caregiver. And before he had gotten ill I was taking care of my both of grandparents until their dying day.

I have had to sacrifice relationships with people because of this and it truly hurts my soul. My friends think that I'm constantly ditching them but the truth is that I'm obligated to care for another person. A obligation many of them can't even fathom.

I've been self medicating myself for years in an attempt to treat my depression only to realize that self medicating for depression is pretty much a paradox since the deeper you go into the medicating part the deeper you go into the depression part as well.

I find it unnecessary to write the drugs I have done because it is irrelevant to who I am and irrelevant of what I believe this forum to be about (though I may be wrong). To put it simply I've been around the block and it was a terrifying block and for some reason or another I got addicted to taking that route to my psyche everyday for years. Okay I guess that wasn't put that simply but I hope you caught my drift.

Like I said before it was hard for me to create this account but now that I have I hope to learn as much as I can and if I'm lucky enough to teach some people some things then that would be great too. Peace love and harmony.