I was wondering if anyone knows some good books or videos covering this? In my experiences I've encountered something of this nature to the point where it seems as though after Ego Death you need to be rescued in a matter of speaking. In the moment it feels like I am almost incapable of passing a particular point. Like I am in a vortex or whirlpool and all the world seems as though it's trying to help but is still not enough. Very strange feeling, feeling as though disempowered, in need of assistance, test of will but even that seems futile, a detachment, feels as though were all caught up in this vortex, also a fear of losing all control. I assume it is a reflection on my current status but still learning.

http://www.egodeath.com/

Also I've noticed in the last three trips I've had it is as though I am going through some kind of birth sequence which appears as a gift. But after that Birth sequence I feel completely disoriented unsure as to how to proceed. Also a yurn to connect more to those familiar with this experience. The Birth sequence to me seems as though it lasts forever but honestly I don't know. I tend to be one who thinks that all obstacles when presented are not beyond your passing them. But this one is by far the most difficult it appears.

It seems like the whole world syncs up to that moment like a massive puzzle and yet I am not separate from that. Also a sense of conditioned existence observing more than participating (Due to loss of feeling). Thinking of it now the Birth sequence those presenting this to me have an expression upon their face as though "Does he get it now?" The Birth Sequence seems to perfectly mirror a sense of waking up to more and confusion which is to be expected especially comparing it to that point in life. A friend of mine also mentioned looking up the Jungian process known as Metanoia which I believe would be worthwhile.