Hello everybody.
First off, this page is pure gold, and I'm really happy I found it. I don't know how many hours everyday I have spent reading on this site, but it's a lot. Many post here has incredibly good vocabulary and content, I love it. But now it's my turn to write some text. Due to my lack of English skills, I'm gonna try my best to write pleasant for you guys, Thank you for this everybody, hang on.
So,
After my first Psilocybe trip 7 years ago my mind and soul has been dragging me more and more into the psychedelic worlds. My first meeting with the mushroom was one of the most mind blowing experiences I could have in that time in life, I remember how something gave me information, I couldn't see them, but somehow, it wanted me to see. Then I realized that in some degree, the world is so much more than this illusion I have been living with all my life, it took some time for me to consume this. My consciousness was a mess, but after deep thinking and understanding as the time went by I could find a balance.
Some people say that all this is just the chemicals in your brain, but I don't believe that, my fantasy ore ego could never invented this. But i'm also critical to what i experience and ask myself questions all the time.
I respect this substance with all my heart, because it has helped me on my journey in so many levels. I like to call the mushrooms "Medicine". I'm not so into the visual part, I use it more for deeper instinct and for future related stuff, like, what I should focus on.
Recently for 4 months ago, I tried LSD for the first time, the setting was on a PsyTrance party. I experienced sort of a cleansing in my hole body, it helped me accept who I was, and I could slowly start to love my self again. I feel I'm on the right road now, and I will continue this path with great attention, because all my life I have been searching for something, and that something is now found, It only need more work. And I feel that the "something" was the lack of self love, because I have escaped myself for years. It's hard to describe, but I really have all the focus on my body and soul now in a more "clear" way.
The music and people around me helped me release the awkwardness in me, I have never been a dancer, but I danced like never before. The vibration and energy was outstanding, I had tears filled with love many times. It's a reason it's called Trance I guess. But i don't need substances to dance tho, I can dance sober now, and I have started with yoga.
Mushrooms has been my teacher for many of years, I quit the weed, because it doesn't serve me any more, quite the opposite. MDMA, Mescaline, 2CB, Cocain have been tried, but that doesn't serve me either, besides Mescaline. I'm more into the Earth drugs now.
The next substance will be DMT/Ayahuasca. I have read a lot of this, maby to much, but still, so much to learn? I gonna take my time and read more about the Molecule itself.
What do you suggest? Sometimes I think I just gonna have to do it, read less, and just experience it and then make up my own opinion. I really like to challenge myself, and I have found out that fear can be so strong, but if you turn your attention on it, it's weak.
I have so much to share with you, but this is enough for now I guess.
Hope this wasn't to hard to read, as i said, this is not my language, but now you know a little bit of what I am.
Thank you again, Peace & Love
