Hi there.
I've been struggling a lot lately at letting go off reality
Now I've tripped before, lsd, shrooms and dmt(no breaktrough yet)and when i think of doing any psychedelic i always used to repeat to myself that none of it is real, it cannot harm me and is just there so i can learn from it, i used to loose fear from this substances by telling myself this and it worked until i used dmt in a relatively small dose (20 mg).
My perspective changed in a way i don't know/understand what "real" really is anymore. The single idea that everything is possible, higher levels, higher entities, infinite positive and negative amounts of outcomes to a single situation. at first i was marveled and truly happy to be aware of this, but now that i'm in this reality and want to go back, it's hard for me to let go, to simply bare the idea that i could stay "there" if i wanted to hunts me. to become the person I deeply promised myself i wouldn't end like, and watching it happen as i can't do anything about it. Doubt corrodes me as I see demons punishing me and angels judging me. How do you let go off your reality? how do you get rid of doubt without trying to ignore it? How "real" do you consider your hallucinations to be?
Far away across the field, the tolling of the iron bell
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