So i have been quite depressed for a few weeks now, a nagging back injury coupled with financial problems and family issues is draining me.


I have however eaten good food and exersized alot and generally taken care of myself.


So i started the night by dosing 250mg of crude harmalas and 100mg of dmt 30mins later.

After about 30mins i didnt feel much so i smoked a little bit of changa to start it up.

I also put on some music and went to bed.




It lasted a while but the oral dmt wasnt so strong so i ate another 70mg.

Waited a little while ans smoked some more changa, woah now its kicking in hard!

I got visions of a huge bug kind of creature hhat looked like a xmas tree, i was deep in hyperspace but i was very alone out there.




Ive never dosed like this alone before, i usually trip with friends but this was good.

I had to navigate myself somehow, i had no guide no teacher i was just very high on dmt!


I was a bit dissapointed though, i was expecting some healing but i was just trippin balls with no real meaning.

Also at this point i started to feel a bit nausesous and cold.

I started to feel sorry for myself and being pathetic and weak, also by back was flaring up a bit...





After some time i felt that i was coming down a bit so i got up and had a ricecake with peanut butter and some water melon.

This seemed to kick in a second wave but i didnt feel like trippin anymore, my ego was already broken and i didnt see the purpose of this.

I was now laying in a dark room with no music and just felt how i got weaker and weaker.

After the worst had settled i decided to make a cup of amanita muscaria tea.




I knew there was gonna be some synergy but i felt confident so i just grabbed a handful and tore them into pieces and put in a mug of hot water and chamomile tea.


I waited about 15mins then i drank it up and layed down again.

I felt better and the mushroom seemed to start to rebuild my ego that i just tore down with the pharmahuasca.

I had to go pee so i went up to go to the toilet, i noticed my balance was off and i was startinh to get really really high now.

I sat down on the toilet and tried to relax and grasp what was happening to me, i looked at my hands and they looked weird as hell.

I was transforming in front of myself, my skin became yellow and mushy and it felt like i gotten super powers of the gods.

I was now getting big warts on my arms and i felt the power of the funghi mutating my genes into a omnipotent berserker god!!

My ego was blowing up big time, i felt the delusionam mania hittint me but i was in control.

My ego got stronger and stronger but it was good cause my inner self got even stronger.


Finally i understood it all! My depression was blown away instantly and i felt i was ready to conquer the world!! Or at least my reality.

I went to bed and started planning, i made goals how to fix all my problems and ways how to achieve them.


I can honestly say that this was the most imoprtant trip of my life, i am no longer a boy but a hungry man who is gonna go out and get what i want.


I understand now why the vikings were so fierce and powerful, with this ally one can truly become immortal.

Aaahhh, Amanitas

It's been quite a while since I took a trip with that wonderful fungus. Thanks for sharing your experience

I am pleasently surprised that the manic confidence boost is still active 2 days later.

Its totally under control but i feel this primal energy flow going through my body, it just wants me go pillaging lands beyond the sea lol...

While Amanita and Ayahuasca go together wonderfully. I would like to also strongly caution everyone that it can become extremely intense in an ugly way..(yes, more terrifying than what just a dose of pharma on it's own would usually do)

On two separate occasions I combined rather high doses of caapi-rue-pharma with some locally picked Amanita and this resulted in some seriously terrifying stuff going down with my trips. Ultimately horrifying visuals.

So I learned the hard way not to go too far overboard with this stuff.

Nice one ST

Good to hear that you managed to kick the depression. That is a black hole that can suck you in pretty badly. It is a feedback loop where the depression just makes the things depressing you worse and everything can collapse on you (your health, your life etc.).

Congratulations.

As someone who enjoys his Aya and his Amanitas (and even the combo when appropriate), I just caution you not to let yourself swing too far in the opposite direction. You don't want to create a bi-polar motion. It should be a course correction rather than a wild swing, if you get my drift. I would focus on the loving yourself, loving your life and excitement to actualize your plans... and release any mania or viking blood lust (hehehehe). Going from depression to pillaging beyond land and sea is not a stable or healthy transition IMHO.

Still. Good work amigo.

HF

Yeah i def felt the potential for a trainwreck kind of experience with this combo or probably with amanitas alone..


Im usually quite stable when trippin and not on any of my previous experiences have touched on this manic energy that the amanitas brought forth.


But everything was still lucid and clear, i could feel the megalomaniac powers but i always knew that it was just a trip and i wasnt in any danger off flipping out and doing anything stupid.


But honestly i dont think this combo or these mushrooms even are for everyone, from what i can understand they seem to do the oposite from psychedelics.

Instead of breaking down your ego they seem to amplify it by a very high degree somehow, it felt i was on some kind of psychedelic steroid and i just stood infront of the mirror flexing and acting like a psycho lol..


But like i said it was all in a loving and humorous way, i was in control and could play around with this endless energy that i was receiving.



I will make another atempt with this combo but will probably make a tea containing amanitas and heavy indica cannabis oil next time to smoothen out the effect of the mushroom.



I just felt that this was exactly what i needed, a huge confidence booster and a intelectual tonic at the same time.

I feel that everything makes sense again and that i was born to do something special and i am on the right path again.

How many amanitas did you use, a handful sounds pretty variable. The problem I have with amanitas is the variability of the trip, for me it either really hits hard, or not at all. Weird. Also I am scared of taking to high a dose of amanitas more then any other psych.

Not much really, maybe 3grams or so...

I usually take a similar dose for sleep enhancement and honestly didnt expect much effect from it.

But it seems the harmalas and dmt synergised the effects alot! I would say at least by 3x or more...


Ive never gotten much effecs by amanitas alone except thqt they make me really tired and a bit drunkish with some minor visuals and dream enhancement.


Ive never felt like dosing alot of just amanitas since the sid3 effects sounds bad, but this was great and very strengthening for my entire being.

Harmalas have a huge effect on Amanitas. In fact, taking a full dose of Amanitas when MAO Inhibited is a pretty bad idea.

I know what you guys mean about the Amanita alone experience though. It takes a lot of Amanitas to get the full disso effect, and it can be hard to get up to that level without incurring adverse physical side effects. (this is why people drink their urine)

Anyway...

I can kind of agree that the disso experience is the opposite of the trad. psych experience. Not the total opposite, perhaps, as that would be heroin or something. But dissos tend not to attack the ego, but slowly dissolve the boundaries that keep it in check... and then eventually dissolve the boundary between the ego and everything else... in the end leading to a similar oneness as reached by extreme psychedelic doses, but coming at it from an opposite direction.

I have made the analogy before that psychedelics are Acids and dissos are Bases (Alkaline). Not in their chemistry, but metaphorically. They both will dissolve your flesh, but are at polar extremes of the PH scale.

Anyhow, glad it was medicinal for you. Take care bro...

Interesting report. I hope I find some amanitas this season.

just to play devils advocate..there is nothing in the Edda's(that I am aware of) to actually suggest Viking berserkers were ingesting amanitas. I am not sure where exactly this conclusion has been drawn from. Maybe they did..maybe they didn't..maybe it was Labrador tea they used, which is another theory..

I am sure people in the north did use them..as well as psilocybes and pretty much any other useful plant found in the bio-region..but the berserker-amanita connection is one I am sort of skeptical about.

Yeah i know its never been confirmed that the vikings actually ingested these mushrooms before battle but after my experience i feel its def possible.

It was def more of a stimulant and deliriant experience than any dissiocative ive had before.

Although i have no idea how a strong dose of just the mushrooms would be like.



I do however now understand the concept of soma or a brew with the total transformational properties.

For me the combo i tried was very fulfilling and a total life changer.