I haven't smoked DMT in a while but I got the feeling that I needed to today. I wait until I get the feeling that I need to before I do this now. So, this feeling came over me and I was a bit hesitant because some past experiences were hard to handle. Plus, I had the feeling that the fact that I smoke meth, which was completely stupid, for the first time the other day was going to be brought up.

I loaded the bowl with the sandwich method and said what I always say, "Take me further. I will come back."

When I first started smoking DMT the build up before launch was intense but done and over with quickly. I would be launched to where ever I was going and then I'd return and that was that.

Now, it's a very different story. The build up to launch is mind blowing in itself. This has only happened the last few times but it's so intense it's hard to handle. It's so intense in fact that I would only remember that this was going on as it's happening and my mind seemed to forget or block it out when I came back.

This time I remembered it because I was denied the "normal" breakthrough. I felt it immediately and knew I wasn't going to leave. Instead I sat there and voices not really heard but felt started to talk to me about the meth. It said that I was headed down a very bad path. If I continued things would not go well and to continue doing the other things that I'm doing that are good. It said I have a choice and the choice is mine but to remember that things will not end well if I choose get a box this weekend and go to my friends house.

Now, I will not buy that box. I'm leaving all of that behind me and will continue to pursue the things that are good in my life. I'd have to be a total idiot to not listen.

Seems like your decision is made up, but for what it's worth take it from somebody who has gone and come back.... you're not missing much in the meth department. Waste of money, time (stupid waste at that) health, energy, and resources. I was lucky enough to not get arrested or make any really dumb decisions while on it tho, some of my friends not so lucky. Have seen families broken up over meth, kids end up in foster care, mom goes to jail for stealing at walmart while tweaked out, dunno to this day what happened to dad. Also seen some people "disappear," quite literally into the spiritual realm to never be seen by this side again. 33 amigos got deported when their lab was raided, also puts involved friendships on the rocks (no pun intended) in due time. My friend got held up at gunpoint for his truck by another "friend", we later found the truck and had to get it towed so we could get a new key made for it. In any case, thought I'd stop by, save you some time.

wise decision is wise

Yeah, now I just have to convince my friend not to do it anymore...

hmm... well, you can't get anyone to stop doing anything really. You can try, of course, but directly I've never been able to get it to work.

Indirectly tho, you can help them be more aware of the situation. One of my friends stopped when his truck got taken, I stopped when people started disappearing. It's really easy to see where you're going, all you have to do is look up on the wall.... every single tweaker reflects a possibility, that possibility would be manifested in you once you pick up the habit (or your friend in this scenario)

I've never, ever to this day seen a "normal" tweaker, or a happy, blissful one.

Both of my brothers have gone down the tweaker road. Neityher of them came back quite the same. My younger brother did meth from 2005-2006, as well as a few times since then, and it changed him into someone I can't spend much time around without getting into fights with. My youngest brother abused amphetamine salts for the past year, and went insane; he went through a 3 month psychotic episode that culminated in severe delusions of persecution and hearing voices. Now, he has to take antipsychotic medication just to maintain a somewhat tenuous grip on reality. It's been several months, and he still spends most of his days craving amphetamine.

I'm glad DMT was able to help you. You seem like a decent person, and that's not a path I'd wish on my enemy.

I am very happy to read this post. I applaud your decision and I am glad that the spice was able to help you make it. And that's coming from a person who has a long history of narcotic use and abuse. I was never a big meth guy, but heroin had quite the proverbial vice on my nuts for many years. I too, was pointed in the right direction by DMT, psilocybin, and other naturally-sourced entheogens. I truly wish you the best of luck through the remainder of your earthly journey, from the bottom of my heart.

As far as your friend, everyone must make their own decisions. But it certainly wouldn't hurt for you to inform him of your opinion on the matter. I would recommend that you not be accusative or confrontational, but just calmly tell him how you feel about him using methamphetamine. Does your friend have any experience with psychedelics? Perhaps he might benefit from a trance experience, similar to the way you have?

Again, I wish you the best of luck with this matter, and those to come

I'm sorry to hear about your brothers. I will not smoke meth again. Ever.

Actually, yes, he has but I think he's afraid to let DMT take him as far as I have. I let him have a nice size of my extraction but it sits there. I'm not sure if he has a quite personal experience with the spice yet.

I'll talk to him anyway the way you recommended.

Aviator, i'd say tread carefully, and like brokenchild says, indirectly. Otherwise you might quickly become an enemy, and a methhead that knows everything about you could not be good.
Still, you should try your best for your friend, and you know what is the best thing to do.

I have a incy synthcannabinoid problem i am overcoming myself, which isn't much of a comparison to that, but it's still an addiction, and it sucks knowing that you are under influence of something.

Coincidentally, i had that feeling to smoque some sacrament last night. Only ~20ish mg in a paper rolled with passion flower petals. I meditated staring at the moon. Smoqued my two joints. I felt very peaceful, oneness, and like i was literally high, close up to the sky.

Also it re-activated some of my thoughts, and some new ones, and some interesting dreams.

DMT has greatly reduced cravings to smoke the SynthCann. Other sacraments may also help.

I have just stated exploring all this, and have not left earth yet, but i just might on this 22nd.