I don’t really know where to begin with this. It’s very hard to explain. I know what I want to say but don’t know how to begin it. Hmmmmm

So my journey with powerful experiences began when I was the age of sixteen. I went into these experiences with the mindset of “I am going to find the meaning of life, me and everything.” Sadly this was a mistake. Instead of telling me what I wanted to hear from it. It laughed at me… through something else at me which I describe in my intro to this site. This realization crushed and destroyed me and it continues to laugh at me as I would repeat the experience with the same mindset over and over many times.

By the way I was very fascinated with death at a very young age.

With time though I approached these experiences with an open mind and it started to work with me as I was working with it.

So I am going to try and interpret this message that was shown to me. I am going to try and interpret these hallucinations into English. Which is very hard, Keep in mind my intent is not to preach to you but to interpret all my experiences into one little paragraph or what I thought these weird hallucinations of all sorts were telling me in English, which is almost impossible because this message was not shown in English, so here we go.

Look jbomma. Some people come here looking for the meaning of life. Some come here to look for purpose. People come here for all sorts of reasons. But listen! He is the reality of your situation Jbomma… you are going to die one day. No matter how many healthy foods you eat, no matter how many laps you run around the track or how healthy your heart is, or wither you are a smoker or not. You are going to die.

Now jbomma…

Now that this has settled into you, think about this. You feel the ground beneath you. That ground to will not last forever and ever. It is just like you. It too will die, when that big bright hot star millions of millions of miles away explodes taking everything with it.

There will be nothing but cold dark empty space starting from where you sit now expanding out billions of billions of miles in every direction.

So jbomma… Welcome…To the moment.

That's pretty deep. Message always comes though a bit stronger when they say it.

Epic translation! Mind-expanding indeed. I wonder why you would call it an hallucinogenic message. I suppose i could think of reasons but i am still curious? Anyway, you reminded me a lot of dizzying times on mushrooms.

i globally read your introduction and i would like to say that, there is no need for humanity to ask for forgiveness for we are only hurting ourselves. it is each other we need to forgive.. for hurting ourselves. In other words, i read the word forgiveness in your introduction. Humanity could ask for forgiveness.. But who can we ask for forgiveness except for ourselves? It is perhaps the self that has to forgive. Instead of asking for forgiveness.

Err yea. And everything will be gone in a blink of a universe anyway. I remember psychedelic messages in plain DUTCH (my language) that where sort of metaphysical. It explains the meaning of life in a way. And it is self-evident why it is pointless to ask for the meaning of life once you know the answer. I also remember laughter from other entities. They where laughing at me, but it was a rather joyus laugh. I was being laughed at because i have been so silly for thinking this world is all there is to it. Silly for thinking that i am stuck here for eternity. It was said to me, that I.. Myself, my existence that feels like forever. MY existence full of suffering and pain and yearning for something else, all of it serves a purpose for something greater than myself. That is all that i got. My existence is a necessary component of some big machinery. It is only when i have completed my task that i will become the machinery itself. I am not sure if that last part is what was said to me but that is what i believe at this point.

But all this information is pointless. For right now, i am here. And i might as well enjoy this moment to the fullest.

Really is something when you open up to the moment, every insignificant thing in your life just seems to peel away.