Hi,
Just thought i would share my experience with the three trips i have taken a few weeks back. As you can see from the title i took three in the space of 18 hours. Man what a ride.
I feel its important to state that i had previously watched the spirit molecule about 6-7 months earlier and had become intrigued by DMT. However as my lifestyle is as such that i would not have access to it i left it on the someday file and forgot about it. I had prior to my trips researched or read about anyone else's experiences. I had a few conversations about a particular persons experience, but that was about it.
Viewing the experience as a spiritual one, before taking my first trip i asked my guardian angels to protect me. That was my intention.
The first trip i took i seemed to go under really quickly. I closed my eyes and saw green and red lasers looking lines cross over each other until they made fractal type patterns. Then boom, i saw these Mayan/Aztec looking small black beings dancing around all in a line, with the most beautiful lines of colour surrounding them. They were moving in the vary rhythmic pattern, which i can recall thinking was like the very ancient cultures way of movement in rituals!
They started showing me shapes, and to me they seemed like the hidden life force. I felt euphoric love and was just awe struck. The sounds i was hearing was plentiful. I think perhaps 6 or seven different pieces of music all harmonising and contrasting with each other. I could only really describe it as being similar to electro music, but more awesome obviously.
I then opened my eyes and saw the same beings all dancing around the light shade, the TV, everything. all interconnected and surrounding everything. I must add that it was like one long connected line of beings, with larger ones being on the outer edge of the TV, and smaller ones on the screen. The big ones would become smaller ones and vice versa as they moved along in there dance. I did feel a connection with something and felt really really strong feelings of stillness and love. And then i came back to our reality.
I felt an understanding of oneness between all things. I also felt i had been shown a secret language/knowledge of the universe. I feel upon reflection both then, and now that the ancient civilisations had this knowledge and expressed it both through there art and dance, rituals etc.
About an hour passed and i had a chance to take a second trip. I set my intention this time to tell help me with what was holding me back in life. And boy was that an intention.
I took a few puffs of the pipe, and again i found myself going under quite deeply and quickly. Again i was met with the green and red laser styled lines crossing over each other before turning in to fractals. I was met with the same noises as well. This time i was plunged in to my own personal hell. I had these thought being put on me, the deepest darkest parts of my soul being shown and taunting me. I can not recall the visuals but i was scared. After what felt like an eternity i opened my eyes and looked at my sitter. I was pleading for him to save me, when i was told telepathically that he could not save me. No one could save me. The only person who could save me was myself. I felt i was stuck in some sort of loop and i was moving myself head around looking at different points in the room trying to find an escape. Again i my state i was having visuals but i could not tell you what they were. Finally i closed my eyes and broke out of the loop. I felt like a metaphorical hand and reached deep down with in my soul and had pulled up 30+ years of negative life experiences and had shown it to me. It then threw it away.
Bam. I saw this black being again, but nothing like the ones from the first trip, there was just one. I started saying i love you i love you, thank you thank you. The being just turned it back to me. I got the message that it did not need my love or thanks it just needed me to respect what it had done and value it. Even know as i write thank you and love you, it does not come close to describing my feeling of euphoria. Oneness. closeness. Or give justice to what had happened. I did receive a message never to go back.
I came back out of my trip and felt happy for what had happened.I did say to the people with me that i would not wish that experience on anyone, yet at the same time after experiencing the break through i would wish that part on everyone. Like it could really change the world. Did i have an partial or full ego death. What ever it was i loved it and have been changed by it, for the better.
It was getting late in the evening and i had to go to bed. That was it for that night. However y mind still raced trying to keep up with, recall and process everything that had happened.
The following day, feeling changed and sure of what had happened i had chance to go again. So i took it.
Again my trip started with the same way as the other two. I was greeted by visuals of an asian styled tiger, but again as a long infinite type being. And a message that i was not suppose to be here and i was being viciously taunted again.. I said i wanted my third eye opened. And i was met with the reply we already did that, remember, and i realised what i was seeing was the missing visuals from the first part of last nights journey. I saw the tiger being go into my third eye along with all the sounds i was hearing.
After my initial greeting i was starting to feel a little freaked out and out of my depth.I could, for the first time in any of the trips, feel my heart beating so very fast in chest. I opened my eyes seeking to normalise the situation and flung myself bolt up right and looked at my feet. They were twisting off in to fractals. I lay back down and felt to intense with my eyes shut, and to intense with them open i just wanted it to stop.
Suddenly the feelings of love washed back over me. I opened my eyes and looked at my sitters (I had two).
I could see the life force moving under the skin of the female sitter, and also saw the past lives of an elephant and a tree. I looked at my other sitter and could see his past lives as shamans and sages from older civilisations, and current remote ones. I could also see the holographicness of our current reality and what resides behind it and around it. It was truly and awesome experience.
I am glad i had the chance to experience this. Would i do it again. Perhaps. I feel i understand what was being told to me and why i had to keep out at that time. I needed to understand what was being told and shown to me. before i could return.
A few weeks later i still feel changed. I feel i was given a new and better outlook for life, a deep understanding of things and of the workings of the universe. I think i have only scratched the surface off what DMT has to offer. But i am thankful and grateful of the experience i have had.
Sorry for such a long opening post. And thank you to anyone who has read to the end. Any thought greatfully received.