I have been cowardly with my DMT use for about 6 months after my breakthrough.
I have hardly had even any good sub-breakthroughs since.
Yesterday, I was working on coming up with some lyrics
for a song about DMT, outlining it to rip apart and put
into poetic words and metaphors.
It's strange as the 35mg of changa I smoked last night,
the experience resembled what I wrote somewhat:
"I want the lyrics to be about the origin of everything
which is more than likely a molecule solidified with
an energetic interior that resembles an Entorhinal grid cell
in the medial entorhinal cortex which has crystalline receptors
that is able to map out many things unconsciously through
the use of holograms."
So, I put on my favorite binarual beat, stuck some headphones on.
When I broke-through the first time it was with headphones, I think
both audio being projected into the brain and decent frequencies
help guide the DMT experience, um, however that is possible.
I took two huge lung fulls and then BAM. I was there.
I never flew at the speed of light, never heard a carrier wave -
none of it. None of the things that now give me DEEP anxiety
about DMT, just because I know at least how far I have gone
before which seemed completely impossible / death defying
if you can call really being destroyed for real "defying".
The same entities that I saw on the breakthrough were there.
This time it seems a bit more lucid, I had a bit more control.
The entities said together "You have forgotten that this is REAL."
I replied, "I know, I know, I know, I know." Very quickly.
I try not to think about it as real, but boy oh boy - it's ULTRA REAL.
Once we got the formalities out of the way they were leading me
down an intricate cylinder tube. I was a little unnerved still.
I told them, "Take it easy, I come with good intentions"
And it seemed to ease them as well, I felt like I had built trust with them;
possibly from our last interaction 6 months ago.
This was almost like a continuation of the breakthrough.
They were walking me down this corridor, they were always behind me,
ushering me somewhere.
When I felt a presence behind the cylinder. For some reason
I started to think that it was completely possible
for me to jump through the walls and find this powerful
creature. And this creature was going to give me answers!
It seemed that the entities were giving me this information
somehow, maybe because they wanted me to do this.
So I did! I ran off and jumped through many layers
of this trip and came face to face with what seemed
to be the one in control of the experience.
I started interrogating it face to face.
"What are you?!" "Who are you?!" "What is this place?!"
And I was not saying it in a nice way at all,
I was going BALLISTIC on this entity. It communicated
many things I cannot recall very quickly when I
was in it's face.
It felt unbelievable... it felt so great to take control
of this situation and get some answers!
When I looked back, the entities had congregated,
purple, black, orange glowing amorphous people, it looked like
a coliseum of them - waiting to see what I was going to ask.
They URGED me to ask questions at this point... I remember
hearing "Ask your questions." I started to calm down.
Time slowed down and I noticed that I was in a protected area
now with this being, all of hyperspace was all around this magic bubble.
Purple fractals, a beautiful display of chaoticness was just outside
this bubble.
It felt like I had waited my entire life to ask this thing
these questions and I could not believe it was happening.
I felt incredibly lucky.
I was fully intact, Ego and everything in hyperspace asking this architect
of time my questions. This was the first time I have
ever been able to actually speak in hyperspace to
someone or something.
Time slowed as this seemed to be a monumentous
moment - for both me and the entities. My words started to come out, my voice sounded
absolutely huge, and very low, like 3 octaves lower
and booming. "Wwwwhhahhhaaaatttt issssss theeeeeee brrrrrrraaaaaiiiinnnnn?"
I do not know why I asked this, but soon after a deep silence was
met, I could hear the entities whisper amongst themselves.
The main architect asked/demanded, "I know you have a better question?"
And I thought about it in the heaviness, the zonked
hologram place I had found myself in with this thing.
And I asked: "WWWWHHHATATATTTTTT ISSSS THEEEEEE ORRRRIIIGIIINNNN OF EVVVVERRRYYYTTHHHHINNNG."
And right when I asked that, it turned into a geometric alien clock.
I stared at it, studied it from many angles, I desperately tried to figure
out this clock, but there seemed to be nothing special about it!!
It was moving away from me but I had A LOT of time to look at it
in this slow mo place I was in.
It seemed like THIS was THE message as the entities started to go
they zoomed out of the DMT switch like "NOW YOU KNOW, PEACE!"
Channel turned off.
It ABSOLUTELY felt like I was seriously going to learn the origin of everything!
And I couldn't wait to find out after I managed to speak those english words
and was absolutely perplexed by the clock.
Anyway, it was awesome and I had a lot
of fun with the entities... this time around. Definitely
still a bit unnerved today at how real it was!
I definitely did forget!