Hi everyone, stopped my lurking today and decided to register... and with good reason.

For about a week now I've been experimenting with DMT. The goal wasn't to blast off, but at the same time, it was.

For the first few trips I used tin foil and a straw, despite knowing that this isn't a favorable way of using DMT. I was very much enjoying it. My body got heavy, but it felt the most relaxed in the longest time. My head was nodding out to the body high. The visuals were there, but nothing crazy. Just slight breathing, the shadows seemed to be alive, and a feeling of warmth. One of these trips included some pretty interesting closed eye visuals: It started with a orange-greenish pattern filling my vision. It turned to an ocean of blue. Then I remember seeing some "figure" floating around to the right side of my vision, with it arms in the air, just squirming about. It was like a blank, flexible body. In the corner I saw a black shadow escaping the scene - it looked like it was leaving through a door. I moved my body, and I felt a glowing light watching over me as that body relaxation hit me again. That's pretty much the highlight of the trip.

So then I obtained some cheap glass meth pipe. New, of course, lol. I had a few mild trips, similar to my tin foil trips. I figured that I was doing something wrong or the pipe just wasn't for me.

Tonight was different. I loaded about 30-40mg earlier, had one of the mild trips. Then I loaded about 50-70mg into the pipe later on. I got about two-three good hits, and felt very dazed on my bed. I sat there, enjoying it, getting tired and feeling dreamy and dazed. It was like the mild trips. I kept getting up and shutting off my music (Shpongle - Divine Moments of Truth) and turning back on, unsure if I wanted it in the background. I decided to keep it off. I knew I didn't have much time left, and decided to take another hit - I wanted to reach a newer level. I think this is where I started to spook myself. My expectations were messing with me. I started to playfully think, "heh, where's the spirits or weird mystical creatures at?" Something along those lines. I should have kept my eyes closed, maybe... I was sitting indian styled, neck slouched with my head looking down at my legs. My eyes began to open and close, embracing the body high, but knowing there was something slightly off.

The thought I had early about beings arriving in my trip was starting to spook me. I wanted to see something, but at the same time, I was scared to see "something" else sitting across from me or being with me. This caused me to slowly look at my bed sheets and at my legs/arms, but nothing more. My legs and arms began to multiply. It looked like I had a few extra. The black sheet that was all messed up on the bed appeared to have some presence under it, like there was something waiting to pop out. My mind began to focus on that. I knew I was scaring myself, so I laid back and tried to enjoy it. All of a sudden, things got "flashy". I don't know how to describe it, but somewhere in my vision there were lady-like figures climbing down towards me, wagging their fingers at me, trying to lure me. Not in a good way. I don't know how I saw it, but it seemed like "they" were taunting me. It was like they were laughing at me, "isn't this what you wanted?" I decided to change the scenery and closed my eyes - absolute randomness started to appear, very funny, but where the hell did this random humor even come from? It was like I was watching Tim & Eric + Robot Chicken + Every Adult Swim show in an instant.

It all felt very eerie. There were a few moments where I felt things would very easily get out of control if I didn't relax myself. With five others in this household sleeping, I didn't want that happening. Despite all of what I would call spooky, I still managed to crack smiles and laughs. I'm guessing that was an attempt to stay calm, but they were genuine feelings of joy.

So, there you have it. A very odd, scary, but enjoyable DMT trip.

I wish I could share more, because there was certainly a lot more to the trip, but I forget all of the one hundred small details. The open eye visuals were alive with colors.

What do you guys think? During the middle and end of my experience I got the thought that maybe this isn't for me. Maybe I should pack the bags and go. At the same time, I wanted more. I was scared of what I saw, but wanting to know more. And I still do. This was just... fascinating.

Edit: Sorry if this should be in the DMT Experiences forum instead.

Sounds like your self suggestion got into the trip itself. Quite often you'll find that if you think there is a hint of one thing, the next thing you see will be based on that feeling, then the next feeling will be based on that vision, and so on until it gets quite uncomfortable. The key is to try and realize that nothing is trying to screw with you, you're tripping, and to relax. Easier said than done though. I see it like a meditative trance, the more you cloud your thoughts, the more you cloud the trip, the less blissful the ride. Having mastery of your own mind isn't an easy task though, I've been trying for years to hone my mind and have control when in DMT space, mostly it comes down to how you feel at the time, every trip is different. You can fine tune your mind and get better at swatting away negative thoughts though, and that's the best use for DMT in my opinion.

Just pick up the pipe again and practice the intention of observing and not yielding to feeling. Like this you'll find that you enjoy it anyway without telling yourself 'just enjoy it, just enjoy it' (which as I suspect a lot of trippers will agree doesn't work terribly well.)

Hope this helps and thank you for your report

Thank you Orion! Makes a lot of sense. I've been reflecting on this trip a lot and I'm slowly understanding more and more why certain things were appearing/happening.

Thanks again for taking the time to read my experience and reply with your thoughts.

My first breakthrough I was listening to Divine Moments of Truth and I also had a frightening trip (at first) with an entity saying "isn't this what you wanted?". Cool little detail we share



My relationship with spice is kind of the same. My trips aren't always enjoyable but I feel I benefit from them even when they are unpleasantness. Sometimes the most terrifying trip can be the most rewarding. It definitely is fascinating... I've noticed the more I work with DMT I come up with way more questions than answers.

Wow! That must have been intense! Interesring to see we shared this part of our experiences... must be the music we chose.

Make enhanced leaf or changa; or even possibly acquire a GVG. Those methods will leave what your doing in the dust and skip right past those 'on the fence' stages.

Breathe, keep breathing, deeply.

Smile.

Take another toke.

Let go..