So, I managed to get a few extractions under my belt. I achieved a bright yellow wax, caramel colored wax, snowy white powder, orange crystals, bright orange jimjam, and an almost blood colored jimjam.
My co-pilots and I have had many experiences over the last month... maybe about 20 plus.
All of them have been vastly different... some terrifying and beautiful at the same time, some extremely peaceful and loving, and some completely mind shredding. But nothing, and I mean NOTHING, compares the my last experience with the blood colored jimjam.
I had my mind completely blown many times before this and thought that I had seen it all. Nope, not even close.
I normally leave my body behind and am shot or quickly appear in new dimensions. This last time the new dimension came to me.
Now, I should say that I'm sometimes left with a line from a journey. For example, the last thing I heard from my very first journey was, "This is only a f*cking taste..." That is word for word. And that totally threw me into freak out mode.
The last journey before the blood colored jimjam journey I was told, "You always want more..." over and over again. I sort of laughed at the end of the journey saying, "Well, yeah! Of course!"
My God... I'm is getting goose bumps and my eyes are tearing up while thinking about this last time.
There are no words. I was with what I thought was a God like being. I felt completely unworthy to even look upon it and ashamed for being such a brainless monkey. My head sunk down but he heard, "It's okay. It's okay." And like that I raised his head to the sky and all of the power of the universe formed a beam and shot through me as I looked at this God like being. Pure, absolutely pure, mind shattering energy coursed through me.
When I returned I gasped for air like I had been underwater the whole time. I shot straight to my feet and started balling my eyes out. This was no normal cry... tears literally gushed from my eyes, snot was flying around, drool was just dripping out. I was yelling and felt so incredibly alien. I may have had a small mental break down for about 10 or 15 minutes.
At first I just sat there and raised my arms to the sky and kept repeating, "IF THEY ONLY KNEW ABOUT YOU!" As if the world had been what I had just been through everything would be different. Then I curled up on my bed in the fetal position and cried for a while.
I thought he had reached the end of the road of DMT. I couldn't have been more wrong. Life will never be the same.
Oh my god. I broke it. I broke reality.