I just had a a breakthrough of a past life or my life in this new world. I took 2 hits of dmt before I physically couldn't light it anymore, shut my eyes and here I am in this couch laying back like I'm struggling to find out whats the meaning of all this pain and anger inside me. then I see a little kid on my left side just standing there, and a girl whos angry at me tossing some liquid at my face, an old witch to my right whos in my mind clouding my thoughts so I can't get any peace. Then there is 1 guy right in front of me trying to help me and another behind him to his left.

These 2 men are trying to help me go into a deeper..peaceful place, but this one women is so angry and sad for me it seems like, and this witch is just tormenting my mind preventing me from reaching any peace. I ask the 2nd guy. "What do I do with my hand?" he picks it up and starts waving it around and I get the grasp of it and start to do it by myself and this witch is slowly fading away. Then all the sudden shes back in my mind tormenting me again. I make a fist so tight that I felt liquid come from my hand. As I'm trying to figure out whats going on this witch envelopes herself around everything pushing me away from reaching this peace I want so much. Everytime I start to feel this serenity shes pulling me away from it. Then I'm back to reality. I'm thinking "NO I CAN'T BE HERE RIGHT NOW I NEED TO GO BACK". I left those 2 guys,this girl and this kid with this evil, I try to close my eyes, but I just can't get there. Then I realize that this young women whos angry at me for reasons I don't understand Is a women I love deeply. Like shes been here with me my whole life and I had no idea, I love this women so much, and she loves me back I can feel it, but she was angry at me.

Before I had this breakthrough I previously smoked about an hour before and I was in this space with a beautiful dancer who was dancing on me and showing me that she loves me like she was inside of me. Then she was pulled away by something else who was trying to take her away from me. Then I lost her cause I was back in reality. I was telling my self that its me who took her away to find love, but I just didn't believe it I felt like it was some evil that took her away.


What do you guys think all this means?

I don't suppose to know what it means but i have some ideas, the witch might just represent the evil inside of you. The waving motion might be considered a greeting motion. And all you have to do is say, "hey whatsup, why are you angry?"

It wasn't a wave like how we say hello, it was more of a my forearm moves left to right while my hand is twisting back and forth and doing all these motions. Maby your right next time I go back and If I have this "vision" again which I have before I'll try to ask more questions.

What is your relationship like with your mother and/or other females in your life?

Getting very Freudian in here.

...Are you in touch with your feminine side? Maybe your feminine side is angry with you for not loving it? The dancer represents the joy being in touch with it can bring? Idk just a guess.

With my mother its as good as I can make it, but with my sister.. Idk we never really just talk, but then again shes cooped up in her room all day not wanting to talk to anyone in the family.

Define "good as I can make it". That's a rhetorical comment. Look into archetypes and male and female energies. The mind works in metaphors and symbols. Find in/out what they mean.

Also take some time for your mind to digest and assimilate what happened. You'll figure it out.

Disclaimer: I'm no licensed psychologist.



I have a feeling Freudian knew somewhat what he was talking about. Leaning more towards Yin and Yang though. Male and Female. Just trying to help fellow explorers basically.


Hit the nail on the head.

Good as I can make it meaning, I'm open and as honest as I can be with my mom without hurting her emotionally cause I don't want my mom to always know what I'm up to you know? As for the sister part I'm thinking the angry girl is a symbol of my sister being mad at me, but I don't know why she would be. That still doesn't explain the little kid, the witch, and the 2 guys who felt like shamans.

@adam what do you mean Am I in touch with my feminine side? I'm not understanding what you mean by that exactly.

Little kid could be a symbol for your inner child. The 2 men could be your inner guidance as most shamans are "guides" for the spiritual/inner realms.

I don't know. Keep looking for answers, but also let it go and trust you'll get what your looking for.

Ya thanks man I don't wanna keep thinking about this cause knowing my mind it will eat away at it haha thanks for the help.

My first piece of advice, is, don't fret about it too much. I'm working on an answer to your post but it'll take me some time to compose as there is a lot to consider. In the mean time, just trust in the fact that love and light are key and that the highest forces in the universe are benevolent. You don't have to take my word for it though.

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Good reason im not posting any dreams lol

Thanks, but its alright I'm not gonna worry about it anymore or keep thinking about it. Will just do me no good constantly trying to puzzle it together.

Well first being in touch with the feminine doesn't mean you have to emasculate yourself it simply means are you aware of your emotional self. Do you repress emotions and get rigid in emotional situations? Also to what extent do you let others into your inner world? Letting others in and opening to emotions are ways to get in balance with the feminine.