Hello alpine41,
Welcome to the Nexus. Always great to have another lurker sign up and join our ever growing family.
By the way, do you happen to be using a mg scale when you dose? I wasn't clear on that from what you wrote. It is very essential when working with DMT, especially during the beginning.
What is your method of smoking/vaping? Do you think you have broken through yet? Again, I was kind of unclear on that from what you wrote.
It can be frustrating tripping alone for some, but I feel obligated to say that when I do DMT right it is a complete transposition in space and time for me, so when I come back laughing, crying, touching my body (that I thought was dead), I prefer to be alone or just have my husband with me. If you do wind up doing it with friends it is important not to interrupt the tripper. Don't ask questions, done assume open eyes means the tripper is down, etc. The tripper sets the pace here and being very still and quiet are important for any others. It just doesn't seem to be much of a group drug for me and certainly not a recreational one.
Regarding control, I know there are many opinions, but I think many experienced users will agree with me that with DMT, it's worth cultivating surrender rather than control. DMT will always be stronger than us. So, as long as I try to surrender and meet everything with love and simple observation, I find things tend to go very smoothly.
You might want to look up some information on smoking technique in the forums. It is important to get your entire dose in fast, like 90 seconds fast, because instant tolerance sets in and once that happens it's just wasting material and time to smoke more. It is also important to make your first hit your biggest one and to hold it as long as possible. I think once you refine your smoking technique you will find that the DMT waters go very deep indeed and are full of ever more novelty and surprise.
At least I hope so.
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Again, welcome to the Nexus.
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