Greetings Nexians!
I’m a long time Nexian Lurker/ learner and a new member so I thought an introduction was finally in order. I came to this wonderful site to learn as much as I can. I’m a hobby herbalist who likes to dabble in steam distillation of essential oils, absolute oils, and purifying anything that has a benefit or grabs my curiosity. I’m interested in everything that aids me in the constant improvement of my psyche… so here goes…
It all REALLY started with a life changing iboga experience. I have lived with an anxiety disorder my whole life and it wasn’t until coming off of all medications and taking my ‘healing’ into my own hands I realized how unsuited to these medications I was. This was my decision and I don’t recommend it to anyone, but almost a decade of no improvement and something had to be done. I felt I had been misdiagnosed at every turn, or really not listened to. I had tried to come off of meds before and was always unsuccessful and that is how I came across iboga. After my first experience I was able to stop cold turkey and I felt great. There were no shaky symptoms or withdrawal type feelings and felt like a new person. This started so many new thoughts… I have always loved plants, so why am I shying away from doing the work and developing relationships with the ones that I can benefit from the most? The more I asked myself that question the more I found myself immersed in ayahuasca information. The more I read and studied, the more I truly felt that my whole life I had been inaccurately treated, and CERTAINLY NEVER healed.
Well, let’s fast forward here about 6 or 7 months. After 9 vine only experiences that have changed my life, 3 admixture experiences with Brazilian chacruna, mimosa and chaliponga, one Lazyman’s and two very successful fumaric acid and d-limo extractions that my friend has done on chaliponga (LOVE Jorkest’s Tek!!!!), I have for the first time in my life felt that something amazing has taken place… treatment is now a word of the past. I now only use words like healing and curing. In this time ayahuasca has become a guiding entity in my life… a spirit that continues to give and teach far after her realms have been left. Everything that has been learned has come from the people and efforts on Nexus. Thank you so much. The adventure continues
