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Awesome. You did a better job articulating it than you thought! The grid pattern thing is def something I can resonate with. In fact it was there for my first DMT experience for sure. IME during the onset, any kind of thought that you start to have, paranoia for example, can modify or become the experience. This will integrate, this will pass, you will learn something great from this. I am one of them. I am an entity of hyperspace! Bwahahaha! "Energy flows where attention goes" [Please review the forum Wiki and FAQ before posting questions]
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This sounds like a first full fledged breakthrough to me. With a dark twist to it. Glad you made it back buddy! 3... 2... 1... BLAST OFF!!!!FFO TSALB ...1 ...2 ...3 My grafting guide
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sounds like an average dmt trip for me. happy you made it back. "We're selling more than a cracker here," Krijak said. "We're selling the salty, unctuous illusion of happiness."
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Glad you are ok. Couldn't help seeing the irony in the fact that under your avatar there is Loop Dweller though  "It permits you to see, more clearly than our perishing mortal eye can see, vistas beyond the horizons of this life, to travel backwards and forwards in time, to enter other planes of existence, even (as the Indians say) to know God." R. Gordon Wasson
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Happy to see you bounced back, DeDao. Stay strong!  SpaceSeek is a fictional character. Everything posted on this account is for educational and entertainment purposes only. SpaceSeek does not condone the use of any illegal substance. Use of post content from this account without authors said permission is prohibited.
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I've been trying to warn people new to dmt about this kind of thing For a while . I always sound like a bummer when I try to Tell people to be careful on here . I'm glad you shared your experience. There's a normal tendency to be lulled into a false sense Of security after many great and amazing experiences . I have a very healthy respect for this stuff and I'm also very Conscious and careful of dosage at all times . It's like playing in the ocean . The only way of discovering the limits of the possible is to venture a little way past them into the impossible. Arthur C. Clarke http://vimeo.com/32001208
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Its really hard these kind of experiences, but you can derive a lot from them. Peace and love The Unknown = A Place to Learn
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anrchy wrote:Awesome. You did a better job articulating it than you thought!
IME during the onset, any kind of thought that you start to have, paranoia for example, can modify or become the experience.
Yes, exactly. Initial thoughts/emotions can heavily modify the experience, especially one as deep and intense as what you experienced. It's very easy to have a thought pop in your head "Ohh no, i've done it" and have that spiral out into a storm of insanity, or having an inkling of worry completely throw you down the hole only to keep tumbling over n over. Any possible miniscule thought, feeling, or anything remotely pointing towards fear, apprehension, guilt, etc CAN make things go bananas here n' there. Not all the time, but 'sometimes'. The experience works with what you give it, more times than not. Once you get sufficiently DEEP within the DMT realm, you start to see/experience things that are unquestionable. They just are. A wild freak show it is, hehe. I hope you integrate this whopper of an experience. It'll take time. Most likely lot's of it. Live your life and do things that bring you joy and bring your mind in the present, where everything else just drops away. Just you and your happy activity. That, I found, has brought me much help in the integration department. You need to talk about anything, im here.  Much love, tat
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DeDao wrote: There was a demon lady conducting it. Saying something like "you want to see emptiness? You want to see the devil? You want to see eternity?" " You don't even know anything you little coward".. She wasn't really saying these things but it was as if she was making me feel these things.
Ive had something very much like this; a mocking, challenging sense of a prelude to some deep confrontation.Heavy duty but fascinating, especially if one can still the mind and inspite of the profundity of it all, simply observe.For me, this is 40+mg territory. Caution at all times with dosing, people; this is no plaything that we utilise. I am paranoid of my brain. It thinks all the time, even when I'm asleep. My thoughts assail me. Murderous lechers they are. Thought is the assassin of thought. Like a man stabbing himself with one hand while the other hand tries to stop the blade. Like an explosion that destroys the detonator. I am paranoid of my brain. It makes me unsettled and ill at ease. Makes me chase my tail, freezes my eyes and shuts me down. Watches me. Eats my head. It destroys me.
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