Sounds like a rough life, but looks like you are trying to learn from it and take it as positive as possible, which is a good sign
Thank you for opening up, and I wish you the best in life!
Btw, please edit your first post and remove names of people (aunt...) , schools and other easily identifyable information, since you are in a forum that talks about schedule 1 substances. For your own safety, and ours as a comunity.
What isnt clear from your introduction essay (maybe you've posted elsewhere but it's good to have this info on the intro essay thread), what is your experience with psychedelics so far? Did you smoke dmt? What about ayahuasca?
What do you expect from the Nexus?
Be well!