Where to begin, where to end.. Hello friends!

Hello. I am a young man who practices in the arts of music as profession. Aside from this I have valiantly taken on the journey of psychonautics, due to something instilled in me when I was about 16 years old. I have a lot to learn, and look forward to engaging with like minds here. I have been in the nexus browsing around for about the past month. (learning, expanding, familiarizing) - & Just finished first ever extraction (with a partner) - from Acacia which yielded. This I have MANY questions about, but I will refrain for now. Back to topic.

I am currently at ease in my mind, but the strain of the day has clouded a lot of my processes, so forgive the sporadic nature of my spewing... Here's where it gets interesting: I have been diagnosed with bi-polar disorder, . I am strong willed yet open, but disapproving in the use of modern pharmaceuticals. Many say that taking a gamble with psychedelics with these sort of issues deems one almost foolhardy.. Yet personally for me it is the opposite.

Psychedelics/hallucinogens have been an amazing tool for nearly reversing these processes within my brain. Through myself, and through the revelations brought to me upon mushrooms, LSD, and my first use of DMT as of a day ago (non-breakthrough) I have been able to explore and almost correct these ailments deemed only repairable through pharmaceutical zombifying agents. I can attest to the power of ones-self and to the infrastructural breakdowns we receive from psychedelics, allowing us to begin anew. (I don't overly use them, still experiencing.)

I have so much to learn. I am willing. I often have many encounters with extremely sober ESP, and This only makes the DMT experience more valuable to me.. While I haven't broken through yet, I am planning a day to do so. I am prepared, yet respectful. It's almost hard to think one is fully prepared, because we very well never may be. But as I've watched over the past few weeks in the Nexus, observant, I now have confidence that many before me have bestowed. It's nearly time. I was a bit intimidated at first, but I have learned enough I believe, and it seems to be almost EVERYTHING I have sought after in my journey, that was unattainable through other methods.

I am a writer of the abstract.. Not as in I write with wonderful grammar, as you may notice ( ) but I write music, a chaotic arrangement of prior visions I have had both sober, and expanded. It is my passion. It is my release. I frequently listen to waves of isochronic tones, and binaural beats, paired with a strong marijuana cigarette, before I go to sleep. I will also take a 5mg melatonin, which provides me the ability to be able to remember every single detail of. I have a skewed yet appreciated sense of humor, retaining my humility generally wherever I go. Or I try, I strive to become the purest I can be. (In terms of spiritual enlightenment) - As I have been on the quest for about 3-4 years now. . I still feel I am just beginning. Thanks again to any who may read, or observe any of my ramblings here. I still have many questions, for later, but I am glad to be here, I feel like I am supposed to be. Love.

Nice to meet you! You should try replying to some q&a's helping people out. Since you like writing I'm sure they would like some help with The Nexian magazine

Thank you Leon! Likewise friend. Thanks for pointing me in that direction! It may be a bit formal for my approach, but I shall look into such! I will check out some Q&A's and see what it going on. Safe travels!

Welcome to the Nexus!

I am very intrigued by what you said regarding psychedelics helping out with your bipolar disorder. It is certainly a risky thing to take psychedelic with such kinds of issues, so I'm very glad it is working out for you.

Can you expand a bit on that? What kind of symptoms were present before, and how was the process to diminish them? Was it gradual or was it sudden? Was it related to some insight you had about yourself or was it something that happened unconsciously and you didnt even notice, just the symptoms diminished/dissapeared? Was it related to one psychedelic in particular or several?

Be well bro!

Endlessness, thanks for the concern! It is in fact quite the unexplainable situation. It was both sudden, and gradually sub-conscious; if that makes sense. I had researched before into psychedelics and these processes. The mental health issue in general is (in my opinion) severely hampered by the prohibition of hallucinogens, that can in my experience directly target and help one repair such ailments if they desire. While there is no concrete proof of this, there won't be, as long as they remain unstudied and underfunded in this field. But to the questions:

Yes, I had some insight, at the peak of a 14 hour 5 hit LSD trip (very pure, most clean and expanding swim has used) I began to see myself as truly as possible. I seen what caused me anguish, anger, for apparently little to no reason at all. I was taken back to the situations, I got to see right in front of me exactly how I was not on the right path by allowing anger and frustration to overwhelm me. I know this may be to a chemical imbalance, within the disorder. However! Since this event I have been able to reroute the energy or whatever fires off when those things would usually happen, using the experience to my advantage, and going back to how I felt in that moment, to help steer me to more positive thinking processes that actually WORK for me! It was also very subconscious in that I've kept the event in the back of my mind and it truly has helped develop me in terms of reaction and how I deal with things.

It led to me being able to taper off of xanax, which calmed me in those manias, and now I no longer need it. I am doing well without an episode for about a year now. I believe it was a culmination of things I've learned through the experiences. But there is at least the slightest bit of evidence that psychedelics can be beneficial to humans with issues like these. I only wish that this would come to light and we could use them to help us restructure.. For I believe the disorders as such are inherited, but come from how we live. Mental issues in 3rd world countries are far less in percentage, because they are only worried of survival. We worry about everything. We are destroying ourselves and the more we can use hallucinogens to help us see that, I believe the better we will be. If we use them accordingly and for the right reasons. Thanks!