Hi everybody, I'm new to posting but I've been reading this forum for quite some time. I'm just coming off from a trip and I'm still trying to piece it together, and I thought I would share. While this subforum is for new members, hopefully I'll get some input from some of the established members on this forum.
I felt the fuzzies come on, and then I lay back and close my eyes. I see a tunnel materializing in front of me, and I'm suddenly shot off through it into a kaleidoscope of colors. During this time I'm fully aware of “me” and what I’ve just done. I hear myself say “why did I come here? I didn't need to come here”. After hearing this I also hear myself say that since I can hear myself, I probably didn't take enough. My eyes shoot open after maybe 15 seconds, and I see the mass hysteria/confusion that is a heavy mushroom trip around me. I’m still having a few of the sentiments I had moments ago and I hear myself making other comments, and I try to relax, I even say “we're actually really here! It’s happening right now! Try to enjoy it!” and I relax a little and see a mass of cloud in the sky turn into a chubby elephant.
I made a short voice recording after I opened my eyes, this is the transcript: “I definitely didn't appreciate it this time. Very violent this time too. Ripped apart, and...and I guess what they say is true…that’s not breaking through maybe I don't know. I didn't like it this time”.
I should also include my smoking method. The material was extracted from ACRB, and it was a “full spectrum” honey-like goo that was dried onto basil. When I tried before with a regular bong, once the initial effects/fuzzies came on, I would tend to think “that’s enough” and put it down. I tried smoking it through a gravity bong this time because I figured having all the smoke concentrated and inhaled in one step would allow me to get as large a dose as possible. Either way, even though it was set to dry for almost a week, it looked like the “liquid-ness” of the goo protected it from the flame and I don't think it burned properly.
There were aspects of it that I remember as beautiful, but there was an underlying motif of me feeling like I “didn't need to come here”. I last tripped DMT for the first time about three weeks ago, and that experience was positive. It was a similar trip, highly immersive CEV for about 15-20 seconds , then my eyes shoot open and I'm in a heavy mushroom trip. Very short duration, and even then I felt like I didn't have enough of a dose. So since about three weeks ago, I've been anticipating to get more out of this trip as I’d know what to expect and not be as overwhelmed. That might be a factor as I should have kept my expectations to a minimum and stayed open to whatever it brought me.
I suspect the dose was low due to the subtle uncomfortable dysphoria that I hear accompanies a mis-fire. It did not burn properly, and I'm also researching the effects of NMT, as ACRB has lots of it, so my stash may have a higher ratio of NMT : DMT. NMT does not tend to be as visual, and I certainly had intense visuals, but the duration of my last two trips is what I suspect may be a factor of NMT.