I'm caught up in myself. I'm one, the world is another one. One that doesn't relate much to me. Well, they do judge, they do harm me or so it seems. Or is it just me projecting my anguish outwards so I can justify my existence?

"It's not about you" or so a voice told me. "We don't care!" they told me. Nothing was shown. A black screen before my eyelids. I relaxed and realized that we share a common existence. I'm one. Tthe world is another one...but together we are two.

Then I saw these beautiful pattern floating through the room and I was astonished. It was no breakthru, but still it made me think:

"Maybe your point in the universe isn't that important...if THISSS!!!! can exist."

I tell you what: Even the most evil thing ever can be shred apart in the face of beauty.

And that's a message that needs to be constantly re-learned. Wether it be through psychedelics or not.

Crystal shimmering candy glossy world of simmering, bubbling bursting pearls of joy and beauty - I'm confronting you with my sins.

Great !

Absolute Beauty and Absolute Love.

These two entities are the path to true joy and happiness. Follow them and they will show you how to walk in their paths.

Very nice post, Obliguhl. I don't know if you meant it this way, but it resonates with how I'm feeling. I feel isolated from my society more so than ever since SWIM discovered DMT and mescaline. I've seen such beauty, I've taught myself to live happily. I am happy. But still, actually now much more so, the termite mound I live in repulses me.

I am trapped in a vampire city, run by bloodsucking bankers, waving money out their windows at the hate-consumed anarchists who jostle with blockhead policemen in the street below, while the most powerful 20 people in the world sit around a table and emit hot air and empty promises, in the same conference centre that hosts the arms fairs selling death to the world for their pointless wars.
I watch despicable people drink and stumble, push and jostle each other, dehumanising themselves, stupified on yeast excrement. The streets are paved with vomit. On my way home a group of dredded hippies, Spanish possibly, climbed out from a window above a cheap restaurant, why such stupidity I don't understand, one fell and landed badly, the ground emitted a thump as it met her pelvis. She was still lying there when I looked over my shoulder down the long street. She is probably lying there still, awaiting her ambulance. Western society is corrupt and sordid. I wish I was with the Shipibo.

Yet, I am forced into this monster of a city, because it is the one place in my country of birth where I am accepted for who I am, where I can rub shoulders with people like me, where I am not considered 'weird', but welcomed. Always outcast from society. Now self-outcast from nature. Through losing my autonomy, I have gained social freedom. I am torn between these two choices, I want both. The meaning of my life is to find a girl 'like me' to spend the rest of my days with. It's lonely being the only psychonaut in the village.

Imagine if Western society disregarded its stupifying sacrament of wine, and took up mescaline and DMT. Imagine the transformation. That is my dream. The negativity of the world is enveloping me again, it must be time for some spice, time for some beauty (it's been weeks, maybe a month)...

Sorry about that last post! I'm happy again today, being 'forced' to go to a bar full of horrible drunks just got me down

I can actually relate very much to your first post ohayaco. Some days its much easier to see the beauty of life emanating through all of the worthless dribble than others. Our society is most certainly sick. We as people can do so much better. Unfortunately, I think we still have a ways to spiral downward before we truly start to climb back up and beyond.

I am a beautiful person living an ugly life.

"Comparison is the root of fear." The Upanishads

THE FUNDAMENTAL FLAW WITH HUMANITY IS THAT IT SEES "I" AND "YOU" AS TWO SEPARATE THINGS....


-old Buddhist proverb.


LOVE AND GRATITUDE!!

I believe that is what it will take, for our collective being that is. Every individual that is able to stop the spiral before it destroys them helps this fixing process before it is... too... late...?

I hear ya man...i still believe in peace love and music and i believe society can be good. But, lets face it...society is full of a bunch of close minded assholes. People who will screw their best friend over for a dollar. people will lye strait to your face all day long. buncha people believe in a bunch of bullshit religion where you at least found something spiritual, but society will throw your ass in jail for it. and the stupidity...dont even get me started on the stupidity!

Go to your local walmart at 1 in the morning trippin a lil on a saturday nite...youl see how disgusting humanity is!

i mean ya ya gota feel bad for feeling outcast but come on look at the people you feel outcast from.

Have you guys seen Watchmen yet? You might relate to John (Dr Manhatten), the guy who after a nuclear accident turned into energy, living in the past, present and future at the same time, able to take a quantum or universal scale, as well as parallel dimensions... the enlightenment isolates him from the rest of humanity so he eventually leaves earth...