Hello All,

Swim used to hang out here (never registered) 6 years ago when he first became interested in spice. After 6 years, Swim has decided that the spice is too powerful and beautiful to walk away from. The lessons learned run too deep... swim has the deepest faith that the intense fear and inability to integrate his first (and last) breakthrough experience will no longer be an issue now that he is more mindful, mature, and spiritually centered. I thank you all (and even those that are no longer here) for the help you've already given me.

I would also like to say that the nexus itself has greatly matured. The wealth of knowledge and general vibe of this forum has truly grown exponentially and now seems right on par with the spirit of this molecule.

Again, thank you.

Hi Fullcircle,

if you consider yourself more mindful, mature and spiritually centered... wouldn't these be clues pointing out that perhaps you have slowly integrated that one experience?

Welcome back

Thanks, Vodsel

Swim's not sure if the experience is really integrated as it still seems just as bizarre as it did years ago (the fear has diminished though). Yoga and pranayama practice has since come into swim's life and he believes that is a huge part of being more centered and willing to have a similar experience, just with a totally different viewpoint.