More lovely reading, love the songs as well
Below is a collection of words written while apparently being reborn into my own body over the course of ~6+ weeks of synchronicity after synchronicity. Thank you all! Praise the struggle!
Something was done
I looked at it through my lens,
saw the devil I never forgave,
I looked at it through the devil's lens,
As an angel I saw the ways
This monster no longer made sense,
I looked again through an angel's lens,
Learned the ways that I could give it an end,
I looked again through my own lens,
Told myself this is only pretend,
Now this is something I am.
What shape is your spirituality?
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My oneness of being
MentallyInfinitelyPhysically
Branching out from a centered uncertainty
Decisions and actions, time you'll see
Filling the void of the two worlds in me
My assumptions misguide me
Lead me astray
As I walk my way
My assumptions hide me
Form the misleading words I say
As I pop out,
My perspective shifted sideways.
Remaining true to the skies and seas
I find a friend in you indeed
You can't hide infinity from me.
Looking out from these bendy seams
I feel my emotions playing the keys
A lovely tune and soon I'm seeing
That from here I'm within both beings
Looking back and looking forward
Looking down a pinpoint border
Coming through, expressions sorted
Looking at my reflection in the skies
Water still flowing beneath my eyes
Musical waves surrounding me in vibes
Does a bird's song ever lie?
Are the notes maligned?
Or the sound of a harmonious crash of the mind
The rules of language
Collapse before my eyes
Visions of stained glass
Shatter with each breath of light
Life I've been granted
Love the chances I've since danced with
Gifted with reason, emotion, time and space
I love the experience given enough of one of these
Very precise calculator
Layer upon layer with inner and outer layers
I'm just another calculator inhabiting this lair
But at least I'm here to calculate
And give it all my flair
Some would say it is my fate
Tangible templates with evocative atmospheres
Big words mean nothing here
Geometries unfold,
Faces mimic leers,
A house of gears and mirrors,
Into a darkness bearing witness,
Finding a temple of light and awareness,
Shrouded in pulses of substance,
Summoning this new formed guidance
Only my presence is required
With will now burning as fire
Illuminating a way, melting old ways
As it cools, molds to form
Becoming, as I return,
Renewed with a vigor for
Maintaining the storm.
Watching the waves meet the shore
Hearing the wind carry the lure
I'm casting my future
Its thunderous roar
Reduced to a whisper that soars once more
Spiritual sport who's lined up?
Detach from the outside
Tension on the inside
Give me slack!
I want to see
So I'm pulling on me
As we feel it stronger, I feel I'm loosening
I'm surrounded by slack and it is blissening
Time to focus and ride up to the main crew
Within our minds lies space.
Within this space lies form.
Within this form we find layers
Foreground, background
Subject, predicate? (New stuff, verbs ftw)
Within these layers we find interaction
Within these interactions we find change
Within this change we find a consistency
Within this consistency we find a world
A world much like our own
Observed only for mere instants
But holding a passionate fierceness
And a soothing sleekness
And the self contained mannerisms
Exchanged and repelled like magnetism
But with the spatial relations
Altered with each oscillation
I wonder if this may all be
Just a poor translation
Only a slice of the pie
A cross section of time
Maybe these are all mine
And for another there are more to find
Perhaps we all dwell in the concepts
Of a larger systems head
Waiting for a parse of lips
For us to escape with the breath
To be set in the stone of a higher order
To persist in the latter by
Transcending the former
Brought from conceptual to physical
Like the high I get from smoking a bowl
Connecting my inner and outer world
I tend to my world and they tend to the whole
Be of assistance in this place of distance
Find the rhythm in your system
You're contacting me, a sense of release
Like the mental police stopped hammering the sheep
All are people, set free and assisting needs
No longer a sure thing, each hir own brings
To this world a bright wing
And also a pleasant sting
Each guided individually
Auras radiating habitually
Finally we see it change beneath our feet
What a thing, can you believe?
Time to gather a lifetime of dreams
Develop them into physical beings
Ready to perform and be performed
What an incredible world in store
Endless seams in the compassionate allure
This ones for my friends instead
Helping me get outta my head
Love the life in front of me
There was a line I really wanted to say
But I kept thinking on it instead
My thoughts were growing,
Coasting on the clouds, floating
Helping see the shine in a pinprick of lead
Not even sure that's what I wanted to be said
Swish it up
Let it flow from the edge of my bed
Singing with the reflection
Always brings life more affections
Those I miss, I wish upon this bliss
We'll meet again in this beautiful abyss
You'll make me smile when thinking of guile
Hope you sit and stay a while
Memories of you are lacking this choir
Singing with you here feels warmer than a winter fire
Your presence lit up those eternal moments
I see you past the branches
Rooted so deep we can still share dances
I wish we could share more dances
I thank you for the chance to have this
And I'm living for this now
I fucked around for a while
Played dumb
Didn't listen
Thought I did
Anyways...
Got hit with a barrage of good intentions
Misguided my way through with honesty
Mixed with a layer of surfaces, pleasantly
Surfaces hid something deep I guess
Some big reason nobody could know
Never that great at knowing myself
A few things for sure, time will tell,
Will is a wishing well, I wish you well,
I don't know Braille, but feel the points
Patience sews a sail to set me straight
My, this ocean is awe fully calm
It wasn't for me, time to move on
It had started to bore me, yearning for flaws
This is for me, time for us to move beyond
Back into the deepest depths within
Back into the beauty found in my friends
Finding each and every lock holding me in
Seems we hold a skeleton key to the city of grins
Opening the gates for a grand parade
Marching into the moments we lay
Together enough strength to redefine a day
I love you all, I realize your strength
I also realize I need to get out of my stubborn ways
I'm not the only one here to row
Go with the flow
That sun so surely shone
Patience is not passive
It is the property of holding no expectations
For how the current nature should've unfolded
Of actively pursuing a goal;
That was silly.
So much to do
Find better things for you
Wander like dust blowing through
Sit for a moment to watch the sun
Feel its pull on my smoking gun
Spark a conversation of hidden relations
A meeting of the oceans
Waves continue flowing
The tide is pulling my sides
As the depths dissipate and rise
Another shelled out from a shadow cannon
Shot down the moon
Came back to a heart slammin
A fondness for you is suddenly peeking
On the tail end of an emotional peak
I walked the streets, heart beating slow
Each moment a grandiose show
"Some people have a certain glow."
Well, wouldn't ya know...
Felt my mind drop control
Keep the soul a secret, I don't want to know
Behind the scenes or up in the front row
Doesn't matter, the wind still blows
I see a crack, only thing I know,
Perpendicular to the wind that blows
And arcing deep, set in stone
Feel the breeze floating down
Bouncing off each textured edge
In these moments I drown the sounds
Feel them build inside my head
Before I know it, it's coming back
Can't go any deeper, as I'm carried aboveground
I burst back up to the streets
Heart's burning from heat
Head's floating in the clouds,
Each moment's ringing loud
The only thing to do is now.
I questioned myself, expanding my doubt
It helped for a few moments,
After all, there is so much I'm without
Two steps ahead of myself
I trip and crumble
Now I'm feeling mellow
My self has been humbled
The now has been done,
But you rode it into the sun,
Blinded by the light,
Reflection bears lessons,
Find peace in the water,
Carry it to cool the fights,
Find power in the trees,
Meditate for a moment to see where it bleeds
Chop it up to feel it inspire,
Dedicated to your decider
Your will burned through itself,
Your face began to melt,
This hand has been dealt,
You must now learn projection
Use your hands to share affections
Join your hands in moments of objection
Display yourself in a manner of successions
As I give it all up to each session
Culminating in my life's repossession
Didn't let it linger, though sometimes it was near
Really though, I'm here, why waste it on fear?
Not going anywhere when the path looks clear
Practice safe habits and let love steer
May you find a voice
Illuminate the faint
Not saying it's all great
There's a lot at stake
But it appears as fate
Somehow start to relate
Eventually something is great
You think I have your full attention
But I just caught eyes with another
And now my tide has changed
The eyes formed to my stage
And I spoke with a slight stutter
Hiding the truth that begs for an utter
For one a display
Leaves a shadow another way
They say 7 years it takes to master
I say 9 months and I developed a stature
Stopped counting once I saw this pasture
Played some snakes and ladders
Nothing does matter
The most profound of all is knowing that I do not know
What I do is what I use
Defining templates, finding shoes
Some are too snug,
Some are too loose,
But my feet fit in them all
Some are great for balls,
Some I need to crawl,
Some I tend to fall,
Some let me walk on walls,
But what is this?
There is one for which I'm still yearning
The lesson I'm learning is my pairs are mismatching
So neat and tidy, yet severely lacking
Of all these shoes,
All my walks around the block,
How clearly I see none filled the hole in my sock
How clearly they show where I was still slacking
Getting cold under the fuss instead of soon hatching
But somehow my mind is latching
So I slip off my worn out sock
Wet in lethe and left rotten
And slide on a fine silk cloth
A warm love that feels forgotten
I embrace its warmth and bounce
This rhythm pulsates to full surround
Brought to this universe to again be found
Within a few instants my world turns around
Potential abound
Quality profound
I heard you say it
But it didn't resonate
It will sink down below
Resting where it appears outdated
It will remain until I return with a statement
If I abstain I'll go insane,
Must work it out from the folds in my brain
So I lift my active matrix integrated array
This life it shares
My life a mirror for you to hear
I walk up the stairs,
Enter the cockpit,
Parking break? Yup, dislodge it
Take off to the skies,
Reaching into unbelievable heights
Keep moving, raise the altitude
This high I achieve thanks to you
I'm tuning in, spiraling, my lasso on this sun,
alright,
In the stall you string me a chord and we danced alike
You lift me high and I begin to slide
Press eject and we learn to fly
We coast into the night to share the delight of diaphanous light
Remove focus from external processing.
Focus on nothing but this inherent moment
Remove all control and simply observe
Focus solely on sensations
Let the sensations guide your focus
Do not attempt to control
Remain focused on sensations
Ride the waves of the mind
If seeking to express
Focus as above,
Remove thought from the forefront
Let sensation guide the media
Reflection occurs momentarily upon each stroke
Be swift
It's what we live for
That perpetual moment of potential bliss
Shared by each and every will, was, and is
Is there is a space between us?
There is a space between you and me
More than enough space to fit us
But we linger in a collective hologram
Waiting for a development on our land
Told me it was worse way back. When?
I can still smell the foul stench in your whim
Our eyes lie drenched in lifespans
Applying false requirements to our current stand
Based upon the word that it's never looked so grand
But your eyes lie, you stand dealt a hand
Your eyes scream that they know what they've seen
But you expect to see us through those dirtied dreams?
There are millions in need
But you eat while they bleed
Work hard for a common need,
Our artificially conceited greed
Inhabit a lair only your kin will share
No creatures invited in from out there
I concede
Hid fears outside our friends and families,
Don't help the man he may have a disease
Not even if he begs on his knees with a "Please!"
Pretending that you are no different than me
When I can clearly see the family you're unable to feed
The job that I got handed while you were left stranded
The trust of those who saw me in a glance
While I was stealing or running rampant
The preconceived notions found on our dry ocean
The surface of assumptions and expectations that still need erosion
When the words are spoken and situations have arisen
I look to hear your stand,
But I see you sit and listen
You speak of action and wisdom
But watch our struggle from a distance
The privileged are behind while we march on the front lines
They worry about their grind with a goal they can't define
We watch their system blind them
TV dramas got them crying again
Educated, but distracted with revenge
Buying up lies to escape our true cry
Putting us off until you gather the strength to deny
While our fellows are out dying in pain
I will expose where you're lying in vain
You wanted love to globally spread
But you didn't even spare some local bread
You wanted equality and a mutual respect
But you refused to accept that you are part of the disconnect
You didn't even have the time of day to hear a new dialect
You try to wash yourself free of shame
The spirit of the age is here to proclaim
You will not be free of shame
Until you change where you only place blame
And lend a hand to those whose lives are stained by the dirty hands of our societal game
That allows such pain to simply remain
While we walk past them as if man is only a grain
Relieve us, carry the pain by striving for change
I brew my batch of maintenance
It's who I am, wild sustenance
You see, we all fit
Lose the guilt and ego trips
Always on time when my clock's hands slip
Take that time for granted
Your words start coming slanted
Live it up on this beautiful land
Sift through these watered sands
And in these valleys we find grains of bliss
Toolbox?
I burned it to a disc
Ready to play it with a flip of the wrist
Music to my ears like drip, drip, bliss
Truck stop.
unload.
had a hell of a time
Started off putting it to rhymes
Sense of release at the end of each line
Culminating in a peace, a taste of the divine
A world as it is, a question of what is
Took another hit
I landed on the script
Eyes bending over the tip
Nerve endings folding the letters
Dulled concepts accreting round wet ears
Pulled from the giant space that's always near
Like gears giving a torque to my conscious sphere
Tuning in, the path is here
A great vision of a story yet to be told
The birds fly with soul
The sun is my window
My outlook is a detail
Attention on the big wheel
As it incorporates all I need to feel
With the cold in our bones
We may build fires
From these chills our life has grown
A warmth floods the home
Acknowledge the stone briar
Thorny truths on the outlier
Halftruths, the current a survivor
Awaiting a decider
To blossom from a halfhearted denier
Into the greatunknownminder
Gathering fellow bones around warm fires
Connecting some dots
With leaks from my faucet
Two by two they're caught
Until you think you lost it
The lines are building walls again
Fencing in concepts to tend
What a trip this pen thing is
I never know what power it'll give
My mind is empty until filled with bliss
Fulfilled by what Earth's music is
Then come the waves of form again
A brainstorm in the sands of a friend
A reflection shimmers,
Hope I'm good swimmer,
I'm gonna let this one simmer...
An understanding whispers
Brought back to that time,
Brought it back anew,
Riding with you in the shine of each line
These moments are few,
And I'm happy to have this with you,
Escape from the grind, embrace my mind
Let it rain, let it shine,
Let it fall to the world in front of my eyes
As these templates combine
A feedback loop is made with mine
Tip of my tongue,
Yet from a great deep space,
An exhale of the lungs,
A breath in of fate,
In this realm of great distance,
How should one relate?
I breathe to fuel my fissions
Keep moving, but start to listen
Unruly at heart with love in my vision
Using words to display my condition
with these words of freedom i bind my soul
a window to peer to the ones my eye told
my brothers, my sisters, my mothers, my fathers, my children, you, zhe, and me
my pets, my plants, my meals, a yard of ants, a buzzing bee
the ones who sit and work and see, while i pretend i am the only to be
when i allow them in and feed them grins i know their love will flow in my winds
flow through my whole to bend gold from my mold as i sit and i wonder how many i told
in these moments of sanity i try to recover
try to find myself in the hands of another
for these hands which now write, are looking only to bite
into the soul of my life, beyond the years of my plight
when we all join as one it is a beautiful sun
radiating as one, i can view each ray as it strikes among
the millions i know, free to run my show, i smile, i know
these millions will glow so long my eyes they are shown
i must take part, be one with the art
bring it home to the stars, spindles and quarks
within my mind darts, a love of the heart
growing eternally, yet each beat is a fresh start
a moment apart, the chorus is singing
why are you not singing, eternally dancing
the world is your master, you are the same master
we are one dancer, together much faster
the DNA crafter, a wonderous masher
the visons crash laughter, pour love up from their shores after
singing names and seeding ladders,
here comes the mad hatter
or perhaps a jack or vera
sitting on steps of handed quiere
los vatos mierda, con gratis disfruto.
The inner soul is full of joy. Reveal my secrets and sew me whole. With each day, "I" heeds your call.
You may not care the slightest and may not be the brightest, but from here "I" sees you're mighty for you created it all.
And the jumbling sea rose above the wall.
Through this chaos comes the order you enthrall.