I had asked in stating my intention before this journey about my addictions. In a general way I had asked what will come of my addictions if they went unchecked, and will it- can it help with them. What is addiction? Etc. Well... Oh baby was this a difficult experience. My mood was quite serious and the response the trip gave me was fitting for my state of mind at the time. Here goes an attempt at a description of this experience. Three hits of changa held in for 30 or more seconds via glass mj pipe. Candle light, small blue flame burning epsom salt with de natured alcohol for purification, sitting cross legged on the floor, incense, smudged clean room, etc. The build up was incredibly intense. I am thrust into a tunnel as if inside a tornado. Everything seems to be in fast forward motion. A burning sensation moves from my neck across my face and then opens up at the top of my head as if a new fontanelle had formed. I could see an opening after a female force telepathically told me to look, Look up now! The opening was at the other end of the tunnel yet also on the top of my skull so it seemed. Through this opening was a bright light with incredibly busy particles rushing around. This sent fear through me. A terror I had never felt before because I knew that this was where I was going. Pop through the top and from there no one returns was my thought. This seemed certain. The whole time I was threatened with being sent through the opening. Pop through the top you go, pop through the top you go, as if being taunted. Oh please no! I was not ready and still I was certain it would happen at any moment. Well It didn't. I came to after what seemed an eternity and almost purged. I had the revelation at this point that, well, there is my answer. That's what happens if you let your addictions go unchecked. That opening was not the portal to hyperspace in my mind. That was death up there. I have since worked on understanding addiction. It seems for me that it is all wrapped up in attachment and ego. What I gained from this experience is a deeper understanding that my consciousness is not just my own. It is everybody's. I need to develop a better appreciation and sense of personal responsibility towards it. This was about a year ago. I approach these substances with much humility and respect. Like Terence Mckenna had said and I can merely regurgitate what I suppose he means without quoting a paragraph. The interesting thing about these substances is not that they make you simply hallucinate but that they communicate to you ideas in a coherent language that one can understand. Telepathically, visually or otherwise. And these things I could not have imagined. My brain alone could not have come up with these ideas and visions.