It was a really wonderful journey- April 29.
It began at 6:30 pm. I had a fairly empty stomach, having just bicycled home from work. I rubbed approximately 30mg of harmala freebase (purchased, assumed to be from Rue) into my cheeks and gums. I decided to do this because placing the freebase under my tongue seemed to invite salivation. This was the first time I have experimented with harmala freebase.
Affects began within five minutes. The predominant feeling was that I was becoming spiritually centered and inclined to self-reflection. A soft glow soon infused my surroundings and colors were enhanced.
At 6:45, I began a session with spice. I vape with a HotBox, dropping approximately 50mg of DMT freebase on a bed of Caapi leaves. The exact amount in the 'whip' doesn't matter, since dosage is determined by the depth and number of breaths drawing in vapor. I have been surprised how quickly I have been able to control my dosage after just a dozen sessions or so.
I put on some beautiful music, keeping the lights low, and took only a moderate hit of the Spice. I was very pleased to discover that any unpleasant aspects of vaped DMT were non-existent with the harmala. There is a certain 'plastic' sensation I get without the harmala, a feeling that the DMT is unnatural, and it makes me want to resist. I felt so much more comfortable and accepting of the experience. Only mild OEVs, a philodendron defining itself, its living nature juxtaposed with the shelf and wall beyond.
At 6:55 I applied an additional 15mg of harmala to gums and cheeks. I found that if I breathed through my mouth as if to dry my teeth, undesirable salivation was minimized.
The next hit of DMT was at 7:15. A little more this time, and I became aware of a desire to lay out fully extended and symmetrical. Something in me was instructing me that the geometric nature of spirits wanting to enter required my body to be configured in a way to ease their entrance. Brief CEVs: waves of bright color.
I changed the music to be sounds from nature, placed approximately 30mg more spice in the whip, and took a small hit followed by a deep one-- something that I know will send me. And send me it did.
The CEVs came on strong were incredibly vivid: multicolored pulsing forms (mostly red and yellow) that collected to create complex conglomerations of living geometric beings, somewhat insect-like. I tried opening my eyes, but didn't care for it, because I couldn't make sense of the input.
Closing my eyes again, I found myself longing for some entity to come and speak to me. Nothing came and I struggled to call out. My voice cracked, and quietly I was able to say, "I call on you... please." I then realized that I was being guided to clear my own communication channels. My voice was cracked and weak. I chanted the mantra "Ham," to open my throat chakra.
At this point I could feel fingers probing my chest, pointing out to me some pain there. "You have invited in poison," I thought to myself, but as if from outside myself. I have been smoking a bit socially, maybe 12-15 cigarettes a week.
I tried to argue but the fingers kept probing the ache. "There is no place for this now. You must send it away, or you are inviting poison."
I focused my energy at sending it away, and the ache faded. I was then overwhelmed with the sensation of being an empty clear vessel, like a plastic bubble or shell. I lost my attachment to myself and saw my being as a clear, hollow form that collects and projects energies from around it, but is nothing in of itself. I was relieved, and found myself wanting to simply position myself to keep myself clear enough to effectively disburse the light.
When I finally had the interest to open my eyes again it was nearly 8:30. Now at 9:30 there is still a bit of glow around things. I feel that the harmala was a powerful and beautiful addition to my work with spice. I recommend it to others looking to broaden their travels.