Ahhh I'm really getting upset t myself . Once again and for the past 3-4 nights every since I made my frat batch of spice . Iv prepared myself to go on a journey with this wonderful molecule and when I go to hit it subconsciously I won't let myself hit it hard enough to have any real affects. I'm kinda scared . I never been a huge psycadelic person . And I don't have a sitter for emotional comfort . I don't know what to do . I know I wanna experience this but I scared to jump ...

I will be more than interested to hear of your trip report when you do finally get the right setting in place for your experience.

Mesculine was big for me. Really intense but I found a light threshold dose that works for me now and but it did take a couple of goes at it first. Aya is the stongest launching ground into the back of your own mind/uncoscious/subconcsious so be ready to deal with yourself in an intense way.

She is a heavy handed teacher from what I understand.

Cheers.

DMT is a rollercoaster, once on you can't get off til the operator lets you, measure outlike 25 MG and hit the pipe hard (Fanning with lighter of course) 25 MG should be potent enough for nice visuals but not full breakthrough, I've had intense trips on about 30-35 MG though as well, and everyone is different, but I am fairly experienced in a few drugs, and DMT can still be intense for me, maybe its best if you try aya in a high dose first prior to blast off some people that experience the blast off get scared away from the intensity, and I feel if they tried aya first maybe this wouldn't have happened. I find 2G Syrian Rue split into 700 MG in 1 capsule, 700MG in a 2nd capsule and 600MG+100MG DMT in a 3rd capsule taken the first two rue ONLY caps 15 mins apart then downing the 600MG Rue/100MG DMT cap 5-15mins after ingesting the rue caps works well is an easily controllable trip with waves lasting about 3-4 hours very nice OEV and CEV and warm fuzzy feelings!

I was actually thinking of doing some aya . Or do you think changa would be easier or less of a by his jump?

I think my main problem is I've always be weary to try things first . I like to do new things with someone that has already done it. But I don't know anyone that has . And. Of sure how to go about finding someone to help me . I really believe having a person withme instead of being alone would give me the confidence to dive into it .

I really truly appriciate your guys imput though . I'm gonna try and get of s rue . And I found an herb shop here in Denver that has every herb listed on here for making changa except for caapi .

Do you guys have changa experience ? What's your favorite blend minus caapi?

It can be very difficult at times.

A few suggestions....

MAOI helps even when smoking. Tried eating some, didn't do shit. Did find however that when I smoked it afterwards it worked much better.

Rather than trying to take a big hit, heat slowly with a candle and take lots of shorter hits while in a comfortable position.

Okay cool . I'm try to that tonight I'm starting to kinda get used to the low dose although from what I have read on nexus there's such a huge difference between low n breakthrough doses. Low doses can be a bit uncomfortable at times for me and somtimes it's like I just took a little but of Molly for a bout 2-4mims . From what I here tho that all goes away when u hit hyperspace .

I have a girl friend coming over tonight and Im gonna try an explain to her or prob just show her the spirit molecule video and see what she has to say cuz she doesn't do drugs but hangs out with people that do an doesn't have a problem and she's in school to be a nurse . So maybe she will be comfortable being my sitter tonight .

We'll see .

There's no race, you can ease into it a bit, until you're used to going deeper. There's no way to really be totally prepared for breakthrough, but not doing so until you're not starting out in a state of anxiety is probably a good idea.

I can add that for me, meditation beforehand with a clear intent on what I wanted to do has certainly helped with fear.

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My first extract I prolly smoked like 5-15MG about 20 times before I jumped to hyperspace just one because I was fearful of the harsh chems and not trusting of my own research and chem and other peoples writings, lmao like I was nervous DMT extraction was a giant online hoax to kill people, then when I finally saw everything turn golden and I was very uncomfortable I decided it was real and I needed to go deeper. SO I eventually went deeper just take your time its not something to jump into anyways....when the time is right you will know for sure....