How do people, thought I would drop in and say hi before I start posting. Been browsing for some time now and thought I would get involved with the discussions

Oh it seems I have to write an essay before I can post elsewhere lol, fair enough!

My name is Manuel Calavera & I currently reside in the land of the dead, where I work as a Travel Agent. I have been interested in entheogens for quite some time and am seeking to build on my spirituality and hopefully uncover some answers to questions I have been asking recently.

I am familiar with LSA, Pscilocybin, Salvia, THC along with several other nasty synthetics which I have graduated from and turned my back on

Hopefully I can contribute to the topics on the board with insights and experiences, whilst also learning a whole heap of stuff from you guys

Namaste.

Hey Calvera!
Funnily enough I was about to post "From a newbie to another newbie - welcome!", so just: Welcome!

P.S. The alcohol abuse brought me to where I am now, which is where I feel I'm supposed to be. I don't think I'd trade the life I've had for another - at least not just yet

Haha what a coincidence. Of course not! I respect your positive vibes and everything can be enjoyable in moderation, are you still drinking??

Good grief no!!!

Alcohol & I just don't mix. It brings out my Shadow - an unpleasant character for all concerned.
I view him as something of an alter. My regular conscious self disappears & is replaced by my Shadow. Often I'm unaware of what he's been up to.
When I had blank spots instead of memories I knew something "bad" had happened. It was a real "Raising Cain" or "Fight Club" kind of scenario...if you've seen either of those films.

I've picked up the term "Shadow" from Jungian psychology. I was looking for a term to use for a series of self-portraits relating to the whole issue & happened to start reading Jung at the time - synchronicity at its best

Wow, thats quite deep. Seems that alcohol isnt your buddy then. I think everyones personality can switch VERY easily on alcohol but when you black out and your alter ego takes over, thats when its time to call it a day. Its good to see you accepting these issues, however, and taking action i.e.) cutting out the drink.

My mother and all of my ex girlfriends say Im a nasty drunk, maybe I too should take note and follow in your footsteps.

Ive never heard of Jungian psychology, whats that?

Jungian psychology, there's a question hehe.
It's a model of analytical psychology based on Carl Jung's theories. That's not very helpful really is it?

I'm by no means an expert. In fact a good deal of his writings are way over my head, lots of technical psychology that I simply don't understand, or have a grounding for.

I got interested in his idea of synchronicity for various reasons & decided to see what he had to say about it. I bought a book containing a collection of some of his essays, including one on synchronicity, & I went from there. Some of the material in the collection was as interesting, if not more so, than the synchronicity stuff & I was hooked. He's worth googling if you're interested in that kind of thing. I tended to gravitate more towards the writings that I felt had a 'spiritual' aspect to them.

Regarding the alcohol thing, I couldn't advise anyone one way or another on their habits/patterns whatever. I know that for me total abstinence was the only way my life was ever going to move forward in a meaningful way. Even now, I wonder if that's actually happening sometimes.

I'm interested in why you too are seeking higher truth.

Thanks for the reply Mister Pip, your posts are very well worded, are you a writer?

I had a look on google regarding Jung Psychology and it looks quite interesting. One of his quotes is as follows:



This is interesting as it allows to delve into his patients mind without the ego interfering which suggests his technique would be very effective and produce more realistic results from experimentation, rather than the usual lie on the couch and talk to me scenario which can easily be masked by human consciousness. What are his views on spirituality etc which you found most interesting?

How much were you drinking if you dont mind me asking? And what were you drinking? I have never had someone close to me turn to alcoholism and I find it intriguing how somebody can wake up out of bed and instantly reach for the vodka (not saying you were an alcoholic but personally I cant stand the site of booze after a heavy nights drinking).

I have quite a strange story actually which I wont go into in detail, but I have always been fascinated with 'the other world' whether it be paranormal, spiritual or substance induced. I met somebody around a year ago who has come to be a close friend of mine that introduced me to things that they do not teach you in school e.g.) Illuminati, Anunnaki, demons, fallen angels. She encouraged me to attempt lucid dreaming, which I failed at miserably!

I then moved on to try astral projection. The first night in trying I dont think I had a typical OBE (I may of just been in a deep mediative state) but I was transported to a beautiful blue sky, floating miles high, at the foot of a huge golden pyramid. This obviously startled me and opened my eyes. I was then fully awake/alert and witnessed a liquid like shadow cloud hover above my head for a good 10 minutes whilst I lay in bed. After this I was fully converted and have been looking into the powers of the 3rd eye ever since.

Hello Calavera,

Welcome to the Nexus. I've enjoyed reading your posts in this thread and I have a sense that you will make a great contributing member here, .

Sounds like you've done some reading already. Good deal. I'd encourage you to dive right in and actively participate in the New Member's sections. I suspect you shall be promoted fairly soon if you do so.

Have you taken a big, hefty dose of shrooms yet? Sometimes a big dose of shrooms can offer a peak that is somewhat similar to DMT or a DMT comedown. I'd say the same with a big dose of LSD imo, but it sounds like you have only accessed LSA to date.

DMT is an amazing trip. You have many options, from extraction and/or growing your own plants to vaping to oral with an MAOI. I hope you enjoy the adventures to come and find what you are looking for.

Again, welcome to the Nexus.

Hello Pandora, many thanks for the extremely welcoming reply, that means a lot I shall start contributing to the New Members Section shortly then as that sounds like the place to be!

The boundaries with our little fungi friends has not been pushed to the extreme as of yet but my friends pet centipede is actually growing a fair few at the moment so I will be entering that world rather shortly (and will post about my experiences). Previous experiments have been quite interesting, however, full of aliens, ancient egyptians and talking T-Shirts so this is something I am looking forward to greatly.

You are correct about the LSA, nice observation. LSD has not been readily available at my location and have grew to dislike 'man made' chemicals, although this is something I have been interested in experiencing for some time so who knows, the power of attraction might deliver some time in the future.

What you said regarding DMT is what led me to be so fascinated by it. Although I am a virgin as of yet, I understand it is literally the 'spirit particle' with the highest content found in your body during death and at birth and it is found in such a large number of plants. And the fact that it is outlawed in many countries is just ludicrous as it is a naturally occurring chemical found in the brain! The pineal gland is a subject with I am extremely interested in and I am looking forward to discussing matters on these boards. My friends pet centipede has prepared an Ayahuasca brew which I am desperate to talk to people on here about before I partake in the ceremony, so hopefully I can get promoted soon!

Many thanks again for the welcome

Seriously, I got freaked out by a centipede appearing in a dream I had last night.
You couldn't write this stuff...

Wow, astral travel & lucid dreaming are not things I'm too familiar with. I've heard of them, read a little & have a friend who practices lucid dreaming, but really I'm in the dark. I'd like to learn more.

Jung & spirituality - I think I probably inferred more than is there. Perhaps it was the head space I was in at the time, but I do feel there was a spiritual undercurrent to a lot of the material I read. Phrases such as 'transcendent function' helped with my interpretation I think. Jung did plenty of research into the occult & mysticism, so I think there's a natural spiritual link there. I avoided the heavily technical psychology, so I'm biased of course.

Booze -I never managed to keep count of what I was drinking. I was mainly a beer man, switching to spirits if I physically couldn't stomach any more fizzy alcohol, or if I'd had a brainstorm of sorts. A big part of my problem was a total lack of control over whether to stop or not once I'd taken the first drink of the day. Usually I just kept going until I dropped or ran out of cash. There were odd exceptions of course, but they prove the rule as the saying goes.

Lucid Dreaming & Astral Projection are both extremely interesting subjects which we should definitely converse about in the future, there is much to talk about and I am sure there are plenty of members of these boards who can share some great insight!

Technical psychology, now that sounds like it could get complicated! Psychology and spirituality are so closely linked together, its just been termed 'psychology' in this western world we live in in order for it to look good on paper and be acceptable to the not so forgiving public. After all, the mind is the reflection of ones soul and spirit so there is a definitive mutual understanding between the 3. I will be looking more into Jung once I have the time

Its so good to hear that you tackled your demons head on in regards to the alcohol. What are your entheogens of choice currently? Obviously you didn't join Nexus to talk about booze

Currently, I'd say only DMT. In my mind it's the way to go. I am drawn to other hallucinogens for some reason, but, yeah, at the moment my focus is on the spice.
I'm not sure if I, personally, count cannabis/hash as an entheogen although I see no reason why one should or could not. I suppose in some ways it has contributed to areas of my spiritual experience(s)/practice.

My last dabble with LSD was 2 - 3 years ago I was quite wary & cautious of what I was doing, despite having done a fair bunch of acid in my "let's get messed up bra" phase. I'd like to do more 'shrooms, but I'm too lazy to go picking them on my own, plus I'd worry about poisoning myself.
I'd prefer to stay away from synthetics at the moment & I'm unsure of the legal status of salvia & such like here.

How about you?

You wouldn't have to worry about mushroom poisoning if you grow your own. Check out the pennington birdseed tek. If you can't find spores, then I think a manure tek would work without spores if I'm not mistaken but I think manure would produce different mushrooms also. So the risk would mimick picking. I guess I'm one of the oddballs that prefer lsd over fungus. I like the entergetic/electric body high that lsd gives opposed to the sedated feeling of shrooms.

Awesome tip end of flesh, thanks.
I'd also like to grow my own mimosa or acacia.