hellos! I recently found this website and figured that it could help me explore DMT.
Now, I already know that DMT is an extremely powerful hallucinogenic that causes out of body experiences. I am not here for recreational purposes. Just some answers.

About a year ago I smoked a little too much spice, and had about a 40 minute bad trip. I could not feel my body, my vision became over clouded by black and white fractal hallucinations, time seemed to overlap with itself, and I could not control my heart rate or body temp. I thought and felt like I was dying. Along with this, I had no idea what I just smoked. I freaked out. Later that night I also ODed on Molly because all I wanted was to just feel safe and happy (after that trip).

This fucked up night has stuck with me. I can't seem to run from it. I've begun to have flashbacks of it, and I just want it to stop.

So I have recently come to the conclusion, the reason that this is haunting me is because I'm afraid of it. I am afraid of alternate realities. But along with this I am afraid of my own mind. I was clinically depressed for a number of years, and those dark areas, I don't even want to touch. But by running from them, I wont make them any better.

I'm hoping that through research of DMT (or other drugs like it), mental preparation, safe and secure settings/ mind set and loyal sitters (I have three in mind, a spiritual friend, an EMT, and a friend with Brazillian JiuJitsu practice) that I can revisit that transcended atmosphere and make peace with it. I want to go their on my own accord to face my fears and embrace them. They are apart of me whether I like it or not.

I am looking to start a new. I want to rid myself of that past life. By smoking DMT I hope I can find closure and enlightenment.

Any and All who have any information about this drug, concerns, and comments are greatly appreciated.