I've had a little bit of changa sitting in my room for a little while now and have been waiting for the right time to go back for another visit. I prepared the room with some incense and a short meditation and put on some Enya to set the mood. I always pack the bowl before I start this so that I don't give my nerves a chance to spark back up while I'm packing the bowl. I can never seem to shake the sense of anticipation before I take a hit which manifests itself as nervousness. I've had some difficult times before but as a whole my experiences have been overall very positive.
I take a big hit and suddenly get that familiar feeling that something has changed within and I get sort of disoriented and forget what I was just thinking, feeling etc. the moments before I take a hit and then starts the body buzz and the vibratory sound which sounds a lot like a group of cicadas chirping but the sound is superimposed on itself sort of like a musical canon. I close my eyes and see the faint patterns as I take another hit. As I'm hitting it the phone rings which startles me but as soon as I notice what it is I burst into laughter at the irony that I've tried to make it all so perfect but in the end it has been interrupted by a stupid phone. It was like the heavens telling me that you can never be totally prepared. I attribute this to me not completely breaking through. The colour behind my eyes gets richer and the patterns more complex and I take an even larger hit. After this hit I pretty much dropped my pipe as I look out the window and see the trees form into complex patterns which makes them look like a living creature.
I close my eyes and see a few entities but one in particular caught my attention and seemed to be the center of attention in my visions. It was a lady who from what I can remember looked like some sort of forest queen with deep technicolour reds, browns and greens. She winked at me and raised her hand. Out of her hand rose a cube of sorts with glowing patterns/symbols on it. Before I could know it she smiled and threw this cube like object straight at my head. As it hit me I opened my eyes to see that my ceiling was flourescent white.
As I look up at the ceiling I see the downlights are like the centers of a sea of vortices which act like they are sustaining one another. I remember being convinced that if I removed one of the downlights that all the downlights would disappear. Suddenly I hear a crashing sound but my dog, who was laying next to me, jumped up and started barking I stare at her and notice how intricate all her little curls are. She looked like she was made so perfectly and there was not a thing out of place. For some strange reason her barking made me less worried about the crashing sound and I viewed her as my guardian of sorts. I start hearing punching sounds and realize that nextdoor are doing renovations. They couldn't have picked a worser time to start since I was trying to leave my body and they did nothing but hindered the process.
By this time I was starting to come to, my body still vibrating and my ears still buzzing with energy. I find I am able to stand up and grab my guitar which I received for Christmas
and have been learning to play recently. I must admit I'm not that great but as I sat back down and started playing I was amazed at the sounds I could make just letting myself go and play, it just sounded so cool. So I kept playing until I was back to base line.
I was pretty bummed that I didn't break through but was left with a body full of energy and enthusiasm whilst also a sense of wonder at the forest woman that I saw, what was in that box she threw at me and what did it mean/signify, if anything. Overall I was happy I did it but next time I think it's best if I do it either late at night so that the phone probably won't ring and there won't be renovations going on next door. Perhaps I'd do it in the bush again which I have done before and it was a great experience where I saw an aztec mask which laughed at me as I acknowledged it's existence but that is a story for another time.
Peace be with you all,
A.