Hi everyone! It's so lovely to be here with you. SWIM lurked for months and you've all taught zir such beautiful things. Gratitude overflows. <3

SWIM listened to the teachings of Terence McKenna and Alan Watts for over a decade. Despite frequent experimentation with less violent psychedelics, ze did not awaken to the magic until zir first DMT experience about half a year ago.

Epiphany of epiphanies.

Ze saw the world tree with the all-ancestor at its head, and learned we are infinite light-beings made from shards of divine essence. Ze traveled with a more experienced dreamwalker and was shown a prismatic field of life-path probability. Returned to our bodies, both of us wept. Such was the epiphany that ze knew ze must seek out knowledge of the sacred plants.

Since that time, SWIM has done 8 small scale (50g) extractions of MHRB following Cyb's Tek, and 1 small scale (50g) extraction of ACRB. Ze has grown so much, and channels the magic into zir art and music. Ze has sang with elves, had concept-sex with aliens, and met zir spirit guide (a phoenix).

Ze has also had some difficult, terrifying experiences. Is told by elves and phoenix not to exceed 3 breakthroughs per day, for integrity of identity. SWIM is a bit of a rascal, though, and played fast and loose with those rules at first.

On the first 4th breakthrough of the day after receiving rule structure for own protection, frighteningly powerful bouncer-elf mazed zir in ascendant thought loop environment. Resulting ego death projected SWIM alone as God at the end of time and wracked with despair from the loneliness, certain ze was trapped forever. Ze knew terror for ze loves Earth, loves being human, and loves zir friends. SWIM feared ze and would not return to zir's beloved Earth and current human incarnation. Or if SWIM returned, it would take a long time, and ze would wake old and gray in an asylum, all loved ones being gone or similarly aged.

This maze experience has happened twice (out of 70-90 journeys)..

The second time, SWIM realized zir body is a temple that summons zir soul to inhabit it. And if ze is mazed or otherwise "dies" off in hyperspace, zir body is able to regenerate a new consciousness/spirit/self. SWIM felt fortunate to learn this lesson about zirself.

However, that knowledge does not make the annihilation or the terror any easier.

Bouncer-elf still scares SWIM, but ze also finds him kind of sexy. Such a scary ability, this mazing power. SWIM hopes to have a friendly loving encounter with this particular elf in the future.

Anyway, SWIM continues in zir witchy ways and continues to accumulate knowledge of the wise and beautiful plants. Ze extends zir deepest gratitude for this stupendous community of seekers. Ze has grown so much, and ze is so thankful!!

. ..featheredged.. .

Is all the gender neutral language and SWIM this and SWIM that just paranoia? Or do we need to be that careful. I feel I am still new at this and trying to learn.

welcome to the forum featheredged,

as far as most of the users here concerned, the consensus is that SWIM and things like that are not necessary becuase it will not stand up against the law anyway. The best protection is the site itself, which does not track IPs and so is rather anonymous, and if you want to go a step further you can use TOR for extra protection.

If you like you can also add a little disclaimer to your posts, like many users have, though I doubt it will stand up either.

Either way, I enjoyed your intro essay and hope you in turn enjoy your stay on the forum

Welcome

Thanks for the knowledge and thanks for the tip on TOR!! <3 <3 <3

Haha! 'Witchy ways'! I'll remember that one! Sounds like SWIY has had some beautiful and terrifying experiences with DMT, featheredged! Not so sure about the 3rd 'oh fuckkkkkk' toke just yet myself!