So I was feeling shitty today, I got a nice cold, and I wanted to feel better. I can't have any weed, which is what I really wanted, but I thought I'd take a low dose of mushrooms. Only about .5 g of psilocybe cyanescens.
Sweet mother fuck........
I have been taking about 3.5 grams of these bad boys, and then I tale this .5 gram thing. Full on break through land. I was so mot expecting this. I think I'm returning to normal, I hope...
It sucks because I have to go to fucking lab class in 2 hours!! I thought I'd hardly feel anything, but here I am full on tripping. It's been rough dealing with the anxiety. So, I thought I'd send my thoughts out into space, maybe I'll feel better then?
I cracked myself up. I've been having all of these "oh fuck, I'm gonna be high and weird and everyone's gonna know" thoughts. I've been doing this for years! These are the thoughts I'm having?! I sound like a teenager...
SO I started laughing because the sucesseiv voices in my head came up with this excuse" Oh, i'm sick, and cold medicine makes me loopy as fuck" and in my head all of the voices coalesced into one voice, to accent the very end of that phrase "loopy as fuck"
So I found a way out!!! I'm so happy now to have an excuse of why I'd be acting odd.
I do respect the mushroom. Good god, is it a powerful force. I didn't mean to anger the mushroom gods by casually taking mushrooms! I just wanted to feel better, and to have mild effects!! Spare me oh mighty beings, this is lowly and (re) humbled soul.....
But you get what you get, don't you?
I wonder what the deal is? Why is this such a heavy trip? I did do ayauasca last saturday, but didn't quite get where I want to be. I feel some connection to that, but I sure as hell didn't want this now!!
Welp, time is all fucky. I have an hour and 40 minutes till I have to go...
But we all know how that one goes, don't we? Time, you silly bastard you....
Be an adult only when necessary.