sometimes when under the influence of the green leaf my alter ego comes out lol sorry about that. I deleted "his" writing and im back to break it down for you...
Im a person who up until a few months ago was bound by my driving ego. All i cared about was how much money i could "try" and save, how tough i was at work, how little emotion i let out into the world, and how "manly" i could be. I was just so hardcore driven to be a "man" that it sucked all the emotion, love, compassion, and heart out of me.
Then i got hurt... bad enough that i was out of work for 7 months. During those months i was introduced to MJ. It became my BEST BEST BEST BEST friend. I started to see a side of life that wasn't so rock solid, hardcore, machismo. I started becoming more in tune with myself and my emotions. I now know that everything happens for a reason and me getting hurt definitely was a gift not a curse, because without that id be a rock still. So in all of my months of being a "sophisticated" MJ user i rebooted my brain into a less straight forward black and white way of thinking and started to expand my ways of thinking. I started accepting that God wasn't some white bearded dude hanging out laughing at our suffering, rather God was something to achieve or understand or something (what, i don't know yet). And that's what leads me right here to the nexus. Dmt often came up in my reading and research and i always had this intense feeling of I HAVE TO DO THIS. I HAVE TO! not because im a thrill seeker or just looking for the next best high. I truly feel that this amazing thing is the key ive been searching for, the understanding to the misunderstood. Ive never done any type of "drug" up until this year and i feel like im making an adult decision to press foreword with my life and to put my foot down on some real solid ground.
Im here to find out how we all came from a flower...
thanks for reading my new friends
