Hi guys, this is my first post here I just submitted this report to erowid about an hour ago and wanted to show you all. These are I think my most intense salvia experiences
2 days ago
Ok so I'll give the rundown, I've done just about every drug you can name besides inhalants, crack, or PCP. I've always been VERY intune with myself. I've also gone through psychosis which is basically schizophrenia my whole life but moreso in the last year, I am much better now but that's a whole different story. So I have here a bag of 10x Organic Salvia and let me tell you, this stuff is amazing.
So I had just gotten off of work and was looking forward to my package to arrive in the mail, I take off my work clothes as salvia makes me sweaty and I feel like I'm being soaked or dipped in water during the trip sometimes. I go check the mail and yes it's there. I'm very happy
so I prepare a nice fatty bowl in my pipe and get comfortable and lay in my bed for take off. I inhale a really good sized hit and hold for about 30-45 seconds...
Before you know it, I'm being taken back and out of my vision and am able to see and feel that we are all part of these orbs of life or consciousness. I see hundreds of these pods all moving forward mind you and they are ALL connected by this living chord wrapped around it are vines and leaves. I can only see into my pod and my life, I'm still aware that I'm laying on my bed on some level which is this tunnel like thing that. Imagine just being pulled out of your vision from the back and seeing your life but more. For example make a circle with your index fingers and thumbs and put it around your face, now pull your face back but leave the circle there. That circle is your pod. It's like all life is is us looking through some kind of scope or something, imagine the 5 Gum commercial where the guy lays on those beads and they all form and mesh perfectly to him when he falls into it. It feels like that. Outside our realm of "reality" lies this intricate matrix like world. Seriously it felt straight out of the movie The Matrix, when neo wakes up and hes in his own pod. It was almost identical in that sense, that we each have our own little pod we live in, minus being in some embryotic fluid or whatever, down to the dark overtones of this world.
It was black with dark blue overtones to it and just felt surreal and dreamy. Then I feel the presence of some really cool being, I couldn't distinguish female or male with this being, it was just extremely compassionate like it was a worker in this matrix that was watching our pods. I remember this, This place was familiar. I KNOW I've been here, we will all return to this someday as well, it was a knowing that was just lodged in my consciousness. It is the dream machine. So anyways back to this entity, I just felt this being, it wasn't like I saw it but just definitely felt it. It even talked without saying things, like instant telepathic communication, but it was much higher and faster. It spoke like how you would ask the questions yet it's just been answering you the whole time. It felt like an Avatar from the movie? Yeah only it was covered in leaves. It felt human yet kind of alien.
So it says to me as I'm aware I'm leaving my pod, "Let's get you back in there.. Thereee ya go" like the communication was just really full of love. Each layer of this thing was helping me back into my bubble. This is when I started sliding back into my pod. These pods just seemed so easy to break out of, like we can all penetrate these things so easily and just be there. It also completely baffled me how this pod we're contained in is quite literally the entire world if not universe, but here I am looking at it as if it were a basket ball one foot away from my face. This pod was my world. It's very deeply lodged in the subconscious mind
This feeling is a mix of scariness with pure happiness which I think is what keeps us from killing ourselves or something. It's s like a barrier that some people might fear but you have to break it to learn how to live like you might die at any moment. Which would be living in the moment
I think it's called the painbody of the psyche. It sticks to what it's used to until it learns to step outside of this comfort zone. It's beautiful. How what you see is not at all what it is. It even shows me some intricate patterns and shapes that are splitting in half magically changing into something else, but it virtually still is the same. Very hard to explain. There is a thought in this dream world that is on the verge of being grasped but it is monumental and majestic yet simple in this realm. Mysterious here.
I asked to be more connected to it as I love it and am humbled and I want to cry in joy it just feels like home. It tells me "You are already very connected to us/it" again in the loving instant distant communication.
I'm just so starstruck. I find out things that I want to just tell EVERYONE but it's so hard to grasp these concepts they're telling me, they only show me glimpses, which might be all I need. They tell me and show me so much I forget it as they keep telling me more amazing things, that are just all too familiar..
I see an eye open up as if it were to say "I see you"
The second trip which was right after the first
felt more machine like. I was brought back to intense dreamlike childhood memories. I felt a school bus. I felt like I was aware of my room again but at the same time, a page was turning over it, the ceiling that is. Again I felt the distinct knowing pod and could see other people on this gigantic page that was so impossibly close to our world, it was scary I thought this gigantic page or steamroller machine stamp thing was going to collapse into our world, I just remember the feeling and thinking "Wow, that is close!" and kinda freaking out subconsciously. like it's just right on the other side of us. it finally turned onto me, like how I slid back into my pod in the first trip, which I take as the ginormous subtle collapsing. I was then enveloped in a processor world of sorts. It was orange and white, I was falling through grating holes while simultaneously being pulled up a gear shaft with rows of perfectly rowed and fitting pieces with cogs that morphed and changed into other shapes. I realized I could change the flow of these hallucinations to a degree but the grand hallucination was always present. It felt like being pulled up an elevator, but being pulled down at the same time. like stretching my entire being giving it a nice jazzersize.
Which comes to some other very strange feeling I felt. It's something we do sober even. Now if you can move the muscles around in your head, it feels exactly like my being was being pulled around in a circle around my head in a counter clockwise motion. You're completely in control of this sober. It's like my soul was stretching out the the nether regions of my existence. Basically my crown chakra reaching out further in all directions. I can even do it now sober, like when you smile and feel the muscles in your head stretching, its like it goes around in a full circle. and it creates a good feeling. Try it it's pretty cool
I also remember an elephant image was burnt into my vision just like when you stare at the sun for a second and close your eyes and see purple - a polarized version of it. How convenient, a purple elephant in my trip..
only this was a very highly detailed elephant with animation to it swinging its trunk up and down. Is this life, inside out? Now my imagination is as vivid as if it were really reality. The veil has been lifted to this other world which takes intense focus to reach in meditation. I now am perceiving a crystal clear water pond in an enchanted amazon forest with morning sunlight gleaming through it. This pond is very interesting. Voices are telling me "Step through it, Go through it, Go through the other side" So I did, I willed myself and I walked into it and it was like walking through a mirror I was on the other side and cool feel it, It's like walking through a portal of a dream into another dream and it's a very distinct changing feeling. People were so happy I did it. it was a mystical and surreal experience for me.
Life is a trip that has to end someday. All the greatest everything is there but we want to learn more and bring it back. It's like a tractor beam or something we're looking into it and get sucked in. We're here I know that, forged into our awareness bubble. We stop looking through this scope when we die. It is the state of just knowing. We're always communicating to eachother on this level. Everyone of us is hearing what we're trying to hear. They're telling us what to do and think. We just have to be quiet and listen to the bigger picture
thanks for reading my trip report.
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