In my 40+ years of this life, I have a deep seated interest, and more deeply seated respect for furthering my knowledge of the light that is hidden from us in plain sight.
After a devastating health diagnosis several years back I decided that since western allopathic medicine had given up on me, that I had to take my own survival into my own hands.

Implementing a 100% natural, and strict raw vegan diet was the first step to begin the cleansing overhaul of an organism that I had abused physically over the years, and which had been mentally abused since a young age, much of that abuse internalized and un-dealt with causing (IMHO) a toxic internal ecosystem. I am very much a strong believer in the theory (I know personally it's much more than a theory) that over 90% (if not more) of all chronic diseases an illnesses that impact my fellow man originate in the mind, and as negative, toxic energy unable to be corrected causes the bodies internal defenses to break down until an allopathic diagnosis is given.

With this innate belief, I set out to enter into my mind and beyond with the intention of uncovering and facing these negative energies head on, and searching for the originating root of the pattern. We all harbor emotions and feelings and thoughts that we are for the most part unconscious of, but they are inside us all the same, breaking down the organism's ability to hold them in a secure place and protect the body. If only we could all find a way to access deep, hidden, subconscious energetic imprints that negatively affect our existance, then maybe we would live in a world where good health was the 'norm' instead of the black plague that seems to be enveloping western culture. The food we eat, the garbage we watch on TV, the things we say, the things we think about others but don't say are all culminated in the inevitable "I'm sorry to tell you but you have....." conversation in a sterile hospital room, delivered by an even more sterile individual who has lost all compassion for the amazing organism standing in front of him/her.

And so, I found Ayahuasca and from there a whirlwind of events took over my life, but I had little choice if that makes sense. I was called to book a flight and begin my travels into the ancient culture of the Peruvian shipibo shamans. I've since spent months in the Peruvian Amazon, engaging in what have been the most incredibly difficult (unfortunately for the majority of ceremonies) experiences that I've even had to endure, and some of the most beautiful visions of hope that I've ever been blessed enough to experience. The journey into oneself is the most difficult journey that any human can take, and one must be prepared to be completely humbled, often destroyed if one hopes to find the light.

I have a massive respect for these people and for the medicine, despite the extreme terror and hopelessness I've experienced in the court of Aya. This is not a drug, and when I hear of people talking about it as a recreational substance, it makes me very sad and angers me. To be given the gift of seeing is not to be taken lightly, and to truly see the light, one must ultimately face the deepest darkness.

I continue to battle my diagnosis with an open heart and a positive mind, despite the fact that our western world is fearful of this truly spiritual molecule, and I am thankful for places like this forum that allow the minority to gain momentum and I dream of a day where our society breaks through to a realization that we live in a paradise world that should be enjoyed equally by all, and that our lives need not be filled with despair and disease.
I hope to take that journey with all of you who are open and willing and coming from the right place. To those who see this as a recreational tool, I pity you and hope that your psychological destruction that will inevitably arrive (even if you think you have thus far "had cool trips") will allow you to see the error of your ways, and be humbled in front of something that is for your personal growth, not for your amusement.
Thanks for reading and welcoming me to your forum, and I hope to be able to contribute and help us all on this path of discovery and purification of years of poisonous living.

Globe~

Welcome to the forum Globespy,

Sorry to hear you are having to battle serious health problems. We are amazing creatures with a humbling complexity of functions and interactions that all exist only within a precarious balance. Some experiences make me think we are much stronger than we give ourselves credit for, and others make me see just how frail our grip on life is. I'm not sure how big a part the mind really is in the civilatory diseases that plague us. I often feel the same way you do about the toxic mental energy, but at the same time I have no evidence for this, and neither am I sure how beneficial it is to accuse onesself (in general) of having caused an illness yourself in this way.

Some people believe animal products are the reason for civilatory diseases, others believe it's eating processed foods and others believe it's an imballance in the acid and base creation in our bodies. Not to forget industrial toxins, stress, tschernobyl and genetic disposition. It's hard to pinpoint one thing that is THE culprit IMO. But, while some of these things we have no control over, some we do, and if we decide to fight a sickness that ails us, it is these we have to work with.

So diet and the mind it is. I applaud your courage. I wish you well in this process.

You say you dislike the idea of taking dmt for amusement, and that it should not be used as recreation. I do not agree. I believe doing things for amusement, for genuine amusement, to experience euphoria and elation and total relaxation, to experience beauty, is very healthy. This is exactly the thing that can help prevent toxic mental energy, that releases and transforms any psychological blockages. Not every journey with psychedelics has to be directed at healing, or spirituality in this strict sense. Otherwise we would be doing what modern day doctors do - they step in when something is already wrong. There is no "health care" there is only "sick care". There is no prevention of sickness or anything of the likes. We can use psychedelics in a healthy way, in a preventive way, which might be called recreational because it does not address a specific problem, because there is nothing wrong.... at least this is what I believe.

Thanks for the warm welcome. I look forward to many interesting conversations in time.
I agree with your use and in that sense I suppose the word recreational is perhaps not the appropriate word.
Expanding ones consciousness and awareness in the light is indeed a noble cause, my comment was perhaps more aimed at those who treat ayahuasca as something to party on. If you do then you are one hell of a brave partier! Is not a substance I would ever associate with a party vibe, and many have been blasted into places that they were absolutely not prepared for and the substance can have very tough consequences. I think as long asb one enters the dimension with a sense of respect and positive intent, then it's a worthwhile endeavor.
Happy voyages my friend.

welcome Globespy.

I really hope your will be restored to health soon. Sure psychological strengh will be involved and I wish the will to live is a good guide for you on this path.

I also admit that sometimes bad thoughts can be poisonous and healing techniques of western culture are full of wisdom. And (as a vegan) i can only be happy for your descovery of a new,healthy and tasty diet.

The gift of sight is an incredible experience, though, i agree with enoon. (The active compound is a naturally occuring chemical present in various plants and in our brain) To approach the DMT experience with a light spirit can be a delightful experience.

More to think of it as a solution or an answer to inner questions while seeking for enlightenment can be dangerous,or at least this my point of view. The Nexus is a great place for sharing and understanding and i suspect some members are quite as valuable as a shaman can be but with a different approach .

As a recent member i really love this community and i know you will too!

PS: my english is not so good please do not attach received wisdom on my words

You seem like a great person and i wish the best for you and your health issues. You have a great attitude and that is what I personally and what everyone here looks for in new members. I give you my vote to become a full member.

I look forward to getting to know you.
Swing by the chat sometime.

Hostilis

Your English is terrific! I'm sure my attempts are your native tongue would be considered 'bad'. Don't be hard on yourself, your English is great!

Thank you very much for the warm welcome and the vote to become a member - that means a lot as I only wish to contribute constructively and with respect.
Appreciated.

Thank you ManifestTheMind (very cool name) for your kind welcome and I look forward to chatting more with you all over time.
Also thanks for the recommendation to be allowed to contribute full in the community - I hope the admins are watching!

Looking forward to getting to know you all more, and learn for each others journey's into the light.

BTW - where is "The Chat"? I couldn't see such a thread from the main index?
Thanks.

Thank you for the wisdom

I can't quite tell if your comment is intended to be sarcastic (I'm British so I kind of get sarcasm - we probably invented it), but that's where my 'gut needle' is pointing. If my feeling is correct, can I ask why you even bothered to say anything when you had nothing positive to say? My story shouldn't be for your critique, unless I somehow caused offence or was disrespectful to anyone?
I'm trying to stay glass half full while fighting for my life - plain, pain and simple.

If I'm somehow mistaken and your comment misinterpreted, my sincere apologies for not understanding your intentions, after all words on a page can often be misinterpreted in lieu of tone or intonation.

I could have been more clear, but of course I'm always thankful for another opportunity to post

I admire your struggle, few people are looking at their impending future with such stronghearted positivity.

The wisdom I extracted from your post was being demonstrated through words another very real reason to make efforts to watch my internal world carefully.

Can't blame you for the confusion though and I will be praying for you, sir. You also inspired me to listen to some Peruvian music.

check the top left of your screen, right above the banner - there should be a link to the chat

WHy do you feel that a raw vegan diet is the best way to go about getting your health in order? I only ask this because I have suffered with health problems also and was eventually told I have inflamatory bowel disease as well as leaky gut. I have tried almost everything I came across.

I went raw vegan for a number of years, very strict raw vegan all organic and nothing but wild spring water and even fruitarain for a time with 10 day juice feasts periodically. After 2 years of that I was so run down into the ground I could barely get out of bed in the morning..and I had been watching my gf go downhill for some time too also, really really fast after she had been a raw vegan for 7 years. Her results from the naturopath were horrible..her hormone levels were completely our of wack on that diet.

Getting onto a more primal diet fixed that really fast..we just began to forget about the raw thing and cook when we wanted to, and added in raw grassfed dairy, organic freerange meats and eggs.

This sort of primal diet has really began to help me in ways nothing else did. I am interested in people who have been raw vegan for more than 7 years and are still going strong and have actaully healed whatever they suffer from..only becasue I have yet to really see much of that taking place. I was very much invovled in that whole scene for a time and I encountered many frail and sick looking people who claimed to be cleansing still after doing it for a long time. At least for my body I know that that diet cannot sustain me, but there are a few people out there who seem to make it long term(like 15-20 years) with proper health intact which sort of baffles me.

Be well and welcome to the nexus

Welcome Globespy,

I enjoy your deep spirited thinking and the value you gain from teachings of ayahuasca. You seem to have a good sense of wisdom that most people lack.

Although there is much more to health than what western medicine and the pharm companies say you should do, it is very beneficial to take some of what they offer with discretion and think for yourself. The mind is definitly involved in healing but comes in harmony with the omnivorous diet we humans have evolved to depend on, that being a balance between animal and vegetable products. Too much focus on either causes health issues. I have found great health in balance of meats, vegetables, and Vitamin B's/C. Glad to have you join the community and I sincerely hope you overcome your ailments!

Thank you for your follow up, and again my apologies in thinking there was sarcasm involved.
As I mentioned, words on an LCD display lack human emotion that comes from tone and intonation.
Thank you for your kind words and your prayers.... I have a large collection of Peruvian icaros that I'm happy to share with you if you use drop box? I find very centering during my journeys.
I would be happy to share with.... Shoot me a PM and I can send you some links.
Thank you friend.

Welcome! I see wisdom in your words.

I don't think that any one diet is good for everyone. I was further inspired to continue a vegan diet after my months in Peru where I was observing 'La dieta', basically an entirely plant based diet, although not entirely raw. I have since added more cooked vegan foods to my daily diet. I felt that the synergy between the many plants and vegetables helped me work closer with the medicine, almost that each plant boosted the effects of the others. I felt physically clean and the various intentional purging using tobacco juice and a horrible plant called wankabe (think forceful vomiting every 10-15 minutes for 8+ hours) helped cleanse my stomach and bile production. Ultimately the impacts of the medicine became stronger and more encompassing after a month of this practice. I would not wish this wankabe (spelling probably wrong) on anyone, and it was known by the apprentice shamans as " LA planta el diablo". Not an experience I would rush to do again.
As for the vegan thing, and especially the fruitarian diet, most troubles ate due to a lack of food. When I was observing a fruitarian diet, I was eating between 4000-5000 calories per day in line with the wonderful people at WWW.30bananasaday.com site.
I was eating 25 - 30 bananas a day during a mono diet, however when eating other fruits I was eating massive quantities of food above 4000 calories and felt terrific! There's a truly inspirational guy called ' The Fruitarian' who runs a marathon every day. Google or YouTube him. He's amazing.
So, essentially eat more food and perhaps you will thrive... I know it had worked for me.

Thank you kash! I am open minded to ask ideas and will do whatever it takes. I agree that both mind and body are crucial to optimal health. I'm just not much of a meat eater.... On occasion a little fish, but red meats make me want to gag and my body feels poisoned after eating them .. just not for me... ironic as i grew up on meat and 2 veg!

"There's a truly inspirational guy called ' The Fruitarian' who runs a marathon every day."

Oh I know of him..and lets just say my opinion of both him and the 30BAD and the fruitstock festival people is pretty low for various reasons I wont go into but if you benefit from them than thats all that matters. Thank you for your response It's hard trying to find a healthy niche in the world we live in today. I am just thankful I found my place.