I wish I could give you a hug... you are a wonderful human being for being able to muster up any amount of positive energy after such an occurrence. The strength of individuals like yourself is what really makes this forum an incredible community.

Know that there really are people out there that feel with you and for you.

me too.
I don't know what makes people think they are entitled to invade your domain
and take your life or the lives of your loved ones.


my condolences as well.

Me three. I hate to bring the gun debate into this discussion but my home was invaded last year while I slept. Many items were taken but thankfully I did not wake up and go downstairs. If I had, there is a possibility I would be in your shoes. Therefore, I now take measures to protect myself.

There are sick, desperate people out there with zero regard for your life or the lives of your family members. It's important to keep this in mind.

Again, my deepest condolences. May you find healing in the coming months.

I'm so sorry for your loss brother. It is terrible what happened, and I wish I could be there with you in this time of need. I have faith you will recover and learn much from this rough journey. I know it will all make sense to you in retrospect. You will be alright my friend..hang in there. Surrender to what is. Much love and warmth to you<3

alert,

I am so very sorry for your loss. It's almost too much to grasp/understand and yet here you are in the middle of it all. One searches for meaning and sometimes one finds it and sometimes one does not. We reach out to higher powers and are greeted with silence.

I have always felt that true adulthood comes with the loss of parents. It's so sad, but it forces us to a.) truly be on our own and b.) find new family, find a new understanding that sometimes, a lot of times, family is where one finds it.

Try to be easy on yourself and don't be afraid to reach out for help, be that from other relatives, counselors, if you are a church member, etc. And of course, here, us.

We cannot heal your wound. Many of us have wounds or scars that are similar but that's all. We can listen and try to offer you our love and support. And in a way that's all any family can really do that really matters in my opinion. So, please don't be afraid. We don't know who you are - speaking for myself and my area of living that is a rather common headline, .

I'm glad you chose to share and glad you are feeling a bit better. This will not be an easy time. Major life transitions never are. Again, I implore you to continue reaching out. Please stay alive. I am absolutely SURE that your mother, father and brother would tell you they were sorry it worked out this way but that you should in fact take your time . . . .

Speaking for my personal loss, I came to realize that my dead loved ones would be saddened if I ended my life or if I spent it not healing but stuck in the grieving state.

It takes time. Again, I stress that it's okay to ask for help and that I hope you will find strong family feelings here.


All of this is just personal opinion of an aging woman - if I have said anything offensive or insensitive I sincerely apologize. I and the rest of us Nexians wish you only the best possible outcomes for these challenging times.

Peace & Love,
Pandora

Thank you for the kind words everyone.

I am still managing to hold myself together despite how much my body just wants to fall apart. I have been in contact with some of the law enforcement agencies involved as well as going over pictures of the crime scene to determine if anything was missing and it appears the only things taken were a couple laptops and a safe.

As far as I know the safe contained nothing of value other than old family pictures, passports, birth certificates, social security cards, my mothers ashes, and a Luger that had been taken home from WWII as a war prize.

There were multiple large gun safes that the killers attempted to brute force but were unable to get open and unable to move. They are searching for forensics.

My brother used to keep some of his guns around the house in case someone tried to break in but he recently got custody of his son and he decided to lock up all the guns in the safe. Luckily my nephew wasn't there.

A couple people were seen fleeing the crime scene and the police have a good idea of the make and model.

Now I am in the process of dealing with my college so that I can and get what affairs together I can. I'm not sure where to start. I have been numb since seeing the crime scene photos.

I can't believe these fucks not only took the lives of my brother and father, but the ashes of my mother. I feel like I have been cast in a bad movie.

Once again I appreciate all the good vibes you have sent my way. Reading all of your kind words has kept me going. That, and knowing I have to grow up and be a father to my nephew now as his mother is not capable of providing any type of healthy emotional support.

Sorry for any typos, I didn't take the time to proof read.

It will get better. Just hold on, time will heal your heart.

I am mortified to hear that you were shown these images... I can only imagine how difficult that would be. Again, I offer my condolences.

I am humbled by your desire to be there for your nephew.

I cannot speak for this brave young man (alert), but speaking for my own and somewhat horrific loss of family, my REAL healing took a longer time to get going than it should have - and then, to make a long story short, getting the police report, seeing pics and finally getting back personal burned items really helped me. It was tough/bad at first but then I came to deeply realize that it was so much better for me to know rather than not to know. Imagination/fantasy/dreams were not my friends during the years of not knowing. . .

My deepest condolences for your loss. No one should endure something like this and it won't be easy to get through, but the fact you're able to express yourself the way you do is a good omen.

Share with us anytime, and take care.

What you are going through is something I can only offer stunned sympathy for, it is morally dumbfounding how human being can justify entering anothers home with the intent to steal anything, especially life. I'm truly shocked at this, and dont have any words that could ever make it better, or comprehensible.
I was the victim of a home invasion when I was 18. Was brutally beaten over several hours, after the bastard found a bag of 'cut' my roomate used for cocaine, that I didnt even know about. Tried to blow my head off, but the shotgun jammed, then was left naked and hog-tied in the bathtub. This was in 1988 and I still deal with the PTSD.
I wish I could tell you that it'll get better, and I suppose it will, over time. You have to remember that you had nothing to do with it, no way to avoid or prevent it, and theres no way to change it. I am truly sorry.
And it does sound like maybe, hopefully with any justice, these monsters will be removed from society after they are caught. Good luck in that respect. The bastard that robbed me was never even saught. Peace brother, AMEN.