Hi Everyone,

Just a short intro re: me:

I'm new to this scene but read an interview of Sting in the Rolling Stones mag a few decades ago (so now you have an idea of which generation I come fron) regarding his first experience with Ayahuasca. At the time I remember thinking how cool it sounded and how much I'd love to do it. I was pretty sure that was never going to happen though as the Amazon never seemed like a place I'd want to visit. Too many bugs and snakes for me!

Fast forward to a few months back, I found out about some ceremonies being held locally by good people and climbed on board ASAP! Very soon, I will be having my first 2 experiences and I just can not wait!!

Now I did my share of acid and mushrooms in my teens and 20s and did not like them at all, so I'm not looking forward to the hallucinations along with the vomiting etc. But I've been (obsessively) reading/watching all that I can get my hands on re; Aya and am really looking forward to it.

I've kicked drugs, alcohol and just recently cigarettes and am looking forward to getting the sugar and diet pop monkeys off my back soon too (I've cut down greatly). I've done a mystery school and other metaphysical sessions, seen psychologists, etc. too. But there's still a lot I've got left to rid myself of. Ego would be a good start as it get's me into most of the problems.

I am fortunate that I'm fairly functional and now too bowed down by the weight of the world but we've always got work to do. And darn it if it doesn't feel great after a chunk of the ca ca stuff is gone.

So, I have many hopes for Aya but I'm sure she'll know best and I'm cool with that.

Thanks for having this space for me to share with.

Why did you not like mushies or LSD or hallucinations? Not trying to sound condescending or anything but Ayahuasca is pretty powerful medicine not for the faint-hearted. What makes you think you are ready?

Im am glad you want to break free from the every day trance, or wavelength, that is normal reality and welcome you to the nexus.

Im curious as well as to why you didn't like LSD and especially mushrooms? If anything mushrooms are similar in many ways to ayahuasca. Although, ayahuasca is indeed pretty powerful and will leave no stone unturned.

If you didn't like LSD/mushrooms(especially mushrooms), Im having a hard time understanding how your going to 'like' ayahuasca.

And..it's not so much about 'liking' a psychedelic, as these re tools for self growth, and in most instances the experiences they facilitate can be a tough cookie to swallow, because more times than not, they give you what you need and not what you want.

Thank you for the welcome.

Yes, I thought about why I made that comment about LSD/Mushrooms later last night and realized that the point I was trying to get across was that I was not in it for the fun of it. That I'm a "serious" seeker, which is utter bullshit when I really think about it but I digress. (kuz I'd meditate more, etc.)

Although its been about 30 years since I've experienced either of them, what I remember disliking about them was the lack of control... I was more of an alkie/downer type of girl. You know, to calm my nerves. Ha!

Now while I still don't like giving up any semblance of the idea that I might have control, I'm a little more accepting and able to let it go.

Also, the set and setting wasn't even close to ideal... I was a goofy teenager trying to escape my life and heavy metal music made/makes me feel rather satanic-like.

As for breaking free comment, I've always been on the outside of things and still am in most ways. I'm happy to go further because none of the "normal" stuff has ever felt right. This may be ridiculous to say but I welcome the "no stone unturned" bit. I need a good butt whooping... not that I'm a masochist or anything (ok, maybe a little ) but I'm not living up to my potential and I know it.

And for the "liking Ayahuasca," I don't expect that I will. I'm just looking forward to getting closer to my path.