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Creutzfeldt–Jakob disease  Nasty Fucker  http://en.wikipedia.org/...dt%E2%80%93Jakob_diseaseUntil I went to see him in the hospital December 6th, we hadnt really spoken in about 10 years. Over nothing. Stupid shit. Thats another story. He had been in the hospital for about 2 weeks at that point, but had been showing showing minor symptoms as far back as a couple years, and serious symptoms for about 4 or 5 months. Wouldnt go to hospital because he couldnt afford it. Waited until he couldnt walk and a friend had to come get him. Ive been staying with him at the the hospital and then the hospice until now. I had to come home. Just need some home. At this point he is no longer able to communicate at all. I love my dad so much and have told him so many times over the past 2 months. He stopped eating 4 days ago. To be honest I feel totally devastated. Enduring is the best I can do at this point. Much love and respect to all
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So sorry to hear your news... You have our ear...whatever...whenever...  Please do not PM tek related questions Reserve the right to change your mind at any given moment.
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I'm very sorry to hear that. I hope you and your family find strength in this very private time of grief. "Eat your vegetables and do as you're told, or you won't be going to the funfair!"
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Posts: 746 Joined: 30-Sep-2009 Last visit: 04-Apr-2024 Location: United Kingdom of Hyperspace
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My deepest sympathies. I really hope his final moments are as comfortable as they possibly can be, we are all here for you when you need us. I lost my father about 5 years ago, so I can understand the pain. I wish you well through these testing times. Peace Macre All things stated within this website by myself are expressly intended for entertainment purposes only.
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Thats awful, and you have my sincerest best wishes. CJD is pretty rare and is a totally ravaging condition. I hope he is comfortable.I know this is scant consolation but even if the diagnosis was made earlier, the progression would have been unaltered by any treatment. My thoughts are with you and your family. I am paranoid of my brain. It thinks all the time, even when I'm asleep. My thoughts assail me. Murderous lechers they are. Thought is the assassin of thought. Like a man stabbing himself with one hand while the other hand tries to stop the blade. Like an explosion that destroys the detonator. I am paranoid of my brain. It makes me unsettled and ill at ease. Makes me chase my tail, freezes my eyes and shuts me down. Watches me. Eats my head. It destroys me.
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ThGiL fO TiRipS
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I am really sorry to hear that. Sending lots of love. We are each of us angels with only one wing, and we can only fly by embracing one another.
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We are all living in our own feces.
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Posts: 1077 Joined: 26-Mar-2012 Last visit: 15-Jan-2016 Location: Far, Far Away
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Much love and many prayers coming your way. I hope both you and your Dad find peace through the whole ordeal. Pup TentacleYou are precisely as big as what you love and precisely as small as what you allow to annoy you.Robert Anton WilsonMushroom Greenhouse How-ToI'm no pro but I know a a few things - always willing to help with Psilocybe cubensis cultivation questions.
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Life is Art is Life
Posts: 697 Joined: 11-Sep-2012 Last visit: 13-Apr-2016 Location: watching the wheels go round and round
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Very sorry to hear this. Mine died from Cancer and side effects from treatment about 5 years ago. He also stopped eating and eventually was taken off of feeding tubes. It is terribly hard to watch someone just waste away. It is good that you were able to have some resolution with him. Wishing Peace and comfort to you both. One other thing I would add, moving forward find someone to talk about your feelings regarding this. Trust me on this. A friend, family, counselor, whatever seems right to you. It does no good to bottle up your feelings and from what you have mentioned I would expect you will have conflicted emotions regarding your love for as well as estrangement from him. Images of broken light,
Which dance before me like a million eyes,
They call me on and on...
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Wow, I am so sorry to hear this. I don't know what else to say. I don't know what you believe, but hopefully he will be recycled into the love of life. Much love and care. "Think more than you speak"
"How do you get rid of the pain of having pain in the first place? You get rid of expectations"
"You are everything that is. Open yourself to the love and understanding that is available."
"To see God, you have to have met the Devil."
"When you know how to listen, everyone becomes a guru."
" One time, I didn't do anything, and it was so empty... Almost as if I wasn't doing anything. Then I wrote about it. It was fulfilling."
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Free Spirit
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I am really sorry to hear this. Much love to you and your family ! With these hands I have killed man and destroyed hopes and dreams. But when I open these hands I can hold my wife, make my children laugh and even aid others. It's not the path that we take but the choices that we make along that path that makes us who we are. -Waugriff
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Much love to you and your loved ones, brother. We're here if there's anything we can do to help. "The Menu is Not The Meal." - Alan Watts
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It's a tough right of passage , I lost both my parents Due to long illnesses . There is nothing more difficult To endure in my book . Sounds like you've done Everything you can . At this point just be present and loving. Don' t beat yourself up afterwards about anything . Keep your dad in your memories and move forward with your life. All the best The only way of discovering the limits of the possible is to venture a little way past them into the impossible. Arthur C. Clarke http://vimeo.com/32001208
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I'm sorry to hear that you are going through this. I recently lost my grandmother to Alzheimer's, and it was a very powerful experience for me. Based on that, I can offer up these words for comfort and support.
- I stayed by my grandmother's side until she took her last breath. I talked to her, I meditated and sent her the energy that she needed to move into the next phase of existence. It was hard to stay strong at points, but I knew that she needed me. Her passing was one of the most profound experiences that I have ever had. So I offer the suggestion that you continue to be there for your father, stay present with him, send him love and healing energy, talk to him, simply be. He will feel your presence, and you will feel his.
Remember that self-care is also important. Do what you have to do in order to re-charge and deal with your thoughts and emotions. Let yourself feel, acknowledge and respect your feelings, and work with them. Reach out for support from your loved ones, including this community.
Sending love and light to you and your family as you embark on this journey together. Remember, you are not alone!
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I'm sorry to hear that man Just remember not to attack your self emotionally. This is the process of life. Seek out a friend or family member that you can talk to about your personal feelings often. We love you and hope that you can process this in a healthy manner. "Energy flows where attention goes" [Please review the forum Wiki and FAQ before posting questions]
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I am sorry to hear that. I just said the Lord's Prayer with an intention toward you, your father, and your irreplaceable relationship. "The infinite vibratory levels, the dimensions of interconnectedness are without end." -- Alex Grey
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Im sorry to hear about this. Though dying is as natural as birth its never quite easy to deal with it. I hope you find the stregnth to deal with this. My advice would be to spend every moment you can with him and make sure to make, past experiences together, a topic of your conversations, regularly. I believe that when it comes close to the end a person wonders allot about legacy and making a difference, having a positive impact in this human experience. Assure him that he has. Its important. Strength IH Ice House is an alter ego. The threads, postings, replys, statements, stories, and private messages made by Ice House are 100% unadulterated Bull Shit. Every aspect of the Username Ice House is pure fiction. Any likeness to SWIM or any real person is purely coincidental. The creator of Ice House does not condone or participate in any illicit activity what so ever. The makebelieve character known as Ice House is owned and operated by SWIM and should not be used without SWIM's expressed written consent.
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♥ ♥ ♥ jah love ♥ ♥ ♥ My wind instrument is the bong
CHANGA IN THE BONGA!
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my dad passed quite suddenly about 2 yrs ago- its still painful to think about.
wishing you and your dad a smooth transition.
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I hope you negotiate your way through this difficult time as easily as it is possible. Much love, my friend.
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I'm am very sorry to hear that you and your dad are going through something so difficult. Be strong, my friend. I (/we) are here for emotional support. Every day I am thankful that I was introduced to psychedelic drugs.
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